Dancing with the heart.
Ms Pang has the AF results and truth be told, I'm scared shitless. Because I know I didn't do my best. I admit I gave up once or twice during the exam. I admit I didn't point my feet as hard as I could at some points, I didn't hold my posture perfectly because it was just, too tiring.
This is the problem with me. I never ever give my all. I never want anything enough. My half hearted attempts always end up in anything but the ideal scenarios. And I lie to myself, that I have done my best. When in fact, I have never. Not once in my life have I ever gave my all. I have been deceiving myself all along. I lie to myself to make myself feel better. But at times like this, when reality bites back, I find it difficult to keep pushing back my nagging conscience.
I do things despite knowing fully the consequences and then my stomach churns and my palms turn clammy and my face pales when I hear the truth. The truth which I have known all along. Just that this time, I can't stop that someone from telling me. The way I keep stuffing the truth back to the deepest, darkest corners of my mind just so I feel a tad happier, for now. Only to fall hard, later.
The number of times when I find myself thinking 'My arms feel too heavy, I shall not snap my wrist as hard.', 'I can't hold my turnout anymore, relax awhile..', 'AP GP? Can lah can lah. Get a few working marks can pass lah.'.
I have spent my life so far short changing myself. I'm not being fair to myself, to everyone.
When will I learn, I wonder. When will I stop disappointing the people who believe in me and most importantly, myself. Maybe this is the answer to the question I have been asking all along. Maybe the reason why I don't know what I'm good at, the reason I'm not particularly good at anything and the reason I have no purpose in life is because I haven't tried hard enough yet to know for sure.
Maybe if I tried hard enough one day, I'll find that I am capable of getting good results, of winning a tournament, on doing a perfect penchee, of not always being inferior.
Maybe. Just maybe.
It's about time I woke up my idea. But when?
It'd probably take something big and jolting and hurting and most probably irreversible for me to snap out of this and finally take control of my life.
I don't want to wait till that day.
It's so difficult to put my feelings into words and I can't express myself fully. I need an outlet or I'll explode. I find myself forgetting to breathe, my head splitting with the constant debates I have with my conscience. I'll only be relieved if I finally do what I'm meant to do and answer to myself.
If only it wasn't so difficult to take the first step.
Dear Me,
I'm begging you. I hate that queasy feeling everytime I hear the cold hard truth. I don't want to feel it again.
Love, Me.
God give me strength.
Beach fit @8:53 PM
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Desiderate;
My Friday and Saturday was spent going to and fro from school and Crestar. Spent the day in the sports complex planning for SLC 'o7, the most fun filled and adrenaline pumping 4 day camp, ever! Whatever. Did groupings and stuff till I had to leave for rehearsals. Learnt the steps in record time! Pat on the back please, thanks. Back to school again to call people up and yada yada more brainstorming, typing, planning for campfire and the programme booklet gave us all headaches throughout the night. Supper number 1, at 12 midnight. Supper number 2 at 4am. Some kinda fastfood Macs is man. 1 and a half hours to come. Conked out from 7 to 7.56am. And I went for training and I seriously sucked. And back to the planning and stuff after training and rehearsals at Crestar again.
Feeling oddly empty but brimming with emotions. Sometimes I find myself gasping for air, realizing that I can't breathe properly, asphyxiated. One moment I have a purpose and another moment, it's like it was never there. Something is tearing me apart inside, something is weighing me down, something is telling me something.
I just got bitten by a hamster. Felt good.
somewhere alone in this bitterness.
Beach fit @4:24 PM
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Somebody hit the lights
Am in school now, planning for SLC. D:
I'm not gonna sleep tonight and I have training tmr so all the best to me. Aha.
I found my booties say YAY.
BYE.
Beach fit @3:17 AM
Thursday, November 01, 2007
The Magic Words.
Mixed feelings. It's not gonna be easy from now on. Prasanthi gave me a kiss! :D Love you girls!
PW OP is O to the V to the ER. Mixed feelings again. All of a sudden there's no purpose. I'll miss my groupmates like a lot. We did one of our bests today and no regrets.
Reality Check! -Reality TV and its Impact.
Switcheroo! An Outsider's view on an Insider's School.
TJ015.
Yumei Joanne Ronald Michelle. :D
Actually, I'm not in a very good mood. Bye.
Beach fit @7:35 PM
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
If by chance all he had to give you
Was three words wrapped around your finger
Would that be deep enough at the end of every day
And how will you ever know
If a man is what he says?
Training was killer today. 3 rounds around track, 1000 receiving against the wall plus 1 hour of spiking against squash court wall, jump serves at the tennis courts, tumbling to receive at dance studio. Went all over school. Fun though. I haven't had such harsh training since what, secondary 3? Couldn't jump serve at all today. I did a couple in the hall last training. Lost it. ): I'll never jump serve in a competition anyway. Imagine me throwing the ball too far forward. Horror of horrors. :O Training almost everyday. I don't know if I'm happy or sad.
I realise my floor is multi racial. There are two chinese families, one indian family, one eurasian/malay family, one korean family and one caucasian family. Cool huh? I met the lil' blond angmoh boy in the lift. So animated and hyper. :)
Busy week. Had fun at Michelle's just now. Just lazing around on a rainy afternoon and chatting about nothing in particular. I'm gonna miss my groupmates big time man. Oh and Toby her dog! He's adorable!! :D Which reminds me, my uniform is in a horrendous state. Different colour. And I have OP on Thursday. ):
I don't have time for dance. I feel horrible.
I need a partner for BVB Open 2007,anyone?
build me up buttercup.
Mr Clay Twinkley Eyes Aiken. <3
Beach fit @8:40 PM
Monday, October 29, 2007
Next time I'll see you
I'm giving you a high five
cause hugs are over rated, just FYI
Stop making me do this and that and asking ' what are you doing?' every 5 seconds. You don't let me hang out with my friends, you hear only the things that you want to hear, you flare up so frequently, you threaten me with my allowance.
I don't know what you're trying to get at. Stop playing mind games with me. I have enough on my mind already. I'm on the verge of sanity.
Please, enough is enough.
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Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Mega photo post coming right up.
Beach fit @6:55 PM
Saturday, October 27, 2007
it doesn't look the same anymore.
The dams broke in school on Friday. Sorry for the sudden emotional outburst. I wasn't crying because of what you guys thought I was. Frankly speaking, I didn't know why I broke down either. Thanks for the reassuring hugs dears, I needed them.
Went to the gym at True Spa at Raffles City. Did some body analysis thing and somehow I have a high metabolism rate. Well if it really is high, it's not showing very well. Did some cardio and core muscle strengthening exercises. Mom's core muscles are seriously weak man. The personal trainer was trying to suppress his smiles throughout. I don't blame him, cuz I was openly laughing at her ahaha.
Learnt part of the pointe dance. My brain wasn't working very well. I hate it when I can't remember steps. And I kept going off balance when doing the soutenu cuz I kept forgetting to spot. frgwuintrioubgnwrnvkfnv. The girls went off and I had the studio to myself. Embraced the huge space I had and did loadsa grand allegro to destress a lil'. Was as if I was in a trance. Felt so good when I snapped out of it.
Sorry I missed practice today girls. :/
Biotherm's yearly Christmas party today @ Hilton hotel. Was walking by the shopping gallery on the 1st and 2nd floors and I fell in love with the Mulberry bags. Someone buy them for me puleaaaaaseeeee.
Thought it would be another boring fancy adults-talking-a-lot function. Turns out it was great fun! Had the fine company of Aunt Charlene, Aunt Allison and Mom. Bought back a truckload of Biotherm stuff again. We haven't even finished those we have at home. Dad's gonna flip.
Went to Borders in hope of getting The Pact by Jodi Picoult, but they only had one battered copy left on the shelves. D: Borders was in a mess. Noisy, crowded and messy. I'll never go there on a weekend again. Bookstores have to be quiet and serene. And the number of people plonking themselves down and reading the mags and books in the store itself is astounding. Plus the fact that they don't take care of the reading materials makes it worse. Not mentioning the fact that its not that they paid for the book/mag. Singaporeans. Ugh.
I have tickets to the opening of Terminal 3 tmr! :DD Thanks to my Almighty Uncle Seb! Going with the family and Ling. It's gonna be fun fun fun!
Chinese A's on Monday. I think I'd do better in chinese if I stopped dozing off during the papers. :/
Wtfffff. I'm supposed to go wash the jacuzzi now cuz Mom says she found mosquito larvae inside. Fknn. Come home also must saikang. Pissed.
BYE.
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It was effing gross. I hope they drown and fizz out in the bleach that I poured in. Die spawn of the evil mozzies...die...
Jason Mraz live on Good Morning America, singing The Remedy.
Watch out for the rrrrrrradio part. He's darn good.
Clay Aiken singing Solitaire on AI3. He held a note for 16 bloody seconds. Breathtaking, I swear.
I could watch these two vids all day.
Beach fit @6:00 PM
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
does anyone of us really
want to know
the answer
to that
question?
the day's drawing nearer, i don't want to expect anything. according to the economics of happiness (yes there's such a thing.), happiness equates to reality / expectations. i think i'd be happier then, if i expected less. so that no matter how reality turns out, happiness would still be relatively higher. Then again, i cannot not expect anything. cuz then the denominator is zero, meaning my happiness would be undefined.
negative infinity would do then.
the next paragraph would be even more senseless than the previous. i just felt like noting down all the problems i'm having with my body now.
fourth toenail falling out, right shoulder sore, sprained right thumb, creaky left wrist, swollen right palm, swollen right eye, excess fats, muscle achy abdominals and underarm tendon, eczema flaring, hair falling out in lil' clumps, full body rash, knees that crumble under me, runny nose, occasional hives, peeling back-of-thighs cuz of a sunburn.
heartache.
not that kinda heartache. just feeling jaded. ha.
jodi picoult keeps me going. keeps me thinking too. maybe a lil' too much.
society forces you to behave in ways that you won't otherwise. we live in a constant masquerade. i don't think i remember who i am after the layers i have piled on Me are peeled off anymore. sometimes i don't think i really know anyone.
then again, no one knows me. i know that for sure.
i think my eyeball is falling out. ow.
Beach fit @10:34 PM
Monday, October 22, 2007
it feels weird to have you drift away.
it's like i don't know you anymore.
not that you care.
op final reh. tmr. wtf. i'm so gonna nail it if it's the last thing i'll ever do.
there's something awfully therapeutic about locking myself in my room, strumming my imaginary guitar and singing at the top of my lungs.
because for that few minutes,
i get to be someone but me.
Beach fit @9:22 PM
Ha.
You did it again for the Nth time.
I've learnt, and this time I believed you less.
I know I should have known better.
But the next time, and I know there will be a next time, I won't believe you.
At all.
It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a storey
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying
It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished
.
Beach fit @12:04 AM
Saturday, October 20, 2007
I never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
Written report is finally done! The immense effort and sleepless nights put in. I'm proud of TJ 015. :) Seeing the girls cry made me tear. The teachers just don't know the amount of effort it took to produce the WR. But yup, the school was a mad house for the day. It's overrrr! OPOPOPOP. :/
Went back to PRSS to play ball. Was nice sitting in the outdoor court, amongst the leaves, talking to my dear team mates and our coaches about the past and discussing the prospects of the new batches. I miss prssvb a lot. That's where I grew as a player. That's where it all started. The ups and the downs..the fun, we had a lot of those, haha. Melvin told me to partner Merrina for the VAS BVB Open this year. -.- Ha, maybe.Decisions decisions, it's been ages since I've played beach competitively.
But it was a silly decision to go play ball as well. Cuz the physical exertion coupled with the lack of sleep and stress and the big P, I got feverish and missed training at TJ this morning. ): And indoor training's gonna last only till Wednesday cuz of the A'level exams. ))):
Met Hannah for some Starbucks coffee. Withdrawal symptoms. Was nice sitting around minus the stress of having to mug and minus the pile of notes. Went for ballet!
Was greaaaat. :D Pirouettes en pointe! Pointe class killed my feet but it wasn't too bad. I love pointe work ahha. Tried out the pointers I learnt from the ballet videos I've been watching during center practice, especially the balancing parts. Worked quite well yay! Pirouettes were on today! Omgomgomgomg feels goooood. And the finale...! Coupe jete en evant en tournant. Fun stuff. 2 of those into chasse, chaine 3 counts. Exhilarating. I realise we didn't do adage at all today. :/
Feeling loads better after class, dancing always makes one feel good. The Anaheim Ballet podcasts are an inspiration! Really good. Still sore that I couldn't get tickets to watch the Zurich ballet in the dans festival.
Watch this! xD I promise it'll make you smile.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=In5uec02E8U
and this, will make you wet your pants laughing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgqOKj1hdXM
Can't wait for SLC and the performance at QH's mom's old folks home.
Having a stress rash now. It's frustrating.
Spilt Jetes out!
Beach fit @9:43 PM
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Very eventful day yesterday.
Ebi came over and go to www.mywhimsicality.blogspot.com to see what we did. We pooled, ate, poked at my sunburn, messed up my room (more), cooked, washed up,watched teevee, called Ling who was obsessed with this harbourfront game. LOOOOOL.
Very very eventful day today.
Reached school and got a smelly blazer. :/
PE was horrendous but still OK. We ran gate to gate twice, courtesy of Mr Goh. And PT after. Shucks, have I ever mentioned I HATE running? I haven't? Well now you know. I wanna play ultimate frisbee. And I got my Sports Internship results! Got what I wanted, Sports Media! :D Attached to SPORTMAG.
Sportsman Appreciation Ceremony went well. :D Felt the blazer was redundant though. And my walkie talkie couldn't reach Amanda's. :O Can you imagine, the Floor Manager not being able to reach the Stage Manager? Yeaaargh. Had fun at the food reception! Lotsa food, yummaye prawn fritters and almond jelly. Thanks Shermo-wormo and Clarence-yadayada. Heh. Took photos and I laughed till my chest hurt. Oww.
Oh, and and dig this. Elvin Ng, Jesseca Liu, Joanne Peh and Pierre Png came to TJ today! Coolbeans! Jesseca Liu is soooo hot! :D Elvin Ng too, but he wore this utterly butterly hideous shirt. Uncle Loh was like staring, we reckon he's envious hiak! ;)
Double chinese almost killed me. But I understand that text now hurrah! :D PW meeting after. Wasn't too pleasant but I shall keep it all in until the end. No A no talk.
Bussed with Jo and Ron. Met Huifen at Tanah Merah. :D:D Pretty pretty! Took the same bus so we had a nice long chat along the way. Totally cool! Ayeee I can't wait for PRSSVB camp.
The following are 10 truckloads of photos from everyone's laptops which I got today!
View at your own risk.
Things people do when there are two MacBooks around. :D
Timothy, Moi, Neritta, Amanda @ The Atrium.
You can call us Rubber Face.
ROCK ONNNN!
Beach fit @10:16 PM
Beach fit @9:49 PM
Woohoo I think this photo is uber cool. Stroke of brillance. Well done Yumei!
Beach fit @9:47 PM
A break from photos. Here's a survey I regretted doing. WTF.
1. If your doctor told you TODAY that you were infertile, what would you say?;
Adopt a kid!
2. Do you trust all of your friends?;
To a certain extent.
3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?;
Tohh-dallaye.
4 . Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?;
NO. Okay fine, yes.
5. Name two things you would NOT tolerate in a relationship?;
The number of things that I would not tolerate in a relationship is far more than two.
6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?; Ho Huiling. Stable hands. She'll never be a paediatrician tho, HAHA.
7. Are you afraid of falling in love?; what the hell?
Yes. Cuz I know it's gonna be unrequited. :/
8. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?;
Duh.
9. Would you stop talking to your friends because you hooked up with a new person?;
I'd deserve to die if I ever did that.
10. When was the last time you flew in a plane?; June, New Zealand dance study tour! :D
11. What did the last text message you sent say?;
Yea that's me, I'll do the production. Pilot test who do?
12. What features do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?;
It depends.
13. Fill in the blank. I _______you in my life..;
[Fill in the blank.]
14. Att or Single?;
Single.
15. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an long period of time who would you call?;
No phones allowed in the wards.
16. How many kids do you want to have?;
I have a low pain threshold. Go figure.
17. Love Someone?;
SomeoneS.
18. Where was your default picture taken?;
Room.
19. What's your middle name?;
Leong.
20. Honestly, what's on your mind right now?;
Shitload of things.
21. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?;
If I were to be able to change my past, I'll never come back in time. Ha.
22. Shoe size?;
Street shoes size 7, soft pointes size 4halfD, pointes 5C. :D
23. What are you wearing right now?;
T and shorts.
24. Righty or Lefty?;
Righty.
25. Best place to eat?;
Hawker Centre opp. TJ.
Oi, what!? Laugh what laugh.
26 . Favorite animal?;
None in particular.
29. Favorite juice?;
Apple.
30 . Have you had the chicken pox?;
When I was 1.
31. Have you had a sore throat?;
Oh wth.
32. Ever had plastic surgery?;
Yea yea, sure I did.
33. Who knows you the best?;
Yours truly.
34. Do you get along with your family?;
Yes.
35 . Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?;
Both.
36. Ever been in a fight with your pet?;
No.
37. Been to Mexico?;
No.
38 . Did you buy something today?;
Milo bar and mag.
39. Did you get sick today?;
Going to be. I'm bored alr.
40. Do you miss someone today?;
Ya lah ya lah.
41. Did you get in a fight with someone today?;
No.
42. When is the last time you had a massage?;
2 days ago. Mum massaged some smelly ointment onto my arm cuz of my muscle ache.
43. Last person to lay in your bed?;
Apart from me, Yeebie.
44. Last person to see you cry?;
Mom?
45 . What was the last channel you watched?;
U
46. What are your plans for the weekend?;
Sleep in and the rest is history.
47. Who do you think will repost this?;
No one in the right mind.
48. Are you happy?;
No.
49. Who was the last person you hung out with?;
School people.
Beach fit @9:20 PM
Beach fit @9:17 PM
The phoney smiles :]
Beach fit @9:13 PM
Yumei Amanda Neritta @ The Marquee <3
Beach fit @9:08 PM
Ling's birthday 2007.
Way back in June/July.
Beach fit @9:00 PM
IPOH!
don't look at the person in the center, he's so attention grabbing.
The girls! :D
Windblown in the van.
This photo's nice cuz Neritta's unseen hiak! Kiddinggg..
Beach fit @8:51 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
I didn't hear what you were saying
I live on raw emotion baby
I shouldn't have played badminton that day. My lower arm muscles hurt like vqnowrhcguhg. D: My whole right arm is threatening to fall off. Strained shoulder joint muscle, muscle aches on upper and lower arms,, creaky elbow and sprained thumb, all on my right side. I can't hold a pen properly. Pooh.
Swam and tanned from 10am to 4pm today. :D Got a good tan and workout hurrah! Finally tanned on the roof, after planning to do so for so long. Lost 6 straight rounds of pool today. :OOOO And to Kaizhi. D'oh.
Tired, tired. I have a powerpoint presentation and a program booklet to do up. And PW. Sigh. OP is so draggy and annoying.
Big fat lizard loose in the house. My mom's gonna flip.
Reading the Tenth Circle now, by Jodi Picoult. Am thouroughly engrossed in the story. Can't wait for the end of the story, so that I'll get all my questions answered. Why did Laura do that?, did Trixie push Jason into the river?. Why did she do that if she loved him?. But as always, I'll be really upset when the story ends. :/ Jodi Picoult's books are one of those that you find difficult to put down.
SportsXcel SAC meeting and ballet tmr. Always happy to see my SportsXcel and ballet dears. :D
Had the most heart to heart talk I've ever had with Y that night. Somehow pouring my heart out, putting down the phone, realizing that my pillow was soaked with tears, made me feel lighter, better.
Thanks Y, for listening to my rants all the time. :)
White water rafting!
Two Sabah boys behind, Neritta, Xav, Uncle Loh aka Mr BoomBoom and me. :D Unglam hiak!
SportsXcel 78+3OAC guys! Ipoh Reccee trip was love!
Someday we'll know.
Beach fit @9:58 PM
Friday, October 12, 2007
18 People in a Lecture Theatre can only be chaos.
D:
Been a horribly torturously long week. I haven't broken down yet, but maybe it'll set in soon. :/ I think Yumei has become stronger! I haven't cried at all throughout. Except for when the teachers tried to help me, teared a lil'. Was touched. :)
Anyway, I guess I should be glad that I will be promoted.
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Week has been fun (Sorry, contradicting I know.). Was excused from floorball PE for SportsXcel SAC meeting, ended up being tempted to play ultimate frisbee. I loveeee it (fyi, o4o7 girls pwned the other classes during mass PE on Tuesday. :D:D )! Xav, Mr Fun, Uncle Loh and some other guy was running all over the field, playing. Tempting me. Vann and I wanted to play but I refused to perspire. Hiak. So I stood by the field and watched. Mr Fun came over and I was like...'Omg I wanna play..'. So he went, 'Play lah, come!'. Then I went 'Don't want to perspire..' (bimbotic haha.) and he threw the frisbee he was holding, far far behind me and told me to catch it and laughed evilly and said 'HA! I shall make you run and perspire!' -.- Wthell. Anyway, Uncle Loh broke a frisbee ahahha.
Had a supposed SportsXcel meeting under LT1 just now. We played more than anything else. :/ But I have new additions to my workload. Great! Not. Tim and Neritta played chords on the piano and we all sang. Felt nice, somehow. A funny but nice kinda warmth. :) We're like family. Played badminton at the atrium (haha!) with Neritta and made fools of ourselves. ;D Then Sherman, JX and Xav the pro came and joined us. Fun! But I screwed my right arm joints. Esp. the elbow. :O And my right knee is in a horrible state after I bonged into the rock in Ipoh. Hahahhaa I just remembered Grace's Elmo laugh. Zomg.
Ballet today. D'oh. Did Grade 8 work. :/ Which I completed like what, 2 years ago? Was looking forward to free class and pointe work! My big toenail hurts now, I better go cut it. After not going for class for 11 days, I'm weirdly more flexible. I'm working for my christmas present! Heh.
OMG FINALLY A DAY RELATIVELY FREE FROM MEETINGS TOMORROW! I'M GOING SWIMMINGGGGG!
I can't seem to play vball properly after not playing for so long. D: Shucks I want training please.
don't tryyyy...
Constipated. Darn.
Beach fit @8:43 AM
Sunday, October 07, 2007
The Ipoh reccee trip was really really good. Better than the Trengganu expedition in 2006, I would say. I felt completely zonked and yet fully charged at the end of everything. Definitely one of the things I'd do as many times as possible before I die. Going through the activities was therapeutic. The adrenaline pumping, fun, laughter and don't-hold-back-anything thoughts, I felt like a different person after everything.
The day felt so long, and yet I had fun. Which was weird, because when time is passing slowly, what you're doing is usually torturous. It was probably one of the most fruitful and well used day of my life. It seems to far away now. And like all other camps and trips I've been to, I miss the place, the activities and the people loads. But this time, it's good. Cuz I'm going again in November for 4 and a half times the fun and punch. Wouldn't be as fun the second time though. With different people, some whom we do not know. I cannot imagine white water rafting with people other than Neritta, Bay, Mr Boom Boom and Sabah Boys (two of 'em!). It'd be weird. But still.
Yup, I'm back! Aching and creaking all over but I'm loving it, cuz I feel worked and I've stepped out of my comfort zone and went all out. No regrets, at all. And for once in my life, I was in awe of something. It was phenomenal, really. It's not everyday that Foong Yumei is impressed by something.
Had the time of my life. Best and most fulfilling day of my life so far, I can't emphasize that enough.
I love my sportsXcel-ers. :)
Beach fit @5:25 PM
POST-PROMOS.
RE-DEATH.
TJC Open House. The Green Movement.Hello, hellooo! Friday was cool yay! PW lecture in the morning. Slept through the second speaker's speech. Her job's simple no? She uhh...says everything the way we're NOT supposed to and says 'See, I just did that, you're not supposed to do that.'. -Rolls eyes. Handed in our EoMs (FINALLY.)with Ron making a fuss about his wordcount.
Insisted on staying in the library to read, and Jaren and Xavier decided that I was fasting. Which is so, not the case. I slept less than 5 hours in 2 days and that didn't put me in a very good mood to eat anything. Got my way, and I read till I had to go for volleyball.
Had fun. 'twas extremely tiring though. Played spiker and gave up after a while cuz I sucked at it, ended up being a setter. Still sucked. -.- Went out of the hall to soak in a lil' of the Open House atmosphere. Wasn't too bad. Which reminds me, I forgot to get the goodie bag haha! I liked it. Darn.
SportsXcel sharing @ innospace went well, I would say. Was interactive and I'm sure the new sportspeople now know a lot more about their new school. :D Icebreaker game was funny and Sherman was the rubbish thrower. Xav and I did the presentation and the last slide rocked. Heh. Split up into smaller groups for sharing and was quite awkward because the new intakers were quite quiet with a few exceptions. :)
Rushed home to bathe and change and my parents gave Xav and I a lift to the waiting point for the bus to Ipoh. I'll blog about it in my next entry. In a nutshell, it was a blast.
Thursday, with Jo in class. Hiak.
Sek, Pras and Nearly-Headless-Kari.
Oh FOUR! :D
We got so bored we ended up playing chess.
TJ015, Take 1. What with that face, Ron. Mich's eyes are closed.
TJ015, Take 2. Blurry. But Jo looks super cute.
TJ015, Take 3. Verdict: Cannot make it. -.-
Neritta the Bimbo and Me on the super VIP bus HAHA. Bus buddies!
Photo on right looks like a photo from the horror movie, shutter. Uncle Loh is positively scary looking.
Were stuck at this Macs in Ipoh from 4.30am to 7.30am.
Caving place.
Ignore the funny spacing between the photos and captions I can't be bothered to edit it cuz the laptop is sluggishly slow and I'm getting annoyed. Off to blog about the reccee trip!!
Time is a funny thing.
Labels: TJC Open House 2007.
Beach fit @2:33 PM
Thursday, October 04, 2007
I'm in a horrible mood now.
I had 2 measly hours of sleep last night, wasted the day in school, wasted even MORE time after school (don't get me started.), I have an EOM to do, two EOMs to print out, three EOM coverpages to print out, one written report to print, a powerpoint presentation to complete, a bag to pack for my trip, a room to pack.
I forsee another 2 hours of sleep tonight and it's Open House tomorrow and I'll be having volleyball as well as Sportsmen Tea Session AND, I'm going caving, white water rafting and waterfall abseiling for the next three days. Pray I come back alive. I'm already a walking corpse as it is.
I hate it when people give me last minute work and expect me to get it done, or cram me with last minute information and press me for work. I don't like working like that. No planning to speak of. Pissing. Everything's in a mess.
Some people should learn how to conduct themselves in front of others esp. if they hold a certain position. It's saddening to see that's the best TJ has to offer. I'm disgusted by the absurdity of their actions and words.
Getty Images wouldn't open. Fuck technology.
If my printer jams later I'm going to kick it, for sure.
Post exam periods doesn't make life any easier. If it's anything to go by, I'm busier than ever. Whatever happened to my me-time? Filled the jacuzzi with water when I got home, in hope of relaxing with a book, then I got like a torrent of emails and smses and calls telling me to do this and do that. URGHHH.
I feel like I'm going to go into my third THINGS-THAT-ANNOY-ME post. But I shan't. Because being on the computer itself annoys me. Well excuse me while I try and ease myself from this torture as soon as possible.
And, the fact that I'm gonna miss ballet. I can't say it enough. Wtfff.
Beach fit @8:31 PM
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
PAPER BAGS AND PLASTIC HEARTS
OUR BELONGINGS IN SHOPPING CARTS
IT'S GOODBYE
BUT WE'VE GOT ONE MORE NIGHT
LET'S GET DRUNK AND DRIVE AROUND
AND MAKE PEACE WITH AN EMPTY TOWN
WE CAN MAKE IT RIGHT
PW was fun today. The great expedition to Telok Blangah Rise. :D A nice change. I completed my OP proposal slides including the behind the scenes parts hurray! PW's gonna be over soon. As much as I hate the subject, I think I've got the best groupmates. A balance of work and fun. Lotsa talking, debating and wordplay. I like. (: I'm gon' miss those PW meetings at unearthly hours. We're gonna make the best out of it. A is for PW!
Met Ling who P to the O to the NNED, school at Vivo (for the third day in a row.) to watch Ratatouille. Wasn't too bad. Loved how the lil' chef nods. Big eyes, perked up ears..aww... Got my fav Texas toothpicks from Carls Jr and a post promos venti tazo chai tea latte. Went window shopping cuz contrary to Jobel's believes, Foong Yumei is no rich bitch. Haha.
MRTied to Bedok Central for the ardous task in search of The Cheap Trackpants, for the Ipoh trips. You have no idea how difficult it was. Anyway, I got the least hideous pair out of the many hideous pairs I found. Couldn't bring myself to search for bermudas so I gave up and went home. I'm gonna wear Kai's berms. :O
I realise I've been having silly conversations about birds with my classmates. First with Joanne, on our walks to Bedok interchange. About birds walking with their necks moving because they have sticky suction pads on their feet, hence requiring a lot of energy to pull their feet off the ground with each step. Cracks me up everytime.
And Sek's the ultimate, self entertainment. We were at the canteen when she saw a mynah perched on one of those buckets-used-to-collect-used-plates with it's back facing us. She then nudged me and said 'Eh! Go push the bird's backside and make it fall in leh! *Crazy laughter.'. Eh, your friend is it?
Oh oh, and Xavier's. We were walking back to school after lunch and were waiting to cross the road when Xav kept trying to catch the attention of this mynah standing on the road by waving and beckoning. When asked what he was tryin' to do, he replied gleefully, 'Distract it what! Then it won't see the car come then will kena knocked down!'. Sadist.
Okay that was random.
Busy peasy the next few days. D: School till I dunno what time tmr, followed by facillitators training from 1-4pm then going to get my sports shoes. Fri's worse. School, Open House (Volleyball and Sportsmen Gathering which I'm emceeing.) then depart for Ipoh immediately. [Insert profanity of choice here.]
Till Sunday evening. And on Monday, reality bites back. Kwakwa.
I'm really sad cuz I think I left my booties in Trengganu during the 2005 expedition. Mom will never let me get a new pair again. Me hates watersports with soaked smelly sports shoes.
My hair has grown a lot! Hiak Hiak.
Painting Hammie and Zoe from Baby Blues on my wall.
I'm starting to miss playing volleyball although I doubt I remember how to anymore. -.-
And ballet. I think I'll need a lot of ballet next week. To get my mind off my promos results. It's therapeutic I tell you. I need to dance.
Off to stretch! :D
Anyone can cook!
not.
Beach fit @8:54 PM
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
FIRST YOU SAY YOU WON’T,
THEN YOU SAY YOU WILL,
YOU KEEP ME HANGING ON,
AND WE’RE NOT MOVING ON,
Hello all. Yumei is a happy and contented girl until...
1. she realizes she has not much left to spent after her shopping spree today.
2. she gets her promos results back.
So let's all pray points 1 and 2 never happens. :D
Mad rush today. In a span of 4 hours, I went to Simei, Novena, Bedok, Simei, Harbourfront.-.- Not a nice experience. I know I'm such a huge mess.
Sorry to the two dears who had to sing Jenny and gorge themselves silly while watching my husband have an affair outside my house while waiting for me. ;)
Shoppadeedoo! Got a Paul Frank watch (!! Haha HL.), a denim skirt, suspenders (finally!) and an old school shirt from Pull&Bear. Me wants the F21 dresses and my punk bag and belt yeaaaarghh.
Nothing like bestf times. Talking lotsa rubbish brudderrrr... acting like minahs, blowing bubbles on the roof of Vivocity, indulging in sinful cakes and basically making fools outta ourselves while still having fun. Hiak.
My Paul Frank watch (I'm sorry I have to keep emphasizing that cuz I love it so.) is ticking away happily, completely unaware of it's effect on my nerves. Another time it ticks, I am another second closer to getting back the promos results. Sigh. The horror is coming nearer and nearer. I know I shouldn't think about it but I can't help it. I shall just embrace my last few days of freedom. Darn.
Photos!
a lil' yumei lovin'.
Focus on the hair, not the gluttony.
:D I hope you don't have grass stains on your tummy Ebi.
The retarded one with the poofy face on the far left is not me.
Jennnnyyyyyyyyy...
Pretty bedsheets no? Me loves my room!
The roof's looking good. A family effort. :D
My orchids! Still alive after one month. Believe it or not. Prettier than Jennifer Aniston, I know.
PW meeting tmr at Jo's place! Finally. Haha.
Gotta fly! The EOM deadline's screaming at me. Yikes.
Utterly Butterly Sportacular.
Beach fit @10:46 PM
No fair. You win.
You write better. Bleh.
busy.
Beach fit @1:32 AM
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Who's stealin' your dreams?
havainas! :D
Eventful day today. Slept close to 5am. Woke up at 8am and dilly dallied till I was gonna be late. Dad gave me a lift to Queensway. Walked around Queensway alone while Dad and Mom went to eat. Not nice walking alone there. :/ Couldn't find what I wanted to find. Then Dad dropped me off at Velocity again. Got a pretty good deal. 40% discount. Zomg. Got some Garlic and Lemon mussels from Mos. Had an interesting time in the car with Dad and Mom. Talked and joked a lot. I'm blessed. :)
Was dropped off at Tmall for ballet, one and a half hours earlier. Got meself a cuppa at Starbucks cuz I was experiencing withdrawal symptoms.
Ballet was really, really fun today. Stress-free! New free work was nice! Particularly liked the adage and grand battement at barre and battementtendusbattementjetegrandbatement exercise in the center. Alaseconde lines were higher today, for some reason. Gon' keep improving! Couldn't do triples, did nice doubles instead. Was telling myself to do quads so that I'd do a triple but still.. -.- Quite a few peeves today though. Still can't balance for my penchee with the left supporting leg. Wobble schmobble. Grahh. And couldn't get the new exercise. Zero coordination acks. It was v.cool though, gonna practise at home! Chi and I are gonna get our perfect sides by 25th December. Our Christmas presents to ourselves. :D
Had a belated Midautumn Festival celebration at home, with the relatives. Was fun and lotsa good food. Grandma's a terrific cook. Yummaye cheng tng and yam cake and mushrooms and all our favourites. :) And Aunt Charl bought Ritz apple and mango strudels which were the love. Yup, and great news, a new addition to the family! Everyone just sat around on the roof, lighted only by tealights and moonlight, a little breeze, watching the planes take off and land, eating and chatting about everything under the sun, particularly childbirth. Haha. The women monopolized the conversation. Had a nice chat with Sean and Sophia, my cousins. I hardly talk to them. :) Great family time spent.
Was using the railings as a barre, stretching and just doing leg swings, talking to Dad. Had this conversation about accepting the way life goes and not looking back and stuff. (Daddy's sentimental, like me! We hate throwing things away). I told him about my exams and stress and how I have a high chance of retaining. And he just said, so long as I tried hard enough. Plus of course things that we did as kids. My first day at school...pigtails... 'twas nice talking to Dad. We hardly talk about that kinda stuff, reminiscing the past.
Yeebie and Mom commented that my white bedsheet set reminds them of hospitals. D: No way.They match my room's colour and look understatedly pretty. :) I love my room. Gonna paint a mural soon. A year end holiday project. Yay!
Off to sleep. Shopping tomorrow! Hurrah!
Good luck all you people still having exams.
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imma claymate.
If one day you discover himBroken down he's lost everythingNo cars, no fancy clothes to make him who he's notThe woman at his side is all that he has gotWhy do you ask him move heaven and earthTo prove his love has worth?Would he walk on waterWould he run through fireWould he stand before youWhen it's down to the wireWould he give his life up To be all he canIs that, is that, is that how you measure a man?If by chance all he had to give youWas three words wrapped around your fingerWould that be deep enough at the end of every dayAnd how will you ever knowIf a man is what he says?Why do you ask him to move heaven and earthTo prove his love has worthWould he walk on waterWould he run through fireWould he stand before youWhen it's down to the wireWould he give his life up to be all he canIs that, is that, is that how you measure a man?He never gives up Lets go of his dreamHis world goes around for his one true beliefIs that how you knowIs that what it means?Would he walk on waterWould he run through fireWould he stand before youWould he will be your anchor when the dark unfoldsWould he always love you the best that he knows?Would he give his life upTo be all that he canIs that, is that, is that how you measure a man?Would he walk on waterWould he run through fireWould he stand before youWhen it's down to the wireWould he give his life up To be all he can Is that, is that, is that, how you measure oh...Is that, is that, is that, how your measure a man?
happy children's day to the young at heart. :D
Beach fit @11:47 PM
And the party don' stop.
Beach fit @3:10 AM
Starbuckeroos.
Of Venti Tazo Chai Tea Lattes, Caffe Americanos, Caramel Fraps and Iced Vanilla Latte.
My crazy bums. Had so much fun mugging with 'em. Three straight days. Hanneh, serves you right! Didn't listen to my explaination properly right. HA! Omg, which reminds me. Ballet tmr! :DD
My Mom. -.-
Beach fit @2:36 AM
ballet exam day. 170907.
Joy, Chi, Hannah, Yumei :D
sexy hairdo yo!
<3s
Beach fit @2:31 AM
my baby you gotta be crazy.
It's been long. Too long. The promotionals are over but then comes dreading results day. D: Whatever it is, I did the best I've ever did. Sigh.
Lots to do in the coming week. WIll be in Ipoh from 5th to 7th October and again from 13th to 17th October. :O (do NOT, mention anything about mebuying horfun back I will smack you.). There's Open House, Sportsmen Gathering, Sportsmen Appreciation Ceremony, Student Leadership Camp, SportsXcel retreat, SportsXcel shirt, OP, PW, shopping. YEAAARGHHH! D:
Went shopping with Ling after going to Velocity with Xavier after my chem paper. Walked till my feet ached. Teehee my pull&bear stuff. :DDD Me wants my punk bag and sneakers! Haha. Bought a dangly elmo thingamabob. So darn cute.
Met Stefunny at the art shop and Adeline at the kiddy toy shop at Taka! Coolbeans! Went to library@Orchard. Heaven. :) Couldn't wait to cuddle up in bed with a nice novel.
Xav has shown us new insights of the Marist culture. Cracked us up a lot. Esp.with Sek (SAG!) and Pras dears today. We saw this woman wearing patent red heels and I went...
Me: Cool, like the Devil Wears Prada!
Xav: Fake one lah!
Us: Huh?
Xav: You say Prada what! Fake one lah!
Us: -.-
Lotsa funny conversations lately. Here's one. Mrs Lam said it during Bio lect quite some time ago. She was lecturing on the Lac operon and lactose thingy and she had a photo of oatmilk in her slides. So when she reached the slide, she went...
'Oatmilk? Oat has milk? Maybe they wanted to spell Goat on the carton but they didn't know how to.' Haha so cute.
Packed my post-promos room mess while on the phone with Yeebie on loudspeaker. :D Multi tasking yo! Put on new crisp white bedsheets and I'm a happy but exhausted girl. Yeebie go girl powerrr! xD
Okay my head is hurting. Dad's on the plane home now. :) Looking forward to waking up tomorrow to a nice bright room, Blueberry Morning and some kiwis for breakfast, read the papers, then snuggle up in bed with my books.
Queensway then Vivo after. Yay. :D
Not typing coherently anymore I should go sleep. :O
Long day tmr.
It's amazing how I've lasted till now without sleeping. I haven't slept much at all the past week.
Toodles.
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You were right.
And I don't want to be here if you're gonna be there.
Was that supposed to happen?
I'll hold tight.
I'll remember to smile.
Though it has been a while.
And without you does it matter?
There's no room.
No place to start.
When our souls are apart.
I want to travel through time.
See your surprise.
I'd hold you so tight.
I'm counting down the days tonight.
I just want to be a million miles away from here.
I'm counting down the days.
How've you been?
It's just the usual here.
And days are feeling like years.
And every day's without you.
Now I cry just a little too much when I think of your touch
And everything about you.
I feel cold.
I'm in the dark.
When our souls are apart.
I want to travel through time.
See your surprise.
I'd hold you so tight.
I'm counting down the days tonight.
I just want to be a million miles away from here.
SAY YO, SEAN KINGSTON!
Beach fit @2:13 AM
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Haven't danced for almost a week. I feel like an elephant. Screw chemistry.
Save the Earth everyone. Global Warming at it's worst. Mother Earth is protesting.
Either that or the Heavens are crying for my Promos results.
Darn.
Beach fit @9:10 PM
Saturday, September 22, 2007
why can't i do things that people can. why is it that my mind ticks in a different way. why do i breakdown so easily. why do i fall sick so easily
face itgirl, you're a DSA student. you're not even supposed to be in tj you dont belong there its not a place for you. worse thing is you're in it through volleyball and you suck at it. you're in sportsxcel and you suck at sports and you're not good in your studies, at all. you dont deserve a lot that you have. those stuff are for smart people. you dont belong in that league. i know im not pityign myself, this time. fuck im seriously sick of beign such a failure in everything. i think i more than likely failed my AF, i think im going to be in a poly next year. you're a laughing stock yumei, you hear that? people are going to go- hey thats that girl who couldnt pass her promos, she must be so dumb the papers were sooo simple. certain things cannot be forced and this is one of them. no amount of studyign would make u smart. you just dont get it do u? ur mind doesnt think the same way as those smart peopl. it doesnt occur to u to think in the same way that they do. this doesnt mean u are different in that good sense, it just means u're dumb as a doorbell. failure in my psle, failure in my o levels, failure in my...i dont even know if i qualify to take my a levels.
if there were a painless way to die, i would be gone by now. see yumei, thats the coward you are. shit you.
mom, what if i fail my promos?
i'm sorry, but, fuck my life.
Beach fit @10:15 PM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
the big day. 171107.
I pray that my ballon comes to me, that my back stays strong, that I have my balance, that I do my perfect doubles, that my coupe is tight in my pas de bourree exercises, that my shoulders are square during back bends, that I turn out my supporting leg, that I spot well, that I give clean ecarte lines, that my petit battements are isolated, that I balance after my soutenu, that my front foot in pointed during grand jetes, that my working leg in battement frappe is long, that I hold my back leg in my en tournant, that my failli legs gather nicely, that my emboite en pointe extends fully to alaseconde, that my attitude line is held, that I get my free enchainment, that I dance from within.
Thanks Hannah Fer Tricia Manda Qinghui Joy YiTong Daphne Kyra Prasanthi Yeebie dears. And of course to Chi and Ms Pang. I'll miss classes with just the three of us, being at Crestar everyday, being with the dancers. It has been a fruitful journey.
I'll do my best, enjoy and not compare.
I'm gonna do well for AF, yes I will.
Beach fit @10:58 PM
Saturday, September 15, 2007
ha. sometimes in class, we break down cuz we cannot perform up to expectations. and today was my turn, on open house day. great.
it's just so darn frustrating when you can't dance full out cuz of something hindering you and it's not your fault. but i won't use that as an excuse. if i'm horrible, i'm horrible. and yes, i'm horrible. i know that i don't have to compare myself with anyone but its inevitable and i can't help it and the feeling of inferiority sucks big time and my self esteem takes a deep stab.
honestly, i'm beginning to hate the feeling of feeling like a loser all the time, of never succeeding in anything i do. life's not fair, no? people say you win some, you lose some. apparently that doesn't apply to me. i can't think of any time when i had a major achievement, a time when i was the best in something, anything. it's not that i don't try hard but i don't see progress no matter how hard i try. maybe its too much for me to want be the best, maybe i'm not even close. but it would be so, fucking, nice to get that feeling. just once. can you believe it. i'm 17, and i haven't had a single achievement in my life. i define failure.
well world, i'm sorry that i'm fat, i'm sorry that i'm not bright, i'm sorry that i can't do adage, i'm sorry that i can't pirouette, i'm sorry that i can't save that spike, i'm sorry i can't win points with my measly spikes and services, i'm sorry i'm ugly, i'm sorry i can't articulate well, i'm sorry i'm a dsa student, i'm sorry i can't do math, i'm sorry that i never did my parents proud.
i'm sorry myself, for never being able to prove others wrong, of not being able to overcome my weaknesses, of not being able to give myself that single moment of satisfaction and pride in my 17 years on earth.
i'm sorry i keep letting everyone down.
Beach fit @9:32 PM
Friday, September 14, 2007
Oh when you took my heart.
SportsXcel people can't take proper photos but we are so cute. :D
Uncle Lohs idea of artistic shots.
Beach fit @11:08 PM
oh when you took my heart.
I'm painstakingly downloading all the photos that Mr Loh uploaded without resizing. It's taking forever. I kinda like sportsXcel meetings, I don't know why.
Open house tmr, exam on Monday. I pray that I can get my weight placement right. I can't balance during adage and that's bad. I can do it I can do it. I can feel myself improving bit by bit so no matter what, I'm going to be at my best on the exam day.
Promos are coming soon too (like anyone would need any reminders. -.- ). I do hope I get the results I have worked for.
Feeling extremely drained. The people that keep me sane - my parents, my bestgirlfriends, o4/o7, ballet dears (Chi! :D ). I'm gonna get through this in one piece.
Good luck all.
Btw, I lurrrrve the new mocca.com advert. The one with the muscleman. Cracks me up everytime I watch it. *Check out my matching scrollbars!
Beach fit @10:20 PM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Finally,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!
I have been sleeping with mom these days cuz dad's not in town, so i sent her an sms at 12.30am saying 'Happy Birthday Mom, Haha!' after she fell asleep. Her phone, which was supposedly on silent mode then rang out in a little jingle and vibrated really loudly. And she went 'Shit.', cuz she just fell asleep. Then she rolled over to read the message and went 'TSK.' and went back to sleep. The whole time I was like omggg.
Okay I'm a failure at this surprising people thing. -.-
Chocolate fudge cake yumm. Love ya mom, although you really,really do nag too much. <3
Beach fit @9:38 PM
Aha Jo is such a dear.
Seri babe.
Wilson Santoso.
Jas&Ken.
Beach fit @9:31 PM
BVB.
Matt.
Aunt Jean and Uncle Choo.
Uncle Ken, Aunt Joyce, Bryan, Jo.
Beach fit @9:30 PM
Cont'd
Silly Claudia ;D
MIA.
NZ '06. <3s
Beach fit @9:28 PM
Missed&Loved.
Out with Yeebie. Got meself a yellow cardi and hollister (haha) top. :D
SportsXcel meeting was funny today. Handed in internship form. No regrets, I hope. Emceeing for TJ Open House Sportsmen gathering. Zomg.
Lots to do!
Ballet exam on Monday. :/
Beach fit @9:25 PM
Sunday, September 09, 2007
i say, have a nice day.
bedtime buddy.
Class.
missed dearly.
SportsXcel (my expression is classic.)
Mr Fung's Teachers' Day.
Kaizhi's present.
Teachers' Day cards.
TJVB loves bananas.
lumpsumtax :o
1. If you had to get a tattoo, where
would you want it?
same spot where i had my airbrush tattoo!
2. If you had to dye your hair which
color would you choose?
if i HAD to, a really really really dark brown.
3. If you had to get a piercing (excluding the ears)
where would you get it?
the thought of it makes me shiver, no way.
4. If you had to change your
name...what new name would you choose?
shrugs. i'll prolly let my parents decide again.
The "Would Yous?"
1. If you could go bungee jumping,
would you?
No. Ok you now know that yumei's a coward.
2. Would you move somewhere else, if
you could?
Totally. A nice house by the harbour near wellington city. :) Watch the aeroplanes all day...
3. If you were given the chance to go
to Paris, would you go?
Duh.
4. If you found 10 million dollars,
and it was yours to spend, what would
you do with it?
Some would go to my family and bestfriends, some would go to the needy, some would go into a business, a new house? Used to live my dreams.
And of course, I'd quit school.
The "Let's Says"
1. Let's say you see a big ship
sink... only 3 people have a chance to
survive. The 3 people are, your bestfriend,
your boyfriend/girlfriend, and
a long lost friend (that you don't
know too well). Who would you save if
you had to choose only 1 person?
bestfriend(s). no boyfriend, long lost friends are already lost, anyway.
2. Let's say you became
President... what is the first thing
you would do?
give the ministry of education a tongue lashing and then give more exposure and opportunities to the arts scene.
3. Lets say you had to eat a live
tarantula for $1,000..would you?
I'd rather die.
4. Let's say you could star in any
movie (made or in the works)
what movie would it be?
High School Musical! That's supposing I can sing.
The "Favorites"
1. Colour?
dependent on what the colour's on. like..i don't think i'd like a blue banana, or orange leggings.
2. Current song?
xijie, jjlin. call me cheena whatever :D
3. Shirt you own?
my well used oversized ones
4. Electronic device?
camera laptop psp...i can't decide.
5. Movie?
Miss Congeniality. All time fav. :D Forrest Gump, maybe.
6. Book?
Harry Potter series, by Jodi Picoult, Dan Brown
7. Pair of shoes?
new vermillion havaiinaaaas!
8. Sandal color?
depends on what im wearing
9. Hair color?
black. blonde, but not on me duh
10. Eye color?
black
The "other stuff"
1. What makes your bedroom unique?
I sleep in it.
2. Who do you like?
i like people who do not dillydallywishywashy. gracious people.
3. Do you go to parties?
Yahuh
4. What's your favorite season of the
year?
Winter.
5. Do you like cheese?
Kinda.
6. What's bothering you now?
don't get me started.
lump sum tax
GOOOOD MORNINGGGG SINGAPORE!
Wakey wakey Yeebie...
TJVB loves bananas.
lumpsumtax :o
1. If you had to get a tattoo, where
would you want it?
same spot where i had my airbrush tattoo!
2. If you had to dye your hair which
color would you choose?
if i HAD to, a really really really dark brown.
3. If you had to get a piercing (excluding the ears)
where would you get it?
the thought of it makes me shiver, no way.
4. If you had to change your
name...what new name would you choose?
shrugs. i'll prolly let my parents decide again.
The "Would Yous?"
1. If you could go bungee jumping,
would you?
No. Ok you now know that yumei's a coward.
2. Would you move somewhere else, if
you could?
Totally. A nice house by the harbour near wellington city. :) Watch the aeroplanes all day...
3. If you were given the chance to go
to Paris, would you go?
Duh.
4. If you found 10 million dollars,
and it was yours to spend, what would
you do with it?
Some would go to my family and bestfriends, some would go to the needy, some would go into a business, a new house? Used to live my dreams.
And of course, I'd quit school.
The "Let's Says"
1. Let's say you see a big ship
sink... only 3 people have a chance to
survive. The 3 people are, your bestfriend,
your boyfriend/girlfriend, and
a long lost friend (that you don't
know too well). Who would you save if
you had to choose only 1 person?
bestfriend(s). no boyfriend, long lost friends are already lost, anyway.
2. Let's say you became
President... what is the first thing
you would do?
give the ministry of education a tongue lashing and then give more exposure and opportunities to the arts scene.
3. Lets say you had to eat a live
tarantula for $1,000..would you?
I'd rather die.
4. Let's say you could star in any
movie (made or in the works)
what movie would it be?
High School Musical! That's supposing I can sing.
The "Favorites"
1. Colour?
dependent on what the colour's on. like..i don't think i'd like a blue banana, or orange leggings.
2. Current song?
xijie, jjlin. call me cheena whatever :D
3. Shirt you own?
my well used oversized ones
4. Electronic device?
5. Movie?
Miss Congeniality. All time fav. :D Forrest Gump, maybe.
6. Book?
Harry Potter series, by Jodi Picoult, Dan Brown
7. Pair of shoes?
new vermillion havaiinaaaas!
8. Sandal color?
depends on what im wearing
9. Hair color?
black. blonde, but not on me duh
10. Eye color?
black
The "other stuff"
1. What makes your bedroom unique?
I sleep in it.
2. Who do you like?
i like people who do not dillydallywishywashy. gracious people.
3. Do you go to parties?
Yahuh
4. What's your favorite season of the
year?
Winter.
5. Do you like cheese?
Kinda.
6. What's bothering you now?
don't get me started.
lump sum tax
GOOOOD MORNINGGGG SINGAPORE!
Wakey wakey Yeebie...
Beach fit @12:28 AM
When you're early for ballet class.
Beach fit @12:22 AM
Friday, September 07, 2007
When I finally get into bed, I'm almost giddy with fatigue and the pure joy of being under the covers and able to lay my head on a cushy pillow and drift off to sleep. Sometimes the first thing I think when I get out of bed in the morning is, how long until I can get back under those covers and shut my eyes once again? It's a horrible way to live, I suppose-but what can I do?
Going on a lil' hiatus. Being around people in my present state is not gonna help anyone at all. 'm sorry if I have been a wet blanket. Maybe it's about time I had some time to myself, think through things and evaluate my priorities.
Maybe if I stopped comparing myself with others I'd be a happier person.
Or not.
Nothing here. Ha. :/
Sometimes I feel so alone.
Beach fit @10:35 PM
Thursday, September 06, 2007
fireworks on the freeway
Helloooo everyone! Yumei's feeling unusually chirpy today despite not being on schedule for revision! She may just very well fail her promotional exams and get retained! But being the optimist that she is, she knows that there's that glimmer of hope of not failing! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD (Notice the exclaimation points!)
Okay maybe not. Being enthusiastic is tiring. :/ Actually, I'm quite screwed. Okok, spread positivity (Jaren! ;D ). I can do it, we can do it! No one is gonna have to be retained! Foong Yumei, Temasek Junior College, Class of
Was reminded of that day when Yeebie and I went to Bugis Street. We have amazing bargaining skills.
Yeebie's about to pay for a pair of shorts...
YB: Err...Aunty, cheaper can?
Aunty: No lah...after discount orlehly leh.
YB: Uh, Okay.
We chose 4 friendship anklets and were about to pay...
Me: Aunty...cheaper can? We bought 4 leh..
Aunty: Very cheap already!
Us: Orh, okay loh.
Laughs out loud at our stupidity. If HL were there it'd be so different, right? :D
Xing zai le huo. :D Having a whale of a time poking fun at Lucas. Poor dude's having a horrible time with a fan. She's not bad what...quite cute. Hahaha I'm such a badass.
Ballet everyday. Taking a toll on us. Chi and I are barely alive. I tell you Serenades are too soft (!!). >:( They break so easily. I've worn mine for like twice and gone case already. $%#%#&! Can't do pointe work properly and my balances for adage are totally off but allegro's getting better, yay us! Exam's on 17th Sept. I'm so so so so unprepared. Sigh, I guess I'm just gonna have to do the best I can. I'll miss these days, training with just ChiHang and MsPang. :') Time flies, no?
Dad just flew off again. Dang. I don't like it when he does.
The roof's looking really good now. It's not another one of those artificial, carefully designed gardens that people pay thousands for, and hundreds more each month for someone to come maintain it for them. It's done up with much love, care and hardwork. My parents' pride and joy. I love spending hours up there with the family, just sitting silently, staring at the pretty skies, the aeroplanes taking off and landing... Just for those couple of moments, I feel like the luckiest girl in the universe.
Silliest things happen to two people who've had a bad day and have insomnia and are bestfriends. http://www.mywhimsicality.blogspot.com, for how the conversation went. Thank God for her, still. :)
Busy busy day tomorrow. The unholidays are ending soon. Having mixed feelings about that. Took me ages to blog this. Andrea Fonseka is gorgeous and I'm so jealous. Darn.
Goodbye, my lovers! ;D
Beach fit @11:02 PM
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
fever.
Never know how much I love you
Never know how much I care
When you put your arms around me
I get a fever that's so hard to bear
You give me fever when you kiss me
fever when you hold me tight
Fever! In the morning
Fever all through the night
Sun lights up the daytime
Moon lights up the night
I light up when you call my name
And you know I'm gonna treat you right you give me fever when you kiss me
Fever when you hold me tight
Fever! In the morning
Fever all throught the night
Everybody's got the fever
That is something you all know
Fever ain't such a new thing
Fever started long ago
Romeo loved Juliet
Juliet she felt the same
When he put his arms around her
He said, "Julie Baby you're my flame.
"Thou givest fever
When we kisseth
Fever with thy flaming youth
Fever! I'm a fire
Fever yeah I burn forsooth
Cap'n Smith and Pocahontas
Had a very mad affair
When her daddy tried to kill him
She said, "Daddy oh don't you dare!"
He gives me fever with his kisses
Fever when he holds me tight
Fever! I'm his Mrs.
"Daddy won't you treat him right?"
Now you listened to my story
Here's the point that I have made
Chicks were born to give you fever
Be is fahrenheit or centigrade
They give you fever
When you kiss them
Fever if you live you learn
Fever! Till you sizzle
Oh what a lovely way to burn
What a lovely way to burn
What a lovely way to burn
What a lovely way to burn
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The song irrevelant (cute lyrics, by the way.). Point is, I'm sick again. :/ Weakling. Saw blue during ballet today, dizzypeasy.
Wore both pairs of new shoes for class today. Pirouettes were surprisingly good for the fact that it was a new and unbroken pair of shoes. I'm gonna get suprimasss. Serenades are soft and squishy.
Splurged on so many overseas magazines. Zomg. This has to stop! I'm am officially only allowed to spend $6.70/day on my iced venti vanilla latte from now on.
Back from the supermarket. Bought more organic food. Hurrah! Mom's not too excited 'bout it though, more expensive. But, it's a start to a healthier lifestyle and no more meeaaaat!
I'm the Queen of Snooze. I can now snooze the alarm from 6am to 11am! Am I cool or am I cool? :/ Bad habit. No more snoozing Yumei!
I'm turning nocturnal. I can't get to sleep at night and I'm like a zombie in the day. :O What's happening to meeee.
Popped over to TM Starbucks to get some studying done and
Something funny to share. :)
During Biology on Monday, Mr Chong received an sms and looked really weirded out after he read it and mumbled 'bust cream??' under his breath. We were like 'What?!' And he told us, 'Someone just sms-ed me to promote bust cream! Okay uh, I read the message to you guys. 'Get the cleavage you want, get [insert brand name] bust cream!'.' Funnaye. Mr Chong's so cute.
Vann, ShiYun, Me, JiaXian. <3
My brother's screaming his lungs out. Him and his tantrums. Annoying.
Me love my new Havaiinas. Anyone wants to queue for my free tukytuky for me? :D I'll give you the 20% off Havaiinas voucher in return!
Have to finish Proks&Euks by tonight. Gu Bai.
Beach fit @9:16 PM
Saturday, September 01, 2007
lips like sugar.
Bestfriends are something special huh? I was mean to mine yesterday and I felt funny all over, all day. We've grown so close it's freaky. There were so many times I took out my phone and typed her an sms to tell her something funny before I thought - Hey, I'm supposed to be angry. It felt horrible and suffocating. I'll never do that again, I swear. I'm sorry dear girl. Some people are just irreplaceable.
The Un-Holidays are here. Time to mug my heeeuge ass off. Watched Evan Almighty on Friday night with Kai and Hairspray with bestgirlfriends Ling and Juicy. Both shows were good. Got my new pointe shoes today. :) My braziliano prias broke. :( Getting a new pair of havainas and paul frank's tmr hooray.
Here's a little quiz taken off Yeeb's blog. Been long since I've done one.
List the top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:
1. Timeturner/creator
2. Get out of the Education system
3. If I can't get out, then gimme some super memory/wisdom
4. Family time
5. Bestfriends time
6. I don't care if this is No.6, I want ME-time.
Answer the following questions:
1.(the person who tagged you was …)
YB I think.
2.(your relationship with him/her is …)
BFFs.
3.(your 5 impressions of him/her ..)
I don't remember. hmm.
4.(the most memorable thing he/she has done for you)
Just, talking.
5.(the most memorable words he/she had said to you)
a lil'song 'that could save my life'.
look left look right when you cross the road. keep your ears open for the vehicles. lalala. dont be distracted by other things, such as reading silly messages from your phone. it can cause you your life. so practice safe road habits right now-ow-ow and you'll never regret-et-et. lalala lalala laaaaa lum dee dum. -end-
6.(if he/she becomes your lover, you will..)
be a happy lesbo. -.-
7.(if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be)
she has to stop competing with me for the throne of the Late Queen.
8.(if he/she becomes your enemy, you will…)
tell everyone her boobs are filled with cranberry juice.
9. (if he/she beomes your enemy, the reason will be …)
i dont know i dont want that to happen anyway. and i know it wont.
10.(the most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is …)
tanning on the roof. when will that day come....ahh
11.(your overall impression of him/her is …)
fantab though she annoys me quite a lot at times. *sticks tongue out.
12.(how do you think people around you will feel about you?)
i think they think im snotty haha
13.(the character you love yourself for …)
i don't know, really.
14.(on the contrary, the character you hate yourself for …)
i hate myself for caring. because i think sometimes i care too much.
15.(the most ideal person you want to be is …)
a contented me.
16.(for people that care and like you, say something to them ..)
Something aha ok sorry. Umm...I think you people are the only good things that are in my life. You keep me sane and i thank you for that.
17.(pass this quiz to 10 persons.)
1. G. Yee Boon
2. H.Hui Ling
3. Jasmine.A
4. Jaren.S
5. Kenneth S.W.
6. Wilson.S
7. Joanne.G
8. Simmy.S
9. Vanessa. L
10. O.Shiyun
18.(Who is no.6 having relationship with?)
Oh we all know who.
19.(Is no.9 a male or female?)
NOT SURE.
20.(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?)
It'd be...awkward.
21.(How about no.8 and 5?)
God forbid, no.
22.(What is no.2 studying?)
She's currently attempting to complete two chapters of Chem at the airport. Like, NOW.
23.(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?)
Yesterday. :)
24.(What kind of music band does no.8 like?)
Stuff that I sing lol. Uhh..mix of everything, I guess.
25.(Does no.1 has any siblings?)
A younger bro who looks the exact opp. of mine.
26.(Will you woo no.3?)
if i were a guy!
27.(How about no.7?)
ditto!
28.(Is no.4 single?)
yes. haha.
29.(What’s the surname of no.5?)
Wilson.
30.(What’s the hobby of no.4?)
studying chemistry. chemistry_boi@hotmail.com leh. ;D No lah, umm..watching soccer? talking rubbish?
31.(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?)
They would. They're both very sociable creatures.
32.(Where is no.2 studying at?)
M-M-M-Jay-Seeeee...
33.(Talk something casually about no.1)
Yeebie is shrinking, everywhere.
34.(Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?)
Haha.
35.(Where does no.9 live at?)
AMK? sembawang? bishan? shucks i forgot.
36.(What color does no.4 like?)
Red? Nono, I know. He likes baby pink.
37.(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?)
Noh.
38.(Does no.7 like no.2?)
She would! HHL is super.
39.(How did you get to know no.2?)
She sat next to me in class and we lived happily ever after.
40.(Does no.1 have any pets?)
the world's only furry tortoise.
41.(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?)
That is wrong. -.- Joanne is uber cute though. :D
I'm damn annoyed now. I wanted to go to taman jurong to dance on the harlequin floors tmr but I have tuition. I love pirouettes. Chin up and dance from within Yumei! :) I'm loving it, but I'm dead beat. :/
Poor Jaren's stuck at camp. Cheer up yo! Haha. I hope my funny story made things better. Ladida.
Off to print a nice pretty Hello Kitty calendar for my tutor. Byee!
Beach fit @11:38 PM
Sunday, August 26, 2007
I'm gonna fail both my AF exam and promos.
It's been long since I've cried like this.
When will you stop being so useless, yumei? why are you always inferior to others? I don't know what I'm good at. It must feel good to be good at something. To not have to worry about a thing, to have the world fawn over you cuz you're just so, darned, good. It must feel good. And I doubt that I'll ever know how that feels.
enough.
Beach fit @9:12 PM
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Happy Birthday, Brat.
In case you don't know who I'm talking about. It's my mermaid looking,
blue shirts and butterflies loving,
sometimes quite cute,
brother, Kaizhi's birthday.
Bought him a Bearbrick cuz he collects them and made him do a treasure hunt. xD Had a clue leading to the BBQ pit but was too lazy to go up to put the clue there last night, so I thought I'd do it the next morning. I set my alarm to go off at 7am. In the end, I was roused from my sleep by 'CHEHCHEH! HOW COME THE PIT THERE DON'T HAVE ONE!?'. Looked at my clock, 9.30am. Good job Yumei. -.-
Lol, anyway, he's 13 already, I do hope he grows up mentally soon. I love him, sometimes. :/
Oh yes, something cool. His birthday is 2508, and mine's 2805! :D
:D Happy pampered girl.
Manicure was gooood. Ambience, service... Mom says we can like go once every two months. The woman even cleaned up my cuticles. So neat now. ;) Too bad I just cut my nails cuz one chipped. Or the nails would look so much better. :/
Fabulous Tan-ed, with bestf. Shiokeroos! New experience. I see results! Red tummy. Walked all over Bugis before finding the place. :O Then some good ol' girl fun as we went around running errands and buying things we needed.Got my softpointes at StageImage and met up with HollyHo. RafflesCity for NewBalance and Roxy. Browhaus haha. Poor HL was like 'Mmpff...I have no eyebrows lah!'. Frickin' funnaye. Peninsular Shopping Centre to look for Mat sneakers. Crazy fun in the MRT. Oh and we did something really kiddy but cooool! We got matching but not identical friendship anklets. :D Jas! Yours is with meeee! <3 Lotsa walking today, but I'm a happy happy girl.
Ballet was fulfilling. :) Work hard work hard. Could do entournants today! But en de hor pirouettes to the left sucked. Chi! Don't anyhow anyhow see yourself no up okay, cuz you're already really good aye? I <3>
Rehearsal at Palais studio tomorrow. Nervous, but excited at the same time. Hope the time and money spent will be worth it. Ahh! And I liked the portdebra and loooong allegro exercise that we did. The barre rocks my tights.
Ahaaa so do my ballet mates.
Sigh. Off to do PW. And here I am doing the most unimportant things at the most obscure time. No time to study properly. ): BYE.
Beach fit @10:10 PM
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me.
My right eye is swollen like idunnowhat. D: I look like a troll.
I'm gonna watch Hairspray! :)) Anyone?
Manicure and pedicure session again!Hurrah!
Okay I just slept two hours away. Lotsa homework and I haven't been to tuition for a week cuz was too busy all week.
OH OH! Omg. Miracles DO happen. XuLaoShi said my compo was good. 46/60. :OO Amazing or amazing? Told me to type it out somemore. -.- Oi, chinese leh.
I'm becoming nocturnal. Perfectly awake from 12mn onwards and half-dead anytime before. i.e. I keep sleeping in school. :(
My eye itches. Gouchy. I'm going to eat a prune. Bye.
Beach fit @8:25 PM
Sunday, August 19, 2007
ThisIsAIAmReallyBusyButIHaveNoIdeaWhyI'mStillBloggingPost.
This is gonna be looong...
With rants, photos and lyrics!
Call me crazy.
Packed weekend in a nutshell.
Saturday morning is the day to sleep in a little. And by a little, I mean till 11am. Then off for tuition till 5pm therefore being late for ballet which was supposed to start at 5.30pm, which ended at 7pm plus and dinner and I cut my nails (haha) and fell asleep. Byebye Saturday.
Woke up at an unearthly hour on a Sunday morning to reach Hougang Sports Hall by 9am, did Parametric Equations on the busride and I reached at 8.56am and was the 3rd to reach which is fab considering the fact that I stay at the eastern most part of Singapore. Played against Red Team and as usual I screwed up more than anyone else. Lunched at Hougang Mall before MRT-ing with dear OngShiYun. Went to Vivocity to meet HollyHo and followed her around while she shopped. Wasn't in the mood to shop apart from wanting that leather roomy tote from Esprit which looks mighty sexy. {:D Then MRT-ied to Bugis where we went to Costume Shop and they only had Sansha so I had to go to Stage Image for my Blochs and we walked through Haji Lane on our way to Concourse and didn't find what we wanted to find then we went looking for Stage Image and couldn't find it cuz we were too pooped and my bag weighed a million pounds and we settled back at Bugis Junction for a drink at TCC and to get some work done, and I died on the table a while before the arrival of my Matcha Milkshake revived me. Did work and talked and ate a yummaye cheesecake and did somemore work and went to the toilet and Dad came to fetch HollyHo home and we picked up Mom and Kai from home before dinner-ing at Megumi whose Grilled Saba was fantab today. And I'm left with a lot of work undone. I think I'm gonna cry. D': But I shan't cuz there's a lot more to say here. And I realise there's 901 photos stored in my 4GB memorystick in my camera. HAHA!
Just finished posting the photos. Scroll down. When I said a lot, I meant a lot. Haha. I feel so accomplished.
But I still haven't finished my EOM. :(
Played like shit in today's match. Spiked less than 20 balls I think. Boo. I don't think I should play volleyball after I graduate from TJ. I'll just pull down whichever team I play for. Why.
Anyway here's something that has been bugging me a lot. Y'know in the last math lect. test, there was this parametric equations question. I stupidly tried to use simultaneous equations to get the answer when I KNEW I had to use rate of change. I think I'm going bonkers. Mrs Lim must be thinking I didn't study. But I did... )': Made myself do a whole exercise on Parametric Equations so that I would never ever forget that again.
Dad and Mum are upstairs filling the jacuzzi and Dad did the same thing as I did the other time. He switched on the jet stream before the waterlevel covered the jets, causing the jets of water to spray everywhere, wetting everything, including my Mum. HAHAHA. She was screaming and they were laughing like mad while I watched from the safety of the glass panel. Food-ingly funnaye! xD
I have a lot, a lot of back lot. Die... And my Brazilliano sandals are breaking. D: I need a new pair of havainas.
Wanna buy list:
Esprit tote
PaulFrank Flipflops
Scarf
new laptop
ZhangDongLiang's new CD (I know very random but whatever.)
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HOOKED ON.
不能說的秘密 Bu Neng Shuo De Mi mi
作詞：方文山
作曲：周杰倫
冷咖啡離開了杯墊
leng ka fei li kai le bei dian
我忍住的情緒在很後面
wo ren zhu de qing xu zai hen hou mian
拼命想挽回的從前
pin ming xiang wan hui de cong qian
在我臉上依舊清晰可見
zai wo lian shang yi jiu qing xi ke jian
最美的不是下雨天
zui mei de bu shi xia yu tian
是曾與你躲過雨的屋檐(oh)
shi ceng yu ni duo guo yu de wu yan
回憶的畫面
hui yi de hua mian
在蕩著秋千 夢開始不甜
zai dang zhe qiu qian meng kai shi bu tian
你說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
ni shuo ba ai jian jian fang xia hui zhou geng yuan
又何必去改變 已错过的时间
you he bi qu gai bian yi cuo guo de shi jian
你用你的指尖 阻止我說再見
ni yong ni de zhi jian zu zhi wo shuo zai jian
想象你在身邊 在完全失去之前
xiang xiang ni zai shen bian zai wan quan shi qu zhi qian
你說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
ni shuo ba ai jian jian fang xia hui zhou geng yuan
或許命運的簽 只讓我們遇見
huo xu ming yun de qian zhi rang wo men yu jian
只讓我們相戀 這一季的秋天
zhi rang wo men xiang lian zhe yi ji de qiu tian
飄落後才發現 這幸福的碎片
piao luo hou cai fa xian zhe xing fu de sui pian
要我怎麼撿
yao wo zen me jian
nostalgia. oddly familiar.
Beach fit @11:20 PM
Childhood comfort food 0407 loves! Playing carrom with the dropped pieces and breaking the pieces cleanly in half, the Audi, the passageway to the library.
Beach fit @11:02 PM
Grandpa's 75th Birthday Celebrations. LOVES!
Joanne studying the bottle, our NDP tattoos, Ronald Lim's name, audi roof, Made in Singapore and VERYhardworking, at Bedok Library.
Ship naming ceremony.
Sexy nails.
Beach fit @11:01 PM
Thanks for the candycane and cowbiscuits Cadence the pok! Kai falling asleep while doing his work still holding to pencil, o4o7!
OngShiYun being mad during training, Pilot testing day, Our tissue boxes, Jeryl.
Grandpa's Bday BBQ on the roof.
Staircase landing, My Grandma the Supermodel, Cake.
Beach fit @10:57 PM
FOONG yumei, joy FOO, velaseca FONG. Sitting partners on the plane no matter what and where. Haha. :D Joy...what's that you're watching? ;)
Gifts. xD
:DDDD
Ling, me, her doodles and Jas' present in progress.
Beach fit @10:55 PM
Hotel fun.
Failed jumpshots with self timer. Okay fine, I failed, Chi didn't. -.-
Chi Trish and Me.
Going back. D: My o.4kg to overweight luggage weight on the scale!. Match made in heaven. Raphaelia on my right, Grace on my left. :O With Sam dearie at the back! :D
Beach fit @10:53 PM
Aunty Esther, Ms Pang and Aunty Meina with the supermart trolley IN THE HOTEL! Super cute right. They did so much for us. <3s
Slippers and socks, Chi Velaseca and me.
Junk Food Galore.
Pangers, Manda and me, checkout counters, Lil' Grace, More Pangers.
Beach fit @10:50 PM
At Marina's studio!!!
Pretty scenery.
Room with a view. :)
Farewell party, Qinghui, Fish&Chips and Joy&Grace competing for the longest handstand.
Beach fit @10:48 PM
Donuts! Super yummaye. That's Joy darling! Who insisted on taking a photo with the donuts and the seductive woman's picture on the wall.
Me piggybacking Grace with Velaseca, dinner, Pealine, Liz and Manda!
SUPERMARKET! <3
Girly Fun.
Beach fit @10:47 PM
Juliette's soccer match. She's the one with stripey socks! <33
Footnote! Full of character. :D
At Uncle Chang's.
Pangers, Anita, Ms Tarrant (My Inter Examiner!), Andrew, Hannah, Jessie.
Beach fit @10:45 PM
Hannah sleeping on me during long bus journeys, hiphop at Marina's, Lobby.
Queen Margaret College.
Old-school desks, QMC Doll, Spiral staircasem Pangers.
Pangers and Marina, preschool kids' bags, view from top of QMC.
Beach fit @10:43 PM
Royal New Zealand Ballet Studio.
Cool adverts.
IceCreaaam!
Pangers, the bus journey where Hannah jabbed me real hard between my boobs. :O
Beach fit @10:41 PM
Our Room.
At the Te Papa
City streets, Cool photo of Hannah taken by me, Amanda and Milo.
Royal New Zealand Ballet Costumes.
Beach fit @10:39 PM
Room while packing for NZtrip, Family at airport, The Qantas people (!!), The Pangers.
Fluffy clouds on the way to my favourite place on earth.
First breaths of NZ air. :D
Portland, Jumpin' dancers, Meals table.
Beach fit @10:08 PM
DressingRoom Fun.
StickyBun, EsplanadeLibrary, Ling.
:D
Irreplaceable.
Beach fit @10:05 PM
Friday, August 17, 2007
Well you're magic he said
But don't let it all go to your head
I did it.
Meaning, I made the announcement. Not succeeded in doing it well. Snorts. One cool thing though. I didn't refer to my script at all. {:D
Here's a lesson on How-to-Pronounce-Biology-Jargon.
Jo taught me a couple. Like...
Thrombokinase = Thrombo-kee-nah-seh.
Enterokinase = Entero-kee-nah-seh.
Allele = A-leh-leh.
which reminded me of Joey! Who taught 4E8 that...
Microbes = Micro-bees.
(For the record, they are pronounced as thromboki-nase, enteroki-nase, A-leu and mi-crobes.)
Had me laughing like crazy. Oh...birds with suckers on their feet. ;D
Miracle of miracles happened today. Miss Lee said that our new proposal was GOOD. Not not-up-to-standard, not 'umm...okay..but you need to make some changes', not 'your target audience is not clear enough..'. But GOOD! Good leh! Applause for TJ015 please. Thanks.
Did about an hour and fifteen mins of pointe today. Wasn't that bad. I still can't turn on the left side though. *Yanks hair!! Managed to hold the back leg after the second en tournant twice! :D:D Improvement. Plus I don't screw up my entrechat exercise anymore. Unprepared unprepared. 17th Sept is a special day cuz it's one month from TODAY and my dear Joy, Hannah and Chi are taking their exams on that day and, so am I. I still can't get over the fact that barre is not graded. Esp. after we always die out after the ronde de jambe en lair exercise. Darn. I hope I don't go in with some super pro girls. And I bet I'll stand behind during barre and get free music cuz I'm gonna be the tallest which sucks because sometimes the free music is exceptionally difficult to count. Winnie being our pianist just makes things worse. :O Stop thinking too much Yumei. To the ballet dears! Go for distinction in your majors kay? You can do it! :D We'll work hard together! Flora misses y'all sooooooo much. Can't wait to hang out together after (I pass) my promos! <3s
My shoulder's aching like FOOD (haha Steph. Private joke.). And my nail chipped real deep. Ouch.
Okay I'm off to do what-I-planned-to-finish-today (highly unlikely but I'll try anyway.). Another packed weekend ahead. What's new. Cringesssss...
I want to read. I need...brain food.
Spiderpig, spiderpig,
Does whatever a spiderpig does,
Can he swing, from a web?
No he can't, he's a pig
Look out, he is a spiderpig.
This still, amuses me.
Beach fit @10:43 PM
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Ahaha the last few lines of the previous post was utter gibberish. I fell asleep, woke up to type some more, save my EOM and fell back asleep again. And I published my post. -.- Do not scroll down to look at it. It's embarrassing. Ok fine, you'll scroll down anyway.
ANYWAY. I'm gonna make an announcement tomorrow morning and I'm not too hyped up about it. Stupid skit. F.Tong made us rehearse so many times and we were never good enough for him. Eff. Not enthu enough. Now you know, those people you see up there giving over enthusiastic fake voices-they were forced to. In other words, I'm going to go up and have to speak in that same over enthu and fake way. That person is NOT me okay. Sickening.
Talk about commiting social suicide.
Do not, not talk to me and pretend not to know me after that okay you people. ):
Did my napfa yesterday. ipu:18, s&r:58cm, sbj:208cm, sr:10.8s, situps:31.
D: Shuttle run's super lousy. Used to be 10.3s max. Situps made me perspire. I can't do sit ups for nuts. 2.4km dreaaaaaddd. Loser.
I feel like crying. The workload seems never ending. I don't have time for myself. I haven't been reading, nor have I been getting enough sleep. I did the wrong Chem Supp. question and I've yet to finish my econs essay plan. Btw if econs was a person that person would be chopped into a million pieces by me aready. Not to mention that Mrs Raj just makes me feel like I'm the smartest person all the time. And I have to draw a study plan for Mr Peck.
Met Ebi and Jeremy yesterday. Weirdly enough, Jerms and I were discussing the most painless way to commit suicide while waiting for Ebi to finish. No conclusion. Darn.
I feel like running all of a sudden. Vent the frustration.
Dumbass.
Beach fit @10:41 PM
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Oh, it's what you do to me.
I'm so tired now. Back from training with a sky-high pile of work left undone. Horrible week, so far. I still have my rash since the Journey to the West last Friday that doesn't seem to be letting up. New bruises from volleyballing, blisters from one-on-one pointe class, papercuts from printing PW material, and weird chest/ tummy pains. I'm volunteering myself for euthanasia. D:
Undone work include EOM (yes I know, ahhh.), GP essay, Econs case study, tuition homework, Bio/Chem/Math tutorial, chinese worksheets. Most of them were due today. Stop procrastinating Yumei! The work piles up. Sigh.
Training was horrid today except for when we played match. I realized that my muscles are not very useful. -.- My strength has deteriorated. Makes me appreciate the times when GuoBinJiaoLian and Melvin made us do the ma bu and squats and PT. Was so much more fit then. I can't even do push ups nicely anymore. Mr Fung made us receive balls individually and my legs gave out. )': Frustrating. Therefore I have come to the conclusion that I require a lot of working out to regain my fitness. And that means going to the gym. My wrists are floppy and weak. I've got to make an effort to do so. As much as I hate it.
I chipped a nail and that made me really sad. Plus my nails are so dry now. Removed my polish. Dang.
Suffering from insomnia. Or rather, sleepy-in-the-day-and-extremely-awake at night. But I'm so tired and all I wanna do is sleep. And it's already so late and I have so much undone (don't ask me why I'm blogging then. I shall ignore you.)and I'm so mentally exhausted. Risking going to school and getting reprimanded for not handing in my work on time or sleeping in class.
Doing my 5 stations tomorrow. Wonder if I can do well. It's been long since I've done them. Aha. God bless me man.. I wanna get a 30 this year mood. Bye earning 400$..yawning.
Beach fit @11:17 PM
Saturday, August 11, 2007
You’ve got something
Call it gumption
Call it anything you want
Hello I'm blogging more often lately cuz I've been on the com more frequently cuz of PW. And PW better turn out good BECAUSE I HAVE RUINED MY NAILS, typing so much causing my nails to keep getting caught in the keyboard. Annoyed. Typing super slowly now with straight fingers. :((
Weird things have been happening to me. Here's one.
Funny Aunty: Hello? [In chinese] Is this the bus company? What time is the bus coming today ah?
Me: Err Aunty, I think you've got the wrong nu...
FA: BU KE NENG (cannot be!)! I've checked the number already, I can't have dialed the wrong number.
Me: Uh okay, what number did you call?
FA: 8136...
Me: Hello Aunty, you've got the wrong number. This number is 8168...
FA: YAH CORRECT WHAT, cannot be wrong one! (notice that the numbers are nothing alike.apart from them both starting with 81 which a thousand other phone users have too. -.-)
Me: Aunty, 8136...is different from 8168...!
FA: Cannot be what, this number is 8136..., confirm!
Me: Okay if you insist it's correct then it's correct loh. *Hangs up.
Crazy woman. -.- Not say I want to say her okay. But really, the absurdity of it. I was already being nice by not hanging up on her. Keeps insisting that she's right.
Which brings me to the point of parents always insisting stuff. 'You always think you're correct, never in the wrong. My fault lah okay?' Sounds familiar? Sounds like your parents? *Rolls eyes in sucha bitchy way that you wanna slap me. I feel like asking them 'What makes you think that you are right about me always thinking that I'm never in the wrong?' and see how they answer that. Sigh. Parents are so annoying at times. But they don't always mean it. I've learnt to not argue back and just bite my tongue and let it tide over.
But hor, in the above incident that woman is obviously insisting that she's right okay. Don't even need to think.
Had the weirdest dream while napping this morning. Nightmare, more like. I was dreaming that my that-sharp-sharp-tooth was shakey and the bottom-sharp-sharp-tooth kept grinding against it when I close my jaw hence making it more shakey. (The word shakey is starting to look odd to me at this point, did I spell it wrong? !!)And then, horror of horrors, IT FELL OUT. :OOOOO I remember crying and worrying about how I'm supposed to go to school with one blank file. Aiyee! Then I somehow remembered Vanessa Leong Kah Min telling me that she has dentures (this is totally fictional, from my dream. Vanessa does NOT have dentures. I'm quite sure. -.- Oh no, have or not? Confused reality and dream.) so all of a sudden she was beside me (!!) and I asked her how long it'd take for the dentist to make me dentures (the word dentures is starting to look weird too now..) and she wrote 'one week' on a piece of paper (I don't know why she couldn't have just told me) and I cried even harder. I mean like...ONE WEEK WITH A BLANK FILE AT SCHOOL! Madness. Then I told myself 'Yumei, this is a dream, wake up from it! This can't be happening!!', and I really woke up. I used my tongue to prod at my tooth and thank God it was still there. I was tearing (silly, I know.) and my teeth felt vulnerable for the rest of the day. I didn't close my jaw fully for fear of any teeth falling out.
Don't laugh at me okay, it's darn scary I tell you.
Y'know my Daddy has more of a life than me. He goes clubbing like some 19 year old guy. Just that day he asked me if I've been to Dragonfly at St James and I was like 'No, why?' and he told me he's been there quite a few times and to MoS and stuff. And he laughed at me! Preposterous! Wthell! I need a life damnit.
Ballet was tie-er-ring today. As usual. Did whole of allegro again! I can't hold the back leg after my second en tournant lah! Couldn't balance. And Ms Pang told me to do 8 soubresauts and I did 8 changements. Dumbass Yumei how could I have made such a stupid mistake? The Grade 1s would know the difference. Dumb Dumb Dumb Dumb Dumb. Failli arms are still funny, I can't help doing it palms upand I think it's so funny! And as though we haven't had enough of beats, Ms Pang came up with this complicated entrechat six exercise. Releve, entrechat six, releve, entrechat six, changement batu, changement batu, entrechat, entrechat, changement batu and start all over again. The worse thing is, she made us do it in center. :O Pirouettes were on, off, on, off today and I almost sprained both my ankles while chaine-ing. -Flops on floor, half dead with exhaustion.
My fishes are green now. I think they ate the algae. They're sorta see through so they look green haha. So cute. ;)
I have a PW meeting at 7am tomorrow. No you didn't see wrong, nor did I type wrongly. SEVEN A-M. D: Yay but I'll see my group mates and engage actively in some thought provoking stuff that'll hopefully stop my brains from failing me time and again.
Oh oh and I played with Ling's NDP goodiebag fan! It's so cool I don't know how to describe what it does. Go get someone who has one to show you! Uber amusing!
I always seem to have so much to say I also dunno why. I'm like talking to myself. Ahaaaa. Zzzzz...
ARGHHHHHH. My nail got stuck again I don't wanna type anymore byebye.
Beach fit @9:20 PM
Friday, August 10, 2007
bad hair day
Jurong is officially the dirtiest place in Singapore. Zomg. Two hours there and I got a full fledged rash. But I won't scratch cuz I now have pretty nails. More on that later.
Went to Jurong shipyard today for Dad's ship naming ceremony. Went onboard and the helmet made my bad hair worse than ever. -whines. D: Met Ide-san and the others. Twas coooool sans the helmet.
Had a gut feeling that I shouldn't cut my nails
Ballet was ...... today. I had like mental block for the ending pirouettes for the grande jete exercise. Stupid. )': And my beats-hopeless! Bahh I'm super sad. Persevere Yumei! Adage was better today though. 17th September, The Day.
Umm yo. * may be your fav but I am not relying on *. Things go both ways but you just seem to think that I'm the one asking all the time. Clarifying is different from questioning. Stop thinking that way cuz I have my limits. I will prove it.
I want a scarf to tie around ma neck and I can't find a nice one. *makes a rude sound.*
I feel horribly slackish and mucky cuz I'm rashing.
Screams.
Oh oh, haha. I realized that I could catch the fireworks from my rooftop last night. Hurrah! It seems that the fireworks follow me wherever I shift to. I hearts you fireworks! But the Japanese school was blocking the lower ones. Darn.
ARGHHHH. Have I ever mentioned that I HATE PW.
Beach fit @9:45 PM
Thursday, August 09, 2007
The only reason why I'm watching the broadcast of the NDP 'o7 is cuz I may just catch my sexyloves on teevee.
And I'm damn sad now cuz I realise that I can no longer see fireworks and everything-you-can-see-in-the-skies-during-NDPs cuz I've shifted. D:
I miss the old place. The sounds and sights of the planes aren't missed now though. I see 4planes in the sky everytime I look out the window, and the sounds of the roaring engines of the planes during take off and landing are quite loud. I stay so near the airport now. -.-
Happy 42nd Birthday Singapore.
I hope you change your education system (and a million other things) in the near future. Thank you very much. I love you (if you change the education system.).
Yawn, the marchpast. SHOW ME SOME HUILING OR EBI WITH THE UMBRELLA ELLA ELLA PLEASE.
Beach fit @6:59 PM
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
this innocence is brilliant.
Tuition was amusing today. Jason had an unexpected visitor and we laughed till we teared. Makes me look forward to tuition. :) Doing bio tomorrow. Whines.
Had a good long chat with dear HL yesterday, and one with Ebi on the train journey today. Happy. :D
Something funny. I refused to wake up this morning cuz in my dreams, I was with my family and we were walking to the hawker centre opp. TJ and I was queueueueueueing (I don't know how to spell lah) up for my food. Was staring at the bowl of the person in front of me, salivating. It was my turn next before I woke up. I wanted to eat the prawn mee. D: Drats. I kept snoozing my alarm while half asleep just to GET MY PRAWN MEE. But Mother dearest barged in, flung open my door and windows, switched off my aircon and threw my comforter aside. Daaaamn. I was soooo close... Tsk. Nehmind, shall eat it soon.
National Day celebrations were a flop and I have no love for Spore whatsoever so it was...uhhhh. Had fun with the class girls though. I love you girls. :D
My daily after school activity now is hangout-with-Joanne-at-the-pasar-malam-or-hawker-centre-at-bedok-central-until-Joanne-decides-what-she-wants-to-eat. Stupid tutukuay water wouldn't boil, woman busy cutting pandan leaves, the cold tapioca cake dilemma and fried ice cream which we never got round to trying. -.- Went to Bedok library and did uhh 3 calculus questions and played with the camera and talked rubbish and tried to stay awake.
I'm a delocalised electron and I live in Titanium.
(You don't wanna/ don't have to read this)
Yumei is a huge screwball. I never fail to not screw up. Boo. Finally had the feel today, but I still underunderunderperformed during the match. Why can't I play properly, especially during the crucial moments. $%^&*&^!!*+. Highly annoyed. Have always wanted to play in back row, i.e. w/o a libero subbing me. BUT, in my 5 years as a center spiker, I've always been subbed by a libero either cuz I would be too tired to spike if I played back row as well, or Coach thinks my receiving sucks, or all of the above. Butbut my receiving has improved since my sec sch days and I was actually more interested in receiving instead of spiking (which is saying A LOT.). Then always tio subbed out in the back row when we train = not enough experience. Dang. Felt frustrated and I knew it wasn't good to feel frustrated so I tried to be positive and do my best. But it didn't work. Sigh. I wasn't nervous at all but I still made a huge mess. I'm sorry teammies. D': If I was Mr Fung I would have subbed me out and give me a good tongue-lashing. What kinda crap player am I to not be able to adapt to changes in the positions and playing styles. Having played center for 5 years is no excuse for me to keep forgetting that I do not have to block/run to the center when I'm playing open spiker. Yumei you've gotta stop making excuses to make yourself feel better. Apparently something is wrong if you make mistakes at the worst times. Do something about it damnit. I'm gonna work on my receiving big time man. AND, I didn't feel like hop-serving today so I just took one step to serve. Which ended up in me serving 2 out balls. Mel taught me the hop serve so that I'll serve out less easily but being so stupidly stubborn, I didn't hop-serve cuz I didn't feel right about it today. One of the balls was a crucial ball some more. I have so much to improve on. Feel like crying but that's not gonna help anything. :( Thank goodness for the teammies. Esp. Eileen who always makes me feel so much better. Pull up your hidden toe-socks Foong Yumei or risk bench warming next year. Aiyee. Omg I just thought of my unglam dives. *smacks head.
Oh and I think Lime is the single most unsubstantial mag in the universe. It's so shallow and it sucks. Everyone should read 8 Days. Cheap and good (Aunty I know, whatever.) and packed to the brim with cool stuff. Great writers and the sarcasm in the articles make you LOL. I SWEAR. Unless you're one of those people who can't tell sarcasm when it's
PW is a pain in the everywhere. Everybody in favour of that say AYE!
-Bounces off to cut nails..
Beach fit @11:38 PM
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
I'm so good at forgetting
And I quit every game I play
But forgive me, love
I can't turn and walk away
Hello Ong Shi Yun. For the gazillionth time, I shall tell you that I don't know how to comment at your blog. So, I shall tell you in my blog. My Grandpa had his birthday party at my house on 4th August too! Coolshit or what? Hahahaha.
Every teacher says 'Do this, that and these.Oh, and prepare for a test on Monday. You have a long weekend to do all that. I expect them to be handed in on Monday as well.'.
Yea yea. I'd have time to do all that if I took only one subject. >:/
*Thumps non-existent chest in frustration*
Eh don't irritate me I tell you I will stab you. Sickening. Clingy asswipe.
I have the SportsXcel Meet-the-Mentors session tomorrow at 6-9pm BUT I HAVE A MATCH AT HOUGANG AT 8pm.
W.T.F.
Cranky.
Thank goodness Jo's keepin' me sane by being insane. :D I hope you found your dizi which wasn't lost in the first place. I don't know what I'm talking about bye.
Beach fit @8:22 PM
Monday, August 06, 2007
Mikhail Gorbachev (Yes, that Russian old failure of an old man from your history textbooks.) is modelling for Louis Vuitton. Haha.
I just had the most horrible day of my-life-so-far. I survived! :D 5 chapters of organic chem, Market Failure for econs and Bio SPA Skills C and D. I feel like I'm on holiday. Woohoo.
Had ballet alone today. Did barre and centre practice. I think my right arch is revolting. Urghh. Annoyed. OMG I DIDN'T DO PIROUETTES AT ALL TODAY. Wtheck. The babies and their parents from the baby class after mine kept opening the door and gawking. Sickening.
No training tomorrow. D':
I'm gonna grow fatter-er and die.
Grumpy.
Beach fit @8:15 PM
Friday, August 03, 2007
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.
And I'm one of those people.
I tell you I'm busier than 14892764867 bees okay.
First match of Open Cup 2007 against TNT aka The National Team (quite cool hoh). First two sets were [insert expletive of choice]. Third set was better. More rallies, so at least it was worth it. Service was not bad that day. We should all aim towards a 100% service-over rate and of course to value-add, 100% ace ball rate. I have to work hard on that and so does everyone yo! Receiving of the opponent's service was better than expected too. :) But we were too slow (esp. my blocking I think my footwork is horrible), too flustered (messy playing. no first ball nicely to setter's hands for setter to set with ease. the balls just flew around our side of the court, no order at all. -frowns.), not enough communication and almost zero bu wei. Great fighting spirit though! :D We joined Open Cup not to win but to gain valuable experience and after playing just 1 match, I've learnt so, so much. God knows how much better players we would become at the end of the season. This is really good for us. Yay! But my spiking is atrocious that's for sure. Ahh~ Must get form and mind back. Team! :)
Ballet exam coming. Zzz. Allegro will kill me. Had class today with Cass and Xueying. Yippee we stretched quite a bit and did other dances at the end of class. Way cool. We're gonna go for some courses at the end of the year! Eggcited. But first, AF exam. :O I must must must reach my target and I bet Ms Pang will make me do Gallop instead of Waltz. -Whines.
I am so tired and I love my PW group and class! I LOVE JOANNEBALASARMI who is half indian and she loves chapattis (According to Praveen, chapattis are flatter versions of prata which is like comparing tracing paper and paper which then again is a really bad analogy but whatever, we were very amused.). Which reminds me of the major ammendments I have to make to the written report. Arghh. Sigh. I need to learn to love math. I fell asleep in biolecture today which is result of sleeping at 1am the night before + the match. Snores.
Gave meself a lil' treat today though. Watched the Simpsons with Vann, Keith, Shengyu and Nicholas. Good show I must say. :D
Met Simmy and it was silly (haha kuku).
I wanna shop with my sexayes, go to the airport and the Singapore Art Cafe and a big group hug. :( But it won't be any time soon. Boo.
OMG yuck. Do I know you. Annoying. Fwahh. Go save up for some originality. They don't come cheap. HA!
I miss my first 3 months bestbuds! Especially the two ahbengs Chang and Eugene. :( Double boo.
I'm jabbering and I should stop. GU BAI.
Beach fit @10:54 PM
Monday, July 30, 2007
Reminiscing BVB. D:
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I came across this photo of the BeachVB Clinic conducted by the Swiss. (With Lea! <3<3)> us home since it was always school nights. HsiangTheng and Angel being so nice and funny all the time. Training under the sweltering heat by the beach and getting fugly sportsbra tanlines. Chilling by the beach till late after trainings and complaining about the shithell expensive prices of the seafood basket. Oh I particularly liked the drinks they sold in buckets with lotsa straws and everyone passed around. Bathing in the open shower and having lots of fun. Missed the times when I trained as a youth player in the Singapore team. This is what my studies robbed me of. Fuckit. No time no time no time. I swear I'm going back to train whenever I can. Bahh.
Pissed.
Beach fit @7:04 PM
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Nothing much except for that I have been running a 39degree fever for the past 5days and today the temperature has fallen to 37.9degrees and that I have spoilt almost every joint in my body. My shoulder, hip, knee and ankle joints were in such horrible states that my doc booked me an appointment with a specialist and gave me a one month exemption from physical activity.
My reason for blogging has always been so that I can look back and relive my past. Now with life in this state, there's nothing much I'd want to look back at in 20 years time. Hence the lack of posts. See ya when I see ya. In the meantime, try and be happy everyone!
Oh by the way my target for 2.4 this year is 14 minutes hoh. :D Wish me luck ah, difficult leh.
Beach fit @10:37 PM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Magic is Might!
Finished reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Thoroughly engaging from start to end. Had me in tears at some points.
J.K Rowling did not disappoint in her last installment of this superb series. My Groundbreaker of choice, still (MissCherylLee didn't let me use her as my Groundbreaker, damnit.).
:D
Feeling a lil' empty now that I have nothing else to read. )':
DIE, EOM, DIE.
Beach fit @6:56 PM
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Her prayer was strong and fierce, her faith-the faith of dispair-immediate and boundless. God would answer her. God must answer her. She waited for his messenger to appear in white robes with a seraphic voice to point out the path to a new life. "I've learnt my lesson, God. I really have. I'll never be spoilt and selfish again." She waited, eyes squeezed shut, tears making paths in the dust on her cheeks. She waited for the messenger to appear, and an image began to form in her mind, vague at first and then growing more solid. She strained to look into the dimmest corners of her consciousness, strained to peer at her messenger. She strained and saw...
Scarlett O'Hara.
She saw Scarlett lying in the dirt, silhouetted against a Technicolour hillside. Scarlett crying out, "As God is my witness, I'll never go hungry again."
Ha. Found that funny.
An exerpt from the book Fancy Pants by Susan Elizabeth Phillips I just finished reading. Good book I must say. :)
Certain things I wish I didn't do, I wish I could erase. Sigh Yumei you dumbass.
Went to Sonata today. Lunched at TCC Shaw before walking to the other end of Orchard Rd to Orchard Plaza. Bleddy hell I was so tempted to take a bus. Yay Yeebie I'm so brave!
Bought my exam leotard and tights and pointe shoes. Didn't have Bloch Serenade in 5C so I tried on Suprima 5C but was afraid I wouldn't be used to the smaller box so I settled for 5halfC Serenades. Nice Sonata woman gave me a pretty pouch for my new pointes. :D They didn't have stock for my demi-pointes though. Reserved a pair at OKH, gotta go collect on Monday after class. D: All the way at Tanglin Shoppping Centre.
Couldn't dance yesterday so I sat in at class. They did all the fun grand allegro. No brises, no failli, no entrechats trois and cinq. Danced today, and we did all off the above. In the centre. Dang. I can't do en tournants to the left. Cannot coordinate. Pooh! I swear I'll work on my penchee. Very, very yucky. ): I don't feel ready for the exam. Omg and it's so close to promos. I'm gonna die a horrible death.
I don't know how or why but all of a sudden I'm involved in so many things when I'm tryin' to not be so involved for once.
1.Taonan Pre-camp.
2.Taonan Camp.
3.SportsXcel
-Jersey
-Ushering duties
-Sportsmen Appreciation
-Mentor meetings
-Sportsleadership camp
4.AF exam.
5.Volleyball Open Tournaments.
6.PROMOS.
Watch me wither and die like a stooopid worm. Ugh. So much for focusing more on studying. I'm spending whatever free time I have now attempting to salvage my schoolwork and counting down the hours to the dreaded promos. Whatever happened to more me-time. I don't even have time to read Newsweek/newspapers.
Which reminds me, I read something econs based today on the papers during breakfast. Just in case Mrs Raj tries to test us again. Nope, this time I remember more than just that good man who adopts unwanted girls in Hainan. I know what's the other piece o' news on the headlines! Sub sales of private housing rising! Made up 13+% of property sales in 2007. Some lucky ass bought his condo at 6000000plus and sold it at a whopping 1.6mil. Sub sales rising but still not high enough for government intervention. Compared to the 20+% subsales during the property market boom in 1995, it's peanuts.
Yay! Welcome to va-vavoom.blogspot.com, you learn new things everyday! :D
Training on Thursday was ooof, tiring. My legs were trembling. Couldn't spike a single good ball. Not even one, which is purr-teh-tickkkkk. Walked to the toilet near CO room with OngYunYun and LeongMinMin after training as usual. And as always, we walk in the pitch darkness. Just as we were walking near the Atrium, I saw a figure moving. I nudged Shiyun and said 'Eh, do you see someone there?', then she was like 'OMG DON'T SCARE ME...' thenthen suddenly...
"BOO!"
"AAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHH!!!!"
(size and boldness of font directly proportional to pitch and amplitude of sounds produced.)
That figure was none other than Mr Kelun who then starts to laugh super loudly at our sillyness.
Then Vanessa.."*points to the hanging mask directly above our heads* Eh the masks damn scary leh!" At that exact moment, a breeze blew past and the mask turned to 'face' us and f*ck that made me scream like a mad woman, resulting in a domino effect of Shiyun and Van screaming and we started grabbing each other and screaming some more before half running and walking to the toilet. With Kelun still laughing madly.
The masks were real scary. Wlaooo eh CADENCE! Why the SC put them up??!! Haha.
The mission to find the perfect SportsXcel jersey starts tomorrow with Jaren. Wish me luck on this ardous task.
And my right shoulder joint, hip joints, knee joints and ankles are seriously screwed. I need TIME to see the doctor damnit. Especially the shoulder. It's bugging me real bad, can't move it a fraction of an inch w/o having a sharp pain searing through. Annoying. Inner thigh muscles are effingly tight. Hurts so bad when I stretch and split. FKNN. That was random but I had to whine.
Sorry for this jabbery post, I'm feeling weirdly chatty today. :D
Beach fit @9:44 PM
Thursday, July 12, 2007
broken inside.
JCT results are shocking. Not mine. I didn't study much for it so my results were quite expected. What was not expected was that so many people did so much better than me while they said they didn't study. So apparently I'm quite dumb. -shrugs. Wait and see.
Sometimes in life, nothing is ever enough. To spike a ball over the net is one thing, to spike the net over and gain a point is another, and to gain a point every single time you jump up to spike is yet another. I think we all need to live by this fact. That no matter how safe and comfortable you think you are, you're not. We need to keep upgrading ourselves, not fall for everything other people say and not be discouraged by others' negativity.
sick and tired.
where have you been?
Beach fit @11:53 PM
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Bewilderment underscored her fears.
She felt like a child who had learnt her colours wrong and just found that red was really yellow, blue was really green-only now that she knew what was wrong, she couldn't imagine what to do about it.
My legs don't feel like my own today. Nothing from my waist (or lack thereof) down feel like they remotely belong to me. Legs overstrained from PE and training yesterday. Strained is bad enough, it's overstrained. I can't stand up w/o cramping up and feeling like my legs are gonna crumble under me. What a horrible ballet day. Was helpless during adage and basically everything from grand battements till the end of lesson. Couldn't balance at all due to supporting foot getting the arch cramps. Wobble wobble. Beats were omg. Embarrassing I shouldn't have danced today. Boo. )))': Gallop was double omg/omgomg. I'm in such a yucky state that I can't even do a split. Eff Eff Eff. I KNOW, must be the 200m sprint during PE. Damnit my calves are hurting real bad. Not muscle aches but my legs seize up with pain involuntarily. Plus a horribly sore right hip from diving and rolling at last training, creaky shoulder joint from spiking and a recurring knee problem that resurfaced no thanks to the backward rolls. This is like gymnastics sans gym mats. When will I be able to dance like normal again?? I haven't been stretching for 2 days already. This can't go on I NEED to get better soon. Legs please sleep early tonight and wake up tomorrow all nice and happy and unpainful okay? Okay.
I'm jabbering again. Sorry. D': i feel like crying.
Have been blogging a lot of dumb stuff that nobody wants to read about lately. :/ More substantial posts should come soon, I hope. No mood.
OWWWWWWWWWWWW FUG my knees are acting up again %$#^&*!@. Oh oh omg did I mention that my hands are hurting too. From the wrists to the fingertips. Palms aching so bad that I'm holding a rolled up sock ball to support my hand as I type. Can't hold a pen without trembling. But, EH HEY...SEE, MR FUNG I GOT BAO QIU! This is proof. L:OL
And to those who have caught the sneaks/going to watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, do NOT tell me what happened cuz I don't want to know. Don't be a spoiler
Calling for 4 female volunteers from TJC to have their pretty faces (photos) displayed on tissue boxes (for like...2 hours) all around the campus for people to vote for you to star in a Reality TV show on pilot testing day. The show will of course not actually be filmed. We just need your face.
Pretty please, with sugar on top. And a Rollo. Rollos taste amazing. :D
Fancy pants.
fancy pants.
Beach fit @10:51 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
love is a highway.
PE almost killed me dumb. Overworking my muscles. Training was urgh. Legs buckling under me. Right hip sore from all that rolling and tumbling to receive the balls. Spiking more horrible than usual. What is happening?
I feel that I'm just going through the motions day after day. When will I ever find meaning in the things that I do? Feeling jaded.
Beep I hate you, rashes.
kao jin yi dian dian
mo mo zai ni de shen hou shou hou de wo
duo xiang kan ni bu jing yi de xiao rong
huo xu wo de xin ni bu dong
wo hui nu li rang ni gan dong
zai ni yan zhong you duo me ben zhuo de wo
jue bu fang qi zhui zhu ni de zhi zhuo
zhi yao ni neng zai duo xie hui ying wo
yi ge xiao huo dian tou quan jie shou
neng bu neng zai kao jin yi dian dian
da sheng shuo chu ni suo you gan jue
bie zai jing jing guan zai zhi you zi ji de shi jie
wen nuan tai yang wei ni ying jie
neng bu neng zai kao jin yi dian dian
neng bu neng zai yong gan yi dian dian
jiu suan rang wo zhi dao wo yong yuan zhi shi dan lian
wo ye hui cang zhe gan xie
xiao zhe he ni shuo zai jian
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Beach fit @11:16 PM
Sunday, July 08, 2007
currently experiencing something called a blogger's-block.
feeling all crummy inside. i don't really know what or why, but there's something bugging me real bad deep down. i think i'm still caught up in that little world of mine where fairytale endings happen. that's why reality's bite seems harder than ever this time.
we are at crossroads a lot of times in life. the dilemma, the decisions we have to make. if we choose route A, we spend the time after that thinking what could have been if we had chosen route B. what if this, what if that. nothing's certain. you look around for directions to tell you what's next, or what do i do now. this time i looked in every nook and cranny, but i still don't see the signs. i've given up and am sitting in the middle of the crossroads.
on a very slightly happier note, i bought organic croutons, soyamilk and muesli bars.
tjvolleyball bbq was pretty fun last night. thanks klun for organizing it. :)
doesn't that hit so close to home?
Beach fit @11:43 PM
Saturday, July 07, 2007
If only things in life were that easy and perfect.
Sometimes no matter how hard we work towards and fight for something, things will still not go our way.
It's like struggling to stay afloat.
Because you cannot stop treading water, because once you give up and stop...you go down under.
Life's anything but a television drama series. There isn't a happy ending to everything.
dan lian, zhen de shi bu rong yi.
Beach fit @3:44 PM
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
it started with a kiss.
pulled some ligaments/muscles/whatever towards the end of ballet yesterday. must be over-stretching. hurt so bad that i couldn't do grand allegro and pointe. worst of all, didn't stretch cuz it hurt so much to just sit in my front splits. ): i'm gonna stretch later to make up for not stretch yesterday. my legs keep buckling under me. grahh.
Random stuff:
:D Cool no?
Lil' love. :)
new hunk on the block. zhengyuanchang aka joecheng. :D
nevermind the girl.
He's even hunkier than HyunBin (which is saying something)!
Swoons..ikea.
day-off from school.
gallop.
surprise.
A level MT oral.
jct results.
can't stand people who claim that they didn't study/sure fail/dieee..and get super good grades... or get like 89/100 and keep saying that they did very badly/gonna get murdered etc. sheesh, no need to rub it in.
oh, and people who keep trying to peek at other people's grades. enough hoh i tell you. dumb fag.
Training tomorrow. Watch me die. Like a worm, no less.
): -> (:
Beach fit @4:47 PM
Monday, July 02, 2007
You went out with Huiling again?
And you said you went out with her yesterday?
I wonder if you reallly did go out with her.
Y'know, that would be perfectly fine if said over dinner or something. But for one, she didn't bother unlocking the door for me when I rang the doorbell, two, that was the first thing she said to me. Thanks ah, I feel right at home. Oh, and three, I didn't ONLY go out with Huiling yesterday.
Told her to believe whatever she wanted to believe cuz whatever I say won't make a difference anyway. And she said of course she didn't believe me, I keep going out. Then what? It's the holidays. I'm supposed to stay at home all day to do the laundry and whatnot plus have you screaming at me? Thanks, but no thanks.
All I did was go out to celebrate a friend's birthday for 5 hours yesterday and because I ate from 1pm-4pm, I didn't have anymore room in my stomach for dinner. 'Always not eating at home...dunno what you're doing outside...you come home and go straight to your room..not part of the family..blahblah..'.
Well it's not my fault you cancelled cable TV.
Today's the best. Went to Ikea with HUILING to get frames for my posters, and went for ballet and came home immediately after like a good girl. Just because you're in a horrid mood you accuse me. Don't go ballet also scold, go ballet also scold. I'm not like your son who sits in front of the computer all day killing some ninja rats. To think I was so excited to have dinner at home and talk about my day with the family.
To top that off, you can tell me that I come home and throw tantrums. Oh God. My eyes are rolling so quickly in their sockets that the energy generated can drive my Dad's car to Alaska and back. I wonder why I needed to defend myself.
I didn't even SHOUT, for that matter.
And if you read this you're going to go into another long lecture that is somewhere along the lines of 'You always think you're right...never in the wrong..it's my fault lah, my fault okay?'
OKAY.
I didn't even say I wasn't in the wrong for not being at home enough. But then again, maybe you should ask yourself if you make me feel like this is a home. I mean, no cow goes into the slaughter house willingly right? If you get my drift.
You always have to be so suspicious. If I tell you I go out with Ebi, I'm out with Ebi. It's not like I've betrayed your trust before. I lock my room door (was changing, mind you), and you say 'what hanky panky are you up to?'.
You have no idea how much that hurts.
Funny how you think I have a secret boyfriend and I'm going out with him all day when I tell you I'm going out with my girls or going for ballet.
Uhh, you might like to consider how I look and my IQ. Because from what I know and understand, how I look and my absurdly low IQ are not what guys look for in a girlfriend.
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Ah well, I can never be angry for long.
Got happier after I framed up my posters and talked to my teddybears. Naw, just kidding.
Heard only two periods of school tmr. Wonder how true that is. :/ I have A levels MT oral though. Haven't done anything about it except perhaps...reading the chinese subtitles of this new Taiwanese drama series I'm watching? :O
Anyway, here's something cool I got from KongMeng's blog. :D
Pick your birthday month:
January--i danced with
February--i loved
March--i choked on
April--i licked
May-- i kicked
June--i murdered
July--i sang to
August--i had lunch with
September--i ran over
October--i smoked
November--i yelled at
December--i kissed
Pick the day (number) you were born on:
1-------a paperclip
2-------a monster
3-------a phone
4-------a fork
5-------a gangster
6-------a mexican
7-------my science teacher
8-------a banana
9-------myself
10-------my neighbour
11-------an ipod
12-------my dog
13-------chuck norris
14-------a stuffed animal
15-------a goat
16-------a pickle
17-------your mom
18-------a spoon
19-------my best friends boyfriend
20-------a football player
21-------a permanent marker
22-------my boyfriend's tongue
23-------a noodle
24-------my girlfriend
25-------a baseball bat
26-------my sister
27-------a cd
28-------a llama
29-------a thorn bush
30-------my cell phone
31-------A homeless guy
Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:
White------Because im sexy
Black-------Because im a ninja.
Pink--------Because im homosexual.
Red---------Because i love her.
Blue--------Because the voices told me to
Green------Because I hate myself.
Purple------because im an ass
Gray--------Because im drunk as hell
Yellow------Because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars
Orange----Because i hate my family.
Other-------Because that's how I roll.
I kicked a llama because I am sexy. :D
Beach fit @6:57 PM
Saturday, June 30, 2007
the next person who annoys me gets a smack.
Yes, in case you were wondering, this is another one of those posts where I have a list of things that annoy me. Read at your own risk.
Annoying thing No. 1-
Arranged to meet the Taonan Camp people at 1.20pm outside Taonan School cuz I distinctly remembered the reporting time written in the email was 1.30pm. Then Jaren the sometimes-smart guy said reporting time was at 1pm. So I arranged to meet Solomon at 12.25pm at Bedok MRT. Slept at 3plus and didn't bother setting an alarm cuz usuallyno matter how late I turn in, I would never wake up past 10am. I was happily thinking I could have maggi mee for breakfast before getting ready to go out.
Anyway, I woke up the next morning being all happy and excited about eating some good ol' yummy maggi mee. That is until I looked at my clock. 12.06pm. :OOOOOOOO
Wthell! Rushed to go meet Solo. Went out to the main road to get a cab. But fufunehneh I waited for 20mins under the sweltering heat and NO CAB.
So I called the taxi company and it kept repeating 'Sorry, but all our whateverwhatever operators are busy at the moment, they will attend to you shortly. *Funny tinkly ANNOYING music starts playing..*' When this woman finally picked up, I told her I was at the main road outside Changi prison and opposite the E* side gate. Then she told me...'Okay, so you're at the gate outside the prison complex?' !!! Irritant. I'm like 'No, I'm in between. In between the condo side gate and the prison.'. And she tells me ' So you are in front of the main entrance of the condo lah.'. Thank God an empty cab came past and I told her to forget it. I think she has an annoying hearing problem. I would have died if I have had continued to try and explain where I was to her.
Annoying thing No.2-
$8.60 to get to Taonan.
AT No.3-
Taonan School is so effing big and rich damnit.
AT No.4-
(This is the ultimate) Walked to the Lecture theatre, stuck my head in and saw...nobody. -.- Then this woman came up to us and said you guys might like to hang around a bit first because it starts at 1.30pm.
JAREN SOO!!!!! Ok lah I'm not angry with you lah. But only if you reimburse me my cab fare. Kidddinngggggggggggggggggg...
AT No.4.1-
How can anyone wake up at 12plus? Today's my first time and I felt like I've wasted half a day! Oh the guilt.
So much to do, so little time already still waste so much time sleeping. Madness. I usually wake up at 8am, I could have done so much in that 4 hours (like eat my maggi mee boohoo.).
AT No.5-
People kept talking during the briefing. Hello, I'm tryin' to listen here.
AT No.6-
Paid up library fine. 9-effing-buckeroos. Goodbye money I'll miss you.
AT No.7-
Irritating sushi store woman wasted my time. Shall not elaborate. Her existence is not worth mentioning much about cuz she can't count what's $1.20 + $1.50. -Rolls eyes.
AT No.8-
My big toenail hurts from excess ballet.
AT No.9-
Yes, I forgot to cut it.
AT No.10-
Absurdly crowded Century Square cuz of Metro sale and last-day-before-GST-hike. Kiasu bongheads. Another reason to add to my existing list of a billion and one reasons why I hate SG.
AT No.11-
Stupid kids running around me while queuing for my dinner. Not just running. Screaming, whacking me, trying to be funny, one kid was LEANING on my leg oh so comfortably. Oi like my bag's not heavy enough.
I'm usually fine with kids and I like them. But being in such a bad mood and them screaming. I wanted to scream at them. Mean, but whatever. They don't know how to behave themselves in public.
AT No.12-
Typical Kiasu Singaporean woman standing behind me was 'tailgating' me. Stand so close for what. As if you stand 1cm further from me someone will cut in. Her boobs were literally against my back lah. Pffts.
AT No.13-
Kaizhi dearest just came tell me happily 'Eh, there is only four leh!'. Oh my goodygoodness. I really don't think he's my brother. My grammar ain't THAT bad.
AT No.14-
This happened yesterday. Was waiting for the shuttle bus to come when three china women came and stood behind me (waiting for the bus too) and started to bitch openly about me. 'So tall.....leg long...make body look short....' in mandarin. As if I don't understand. Dumbasses. On the way down the bus, one of them bonged her head. I couldn't help but laugh out loud. And said 'Wah, not tall also can hit head ah..'.
AT No.15-
I saw Celery at Shop N' Save. That's not the annoying part. The annoying part is that I called her more than 20 times but she didn't respond. -.-
AT No.16-
Dad was paying for his wine. There was this woman in front of him. She had this stamp thing that she had to make up a certain amount to get some discount or something but she was short of $6 plus. So she told the cashier that she'll go grab something to make up the amount. And she disappeared for almost TEN MINUTES. Wtfffffffuuufu. Till the cashier had to go look for her. They finally came back with the cashier holding two bottles of dishwashing liquid with the woman strolling behind her. Then as the cashier cashed in the item, the woman stood there and waited. Then the cashier told her 'That was $4.25 cents.'. The woman stoned until the cashier said 'Not enough.' before she STROLLED AGAIN to get something that's worth about $2.
*&^%$%^&amp;*&^%)(!!!@
She was told that she was short of $6+ and she took two bottles of dishwashing liquid that cost $4.25 and can still stroll back, stand there and stare and stone. Are you dumb or are you dumb? The queue was bluddy long already can. Urghh. 15 minutes of my youth wasted on such ridiculous things.
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Nice stuff happened too though.
Had three hours of ballet. :D Crashed inter class with Chichimon. Yay so fun. Was on for pirouettes. -Beams! Four petits soutenus into three pose pirouettes, the third one double. :D Did the two crazy adages. Turns in attitude are getting better. Funnnnn!
And omg jete ah-lon-says(sp?) are so so fun! Wheeeeee! But I think the inertia causes me to be unable to do a proper double finish. D: Lousy. Towards the end of AF class I swear my toenail was falling off. Courus to the left almost killed me. Oww. I'm gonna cut my nails after this. Sheesh, the excruciating pain.
Got three novels today. Gonna have a little Me-time before I sleep. Just me and a good book. What better way to spend my last hour of June 'o7.
Gon' meet my sexyloves tomorrow. :)
And yes Wilson,
'u are missed by my eyes nose tummy and fingers!'.
Come back soon bro! Lotsa luck for your exams yes? *Spirit fingers!*
It just occurred to me last night while I was falling asleep that for the first time in 6 months, I am sleeping in the center of my queen-sized bed ( can stretch out arms and legs somemore!). Because for 6 months, half/threequarters of it was covered in clothes/papers/CDs/creams/bags/combs/calculators/towels/nailclippers, hence banishing myself to the far-other-corners of the bed. ):
And why am I able to sleep right smack in the center now? Cuz I pushed everything onto the floor
I'm freezing now because I'm lying on my comforter and I'm too lazy to get off it and use it to cover myself. :/
Burries head in pillow and screams with all my might.
Beach fit @10:20 PM
Friday, June 29, 2007
Poetry In Motion
Had dinner at Pariss with the Grandparents last night to celebrate Dad's birthday. Made me have th runs damnit. Pranced around like mad idiots while we sang the birthday song. At home of course. (: Talked about the past with Gramps and Granny. Was utterly butterly cool. Volunteered to wash Dad's car as his birthday present. :/
He's currently sprawled on my room floor trying to irritate me by talking rubbish as I type.
Oh and I bought a new bedsheet set and a prettypretty journal. And, some masks from Coenzyme Q10. The one Hyun Bin endorses! :D:D:D -Swoons..
Was dying at Orchard this afternoon. Kept whining to come home. Yes you heard right, I didn't want to shop. Funny how the thought of someone giving me a thousand bucks to shop doesn't make me wanna go shopping still. I just want to lie in bed with a good book. I want me-time. Plus, I can't stand the crowd. Singaporeans are so, so ungracious. -Rolls eyes.
So anyway, since I was so lethargic and dead, I thought I would die in ballet. Surprisingly, I got all high and happy. Today's allegro was good allegro. Advanced 2 work. Who needs Brises and grand jetes? :O Damn fun though I couldn't do it like perfectly. -.- The last exercise was the best! Oh oh, and pirouettes on pointe today! I think the left turns are sucky on pointe cuz I have an overly high left arch that makes it so scary. What if I sprain my left foot too. D: OMG touchwood. YEEEEARRRGHHHHH!! Can't say the same for the A2 adage work we did. The control needed was !! dang. Pose pirouettes en pointe on left. Chichimon and I were like looking at each other and taking deep breaths and ANYHOW WHACK! Not bad leh. :D Y'know my toenails are chipping off one by one cuz of excess pointe work. I'm gonna cut them later. Pffts. Did stretching again after class. Ouch but satisfying.
I need to bring Elysebeth's and Joy's mag and chocs tmr before they accuse me of kidnapping their stuff again. L:OL.
My right arch aches and cramps up everytime I go on demi pointe or when I point too hard. Frustrating. It's not going away.
Was on the phone with my sexyloves just now. Then I was yakking on and on about my new
Huiling (in her croaky, no, I meant sexy voice.): Oh no, not again.
Yeebie: No reception again, ahhhh!
bzzzzt...
Hahahaha sorry th reception in my room sucks.
XOXOXO
Beach fit @11:15 PM
Snorts.
You know something's really wrong in your life if when you press the 1 button on your phone twice, the predicted text shows ): all the time.
Had a good stretch yesterday. About 2half hours of ballet with chichimon, estella and lucy! Rocked. (: Working on flexibility together is so much more fun and encouraging. Brises are horrible though. Allegro, is horrible. Pirouettes and adage are the love! So are my ballet mates. :D
I'm going shopping. Be back later. Ta.
P.S.Congrats for surviving the JCTs yo!
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Was so tired that I kept asking to come home. Bought a couple o' stuff from Bobbi Brown and that's about it. Yawn.
Ballet later. Aching muscles nghhh.
Beach fit @9:44 AM
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Happy Birthday Ho Huiling!
Super Seventeen girl!
All ready to conquer the world and... the Great Singapore Sales.
Last paper tomorrow. I'm with you!
You already know how much I wuv you so, yeah! :D
♥♥♥
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Happy Cow Day Daddy I loooove jahh! :D
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Nightmare.
I had the most horrible dream last night. :O
I dreamt that my grandma used my Footnote and Anita posters as tablemats.
Horror of horrors.
Y'know. everyday I reach home around 6pm...and I use the computer, laze around a bit...
Then, start studying at 9plus and end up whining that I can't finish my revision/go into the exam hall w/o finishing my revision.
Clever girl Yumei.
Gives the L-O-L face.
L :o L
Beach fit @6:27 PM
Monday, June 25, 2007
coldhardbitch.
Let's just say I finished the chem paper quite quickly. Won't go into 'how so?'. Hahaha. It's a-okay cuz I tried my best and it's just gonna get better from here.
And no one wished me luck I bet. My fringe is $%^&*&^! now.
D:D
(new smiley. that's me with a sad face wearing a showercap)
Anyway, funny thing happened this morning. Woke up late and had no time to gather my math notes for the planned mugging after the chem paper so asked Jaren if it was possible for us to study at my place. And he told me to ask Yingen. So imagine this, Yumei running late, un-bathed, bag unpacked, stationary unpacked. In my hurry, I hastily typed a 'tanyingen today study at my house instead can?' and started searching frantically in my phonebook for TanYingen. And I couldn't find it = more frantic. Ahh! In the end I calmed down and remembered her name was saved under Yingen.
While studying, we started digressing and talking about having a lot of people in our phonebooks with their names starting with the letter J. So we started counting. I keyed in a J to get to the Js faster and scrolled down as I counted. I counted till 64 till I realized I was going a second round ('huh? janrick again?').
Studying was pretty good. Lotsa food. I still think the meringue with yoghurt is yumm. Just that less meringue next time :/
Jeryl and Jaren were playing some bongbong handphone game. Overall pretty productive. Thank you TanYingen and Mr Soo ;D
I'm gonna find Maclaurin and pull out his intestines. Asswipe.
Jy HL! (It took me a while to figure out what jy was btw, woman.) You'd better jyjy okok? :D Love ya to itsy bitsy pieces. And Yeebie! Stop fainting in trains ok cuz I'm too caught up studying now to go catch you before you fall unglamly. Much love!
Oh and I miss the NZ'o7 girls loaaads. I miss the late night heart-to-heart talks and stuffing our faces with yumyum scoopalicious :( We go book chalet okokok? Ms Pang said go New York for Shopping Tour. Sounds good no? Haha too bad it sounds far fetched too. -.-
<3
Beach fit @9:57 PM
Sunday, June 24, 2007
I'm gonna get a haircut later.
Wish me luck.
Happy Birthday Joy Foo, my dear duanehbu. :D
She said she can,
she said she can,
and then she could.
shrugs.
Beach fit @2:05 PM
Saturday, June 23, 2007
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me, in the end.
Have been mugging. I don't think I've ever mugged this hard before. Nope, not even for the O's. The pile seems never ending. It's like tryin' to shovel snow from the sidewalks. You keep going at it but somehow the snow still looks 2ft tall. Okay, bad example. But you get the gist.
It has been Starbucks, Ballet, Starbucks, Home for 4 consecutive days.
Met HHL at airport Starbucks yesterday morning. Mugged till 2pm before MRTing to ballet. MRTied back to the airport and did some mugging alone for about 5 hours till 10 plus when HHL and KP came. (:
Yumei seems to be productive only at Starbucks. That has resulted in a ginormous hole in her pocket. D:
Estimated Damage: I drink mainly a venti skinny iced vanilla latte so for 4 days, I have been going to Starbucks twice/day. That's equivalent to 8 cuppa drinks. One drink costs $6.45.
$6.45 x 8=I don't wanna know how much. Sheesh.
Ballet today without dear ChiChiMon as a smokescreen. My innerthighs got a gooooood workout today yo. Didn't feel as tired as from yesterday's class. Yay, it will get better and better. Did some horrendously long new centre exercise Ms Pang concocted. Consisted of fondu devant facing en croise, fondu to second facing en face, bringing working leg to retire position, extend leg into one single rond de jambe en l'air en de hor, and one double, close in fifth, do the same to other leg but en dedan, then I forgot what, then pirouette in attitude, extend leg and arm in open fifth, pas de bourrees i forgot over/under then close then repeat to other side. Almost died. Stretching too! OMG. Side split at barre, Ms Pang was like ' can I push you down a little bit more?' I'm like 'Do I have a choic.....OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!'. Did the penchee and attitude against the wall thing. I'm gonna practice at home cuz it's gonna help my en tournant back leg and sissonnes ouvertes to arabesque. Front splits at barre are always really funny. Cannot get up LOL. Flopflop. I love pirouettes but I must remember to turn on count 7, not on 6&. Gambatteeeeeeeeee!
Airporting at 7am tomorrow! Can die. Another ventiskinnyicedvanillalatte. Was talking to XJ about the criteria to meet the P or VP. I hope I don't meet it. :O
Around the World in Wellington.
!!
:D
Mommo won't let me go for ballet tmr cuz I haven't finished studying for JCTs. D: Boo. Shall just hand in exam fees then go mug again tmr.
I HATE SINGAPORE.
Beach fit @12:09 AM
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
lovelight.
Wore the TJ uni just for 10 minutes inside the school. Went to return my library books. Way overdue. I borrowed 3 but could only find 2 so yea whatever return first so my fine won't be as heavy. Pffts.
MRTied to Tampines cuz was supposed to meet Hannah to study. Was running half an hour late. Turns out she was on the same train hahaha. Starbucks yay. Vanilla latte was good today. Crazy woman finished her caramelfrap so quickly and kept needing to pee. Finished studying carbohydrates plus memorising wooohoo! I should get a certificate and a trophy for that yo! Did enzymes and had to go for ballet.
Managed to figure out Advancedfound work till Grand Battements (A) before I got distracted and started doing Intermediate work cuz Melissa was playing for them. TempsLie omg my right leg is degenerating. Effing sickening especially with the horrid ankle I have perpetually NO ankle arch on my right foot. Fuglaye! Pirouettes omgomg I have to blog this. I managed like 4 triples?! :OO 2 of which could have been quads but I was too shocked that I had gotten such a smooth triple so I put my working leg down. -.- Plus plus it wasn't the degage derriere place in fourth then turn kind, it was the releve fifth releve devant releve turn. Which is usually the ones we find difficulty in doing doubles in cuz very little strength generated.
My en dehor turns used to be a lot worse than my en dedans but it's the opposite now dang. I need to work on my petits soutenus en pointe. Messy closings, not tight enough.
Funny how Ms Pang is never around on my on days. D: Work harder Yumei don't die out at barre hahaha. And stop using the upperthigh at adage ahhhh turn out turn out.
Ok I'm talking to myself. I can go on for 4385047546 years. Flexibility Yumei gogogoooo!
Took bebeballet class. Almost died. The screaming, running around. Don't mess with little girls. They are damn, scary. One flower clap ;D
Decided to carry on mugging with Hannah. Went back to Starbucks and got meself a vanilla frap this time. The pure vanilla at coffee bean tastes a lot, better. Made a feeble attempt at doing math but gave up after getting stuck at question 2e. D: Continued enzymes and just completed it at home. :D
Oh fuggy fug I just remembered that I forgot to hand in my Giro form to the GO YET, again. Wlao!
Meeting dear HoHuiling at the airport to mug tomorrow early morning. :D Then AF class woohoo! Drained physically and mentally.
Gotta fly!
Bottom left. Damn cute lah hahaha.
I have this nagging feeling of having something to say but I just don't know what. Too much on my mind, perhaps. Have been feeling emotional and thinking of late. Sometimes I think I'm in fact tryin' to explain certain stuff to myself. Stuff I'll never fully comprehend.
I'm going bonkers.
Beach fit @11:37 PM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
weight of the world.
Y'know I don't know why but I always get that funny feeling where I know I have something to saw but I just can't recall what it was. -Cringes. Wthell. Stm. Ahhhh what was it....!!?
sajnvoianvimvmeflvr damnit.
Had lunch with Mom and had a long good talk. In one of the smses I sent her when I was in NZ, I mentioned casually that I wanted to migrate there. Weirdly enough, despite me being so sure she'd just call me crazy, she took me seriously. She discussed with Dad and they actually thought about it. *raises one eyebrow (i know i can't do that but whatever).
She used to mention that if the family were to migrate, it would be because of them wanting me and Kai to have a more meaningful and less stressful life. Then she told me if I really wanted it, I should go research or something after my JCTs and get back to her.
I've been thinking long and hard (still no conclusion btw.). Singapore's definitely not the place to pursue a career in dance. The support for our art is non existent, there is zilch zero nada future (or lack thereof) for people like us. I want to major in contemporary dance at NZSD but I don't know what the requirements are. Reminder to self: Go find out. The personal experiences we heard at Footnote made me think, a lot. They all made the decisions regarding their futures in dance when they were around my age. Do I want to keep going on, going nowhere, in SG? Or go further. I may not earn much being a dancer in the future, but even then, if I were to become a dance-related-injuries-doctor in SG, would I go far? I'm doing BioChem now and what would I actually like to do in the future that relates to that?
The days we spent lying in the hotel room, lamenting about how screwed the Singapore education system is, how we've had enough of it, how we wanna get away from it.
I look 5 years into my future in Singapore and not surprisingly, I see myself STILL studying. -Rolls eyes.
I've never been so serious about this issue and I really wanna live my life doing what I love most instead of slogging my youth away, memorizing the three mechanisms of the free radical substitution reaction of alkanes. It's about time I've done some serious thinking and planning for my future.
If my parents give me the go ahead, I'd go at once.
Then again, if I were to go, I'd miss a lot of people and volleyball and it won't be easy to adapt at all. If I were to make the decision, I'd be torn. Contradicting, I know.
But whatever it is, I'll have to get over the bleedin' June Common Tests.
Mugged at Starbucks today. Pretty productive minus the SMSes and couple o' phone calls. Bought some nice coloured pens to make mugging seem more interesting and then popped by Crestar and woohoo! My dear bimbos were having Intermediate class. :D Lucky. Attempted to read my econs case study model answers while waiting for their class to end. I didn't understand one bit. :0(
Class finally ended and the craziness resumed. Flora loves y'all! <3 And thanks for the lil' note Trish. Haha.
Mugging tomorrow then free class! Gonna bring my syllabus book and figure out the exercises. Chichimon and I vowed to work on our flexibility and strength for AF. I know we can! (:
I miss contemp and hiphop )':
Kaizhi's at CO camp now hahaha I feel like an only child.
Had a nice talk with Dad and Mom over dinner. Glad the cheese I got from Linsdale farm was good. Nice (limited vocab, sorry) to see Dad and Mom smile cuz the blue cheese was supposedly real good; despite how smelly it was. :/ Joked a bit and talked about our day. Good ol' family time. I've come to appreciate how much my parents are willing to do for my happiness. Even though they get annoyingly naggy and overprotective at times. I thank God for them.
Gonna find time after JCTs to see the doctor about my ankle. The swell's making my right foot look fugly en pointe. D:
Work it.
Been long since I've blogged a umm..substantial entry. I think I bored you people out haha.
G'day!
Beach fit @10:04 PM
Monday, June 18, 2007
If I could escape.
Back in SG. I can't exactly say that I'm happy to be back because I'm not. At all.
I miss chichimon, hanNEH, lucyliu, paddlepop, Joyfool, Teng, Liz, fer, estella, sam, cherylC, velaseca, gracey, QueenMargaret's, Juilet, Alana, Irene, KingsgatePortland, Marina, footnote, the weather, the latenight talks, the carefree days, dancing all day and of course, AnitaaaaHunziker!!! ha.
Sigh, like it or not, reality bites back. :/
I wanna migrate to NZ.
Footnote please employ me!
D:
On a muchmuchmuch happier note, ballet tomorrow! Gonna go for inter and advanceF class and see the BIMBOS. :D
Will blog about the trip soon.
Putting up my posters before I go sleep. Yay.
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But we are always confined to earth no matter how much we climb to the high places and flap our arms.
Because we cannot fly, we are condemned to do things that do not agree with us.
Because we have no wings, we are pushed into struggles and abominations that we did not seek, and then, after all that, the years go by, the mountains are levelled, the valleys rise and rivers are blocked by sand and the cliffs fall into the sea.
Louis de Berniere
Just back from ballet and I almost died. :O Work it Yumei!
Chihang gave me an idea and I think it'll be cool.
My head hurts. I keep thinking 'It should be 11.27pm in NZ now..if we were still there, we would be partyin' in room 404..'.
And the thought of us never seeing our buddies again.. D':
I'm NZ sick. I wanna dance at footnote and at Marina's everyday.
No mood to study. ):
I'm gonna get killed for this but whatever.
:DDDDDD
Beach fit @1:32 AM
Saturday, June 09, 2007
the root is bitter, but the fruits are sweet (exclude lemon).
There's a world where hopes and dreams can last for all timeA wonderous place to go...you'll know it when your heart findsHearing our song as old as rhymeHold my hand we're gonna flyWhat a magic rideAnd just a kiss awayIf you can dreamThe wish we're making on a starIs coming trueThe colours of the wind will leadMy heart right back to you'Cause if you can dreamReflections in a diamond skyCome shining on throughRomance will always be so newAnd love will save the dayIf you can dreamSomeday your prince will comeIt's certain as the sunriseOne day the slipper fits...then you see the love in his eyesIt is a tale as old as timeThere's no mountain we can't climbWhen you're finally mineIt's just a kiss awayIf you can dreamThe wish we're making on a starIs coming trueThe colours of the wind will leadMy heart right back to you'Cause if you can dreamReflections in a diamond skyCome shining on throughRomance will always be so newAnd love will save the dayIf you can dreamSo the story goesNever die the roseThere's a whole new world waiting there for usWaiting there for us..SoIf you can dreamThe wish we're making on a starIs coming trueThe colours of the wind will leadMy heart right back to you'Cause if you can dreamReflections in a diamond skyCome shining on throughRomance will wlways be so newAnd love will save the dayIf you can dreamIf you can dream...
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If flying off in approx. 5 hours time. On the flight it's mugging galore! Dang. Spoiler.
Take care all you people in this warm little red dot. I'll be off to NZ where the temperatures are definitely A LOT cooler than SG's.
:D
:/ I don't wanna go. Cuz then it'll mean that I'll have to come back. Uh don't make sense.
Beach fit @11:44 AM
Friday, June 08, 2007
Welcome to the real world she said to meCondescendinglyTake a seatTake your lifePlot it out in black and whiteWell I never lived the dream of the prom kingsAnd the drama queensI'd like to think the best of meIs still hiding up my sleeveThey love to tell youStay inside the linesBut something's betterOn the other sideI wanna rock through the halls of my high schoolI wanna scream at the top of my lungsI just found out there's no such thing as the real worldJust a lieYou've got to rise aboveSo the good boys and girls take the so-called right trackFaded white hatsGrab the credits andMade the transfersThey read all the books but they can't find the answersAnd all of our parentsThey're getting olderI wonder if they've wished for anything betterWhile in their memoriesTiny tragediesThey love to tell youStay inside the linesBut something's betterOn the other sideI wanna rock through the halls of my high schoolI wanna scream at the top of my lungsI just found out there's no such thing as the real worldJust a lieYou've got to rise aboveI am invincibleI am invincibleI am invincible as long as I'm aliveI wanna rock through the halls of my high schoolI wanna scream at the top of my lungsI just found out there's no such thing as the real worldJust a lieYou've got to rise aboveI just can't wait 'till my ten year reunionI'm gonna bust down the double doorsAnd as I stand on these tables before youYou will know what all this time was for
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Yumei is Little Miss Procrastination.
Here's a little poem for you, Little Miss Procrastination, it's called Mr Meant-To
Mr Meant-To has a comrade,
And his name is Didn't-Do.
Have you ever chanced to meet them?
Have they ever called on you?
These two fellows live together
In the house of Never Win,
And I'm told that it is haunted
By the ghost of Might-Have-Been.
- Anonymous
Pissed. D: I was supposed to wake up at 9am, finish packing my luggage by 11am, sort out my notes by 12pm, study Fats (the bio chapter, not mine) till 2pm then go out and buy my stuff.
IN THE END.
1. I woke up at 10am.
2. My luggage is still half packed.
3. I haven't sorted out my stuff.
4. Fats are untouched.
WLAO! Foong Yumei enough hoh I tell you.
Oh and,
5. Why am I still blogging.
D: D:
I swear I'll go finish packing after this.
HOWEVER, I bought nice flared dance pants which is the loooove! Had rehearsals and somehow I'm the one in the middle of the circle now. !!
Andandand I bought my Oilatum body wash and moisturiser yay! I'm all armed to combat dry skin. Oh and a headband yippee!
Uhh..at least I managed to complete one of my tasks today. Buy stuff. Then again, that's what I do best no? Dang.
Went up to the roof. So many stars. (:
See how they shine for you?
Beach fit @1:50 PM
Thursday, June 07, 2007
If you could dream.
Watching the Notebook with Yeebie on her laptop. Romantic. (:
We're snacking. :/
snoozed from 7am to 9am today. Yawn. :O
Waited 40mins for Bus 5. Like wthell right. Was late for dance because of that.
Dance was good today. We finished the NZ performance dance plus the partner work, blocking, lifting and finale yay! :D Gonna practise later. Played some dumb games before going off.
Met Yeebie and Jeremy for lunch at PizzaHut. Interesting stuff happened haha. J went off and we waited for HL to come before cabbing home.
Did the usual bestfriend stuff. Dumb hairstyles, photosharing and whoring.
I prepared the rice for dinner. Too much water = porridge. :/ Dang.
Randomphotos.
Mom made me water the plants. That gives you Grumpy Yumei. -frowns.
Messy rooftop cuz of the renovation. Yay jacuzzi!
Huiling :D
Old photos!
The 4E8 chalet.
Wilson's birthday.
Wilson flying to Sydney
Sisters.
Girls Day out at Vivo.
Jasmine! So cute. ;D
♥
Gotta go pack my luggage AND study later. D:
I hate JCTs okayokayokay.
BYE.
Beach fit @8:46 PM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Yoohoo.
You'll never guess where I am now.
Then again, you wouldn't wanna know.
Thank God for a laptop and wireless connection. ;D
I'm wearing Shrek's ears as I type cuz my fringe was getting in my way and I was hot and bothered on the phone with the Singtel technical helpdesk because I couldn't connect to the internet and our modem's new and I couldn't find my hairband. (ooh long sentence!)
Wasted like 2 hours. And here I am...wasting my life away on the computer once again. Oh Yumei..
Oh, oh,
Happy Birthday Goh Yee Boon.
Have a very very very Happy 17th Birthday aye?
We hope it was special for you. :D
Love you loads, woman! ♥♥♥
Had NZ performance rehearsal yesterday. Did blocking and umm created demilitarized zones haha. Was fun! Crazy laughing and singing. More than dancing. -.- I need to watch the video to get the steps ahhhh. :/ Yay so eggcited about the trip. Haven't done my enterprise class homework yet though. And yes OMG. My right ankle is so weak noowww. D: I have to re-train it sighh. It hurts when I go on pointe plus it's so stiff cuz the dumb swell seems to be getting in the way arghhhh D:D:D:D: Hurts real bad when I slide into a split. Now I need two hands to support. Wlao. D': I want my strong ankle and arch back. My foot will never be the same again D:D:D:D:D:D:D:
What's wrong with Singapore maaannsxzxzxz. -Frowns. Everything also got homework. Everday also must study. (Singlish, sorry) Why are the Australians so laidback and yet end up the same as us Singaporeans who study more than we sleep. Don't make sense rightrightright... Sigh If I were (was? omg) born in Russia or something I would be an acrobat. I wanna be an acrobat. :(
Went shopping yesterday! :D Got myself a white demin skirt for $?? from Topshop. Omg dirtcheap I get excited again as I type this. !! Summer collections now! The colours are so nice and cheery! I like I like I like! Zara changes its stock so often. Seems like every week I go there are new things. They have the Little Miss and Mr Men collection but it's not like those at NUM which are quite bleh. Very cute! I want Mr Tickles!
Eh I want to go Bugis Street and Costume shop I need new leotards and jazz pants yo!
Off to the Singapore Art Cafe for lunch and some serious mugging. I completed my Bio DNA tutorial at last! Yumm sticky bun. :D
Candy Empire-ed at Millenia Walk. Nothing nice. :/ Waited for Daddy to come get me. Yay I love Daddy, really. (:
Construction workers who are supposedly supposed (?) to be working on the roof terrace have vanished. If they keep disappearing like that God knows when they will complete the work. So rfoangortiabnatb.
Ok this is a rubbish post I'd better go study. :O
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Cabbed to Bedok to meet Xavier who was being an emo elmo, fiddling with his psp. Went to the library to study and read. Noisy kids. -cringes.
MRTied to TMall and met Desmond to get my birthday present. Thanks ah Simmy you elastic time late king. :)
HoHuiling finallywoke up thank God. Got the balloons filled with helium. Helium only 2protons2electrons2neutrons but bloody expensive okay. Walked to Ebi's looking absolutely ridiculous. But happy. :D Surprised the girl at her house and her mom was sooo excited. Lazed around and talked about random stuff. Had cake. Ebi are you sure your turtle doesn't want Aunty Pauline's number? Big hugs, and time to go off!
Yay jacuzzi time tomorrow. ;D
Operation Surprise EBI: Successful.
My teammies! I'm no.3. See what I meant about the bad lighting huh huh huh!
Still no eyes. D:
Sheesh, really.
You're damn annoying to talk to, so STOP talking. You act as if you're King-of-the-world-bloody-know-it-all. Go away. Pffts.
Beach fit @11:30 AM
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Me and my game.
The Under-19s are almost over. It's time I reflect on my performance.
More confident, more assured, more composed, more consistent. But it isn't enough.
Why are people able to do things that I can't? Why can't I receive that spike, why can't my spikes kill as effectively, why do I serve into the net at times.
Top 8. Not anywhere near my target but I'm closer than I have ever been. I believe with a little more determination and hardwork I will get there. Valuable experiences gained. I know I'm a better player now than before I played in this competition.
Last match tomorrow, we will win.
I love you teammies. :D
I'll be back, stronger, faster and better.
Ok, off to watch some Johnny Depp action.
Then, study.
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Yay i finally found out the name of the nice new song.
Most of the lyrics too explicit to be put up here though. Don't know what's wrong with the lyrics nowadays. Full of sexual innuendos. -Frowns.
Makes Me Wonder by Maroon 5.
Chorus!
Cause I don't believe in you
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try (yeah)
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry(Oh no)
So this is goodbye
Johnny Depp, forget about Elizabeth Swann. Marry ME. Hahahahaha zomg.
Beach fit @6:22 PM
Saturday, June 02, 2007
PMSing
I hate computers rahh. Annoying. So many stupid pop ups. Damn you I do NOT need free spyware or whatnot and I'm not tempted to click on the fart button whatever that is.
Everything's annoying because I'm sulking.
It's annoying when I take photos because my eyes are nonexistent.
It's annoying when I typed my name at the end of the message I sent to you and you reply me asking me 'Ok. Sorry but you are?'.
It's annoying when you keep cutting in when I talk.
It's annoying that I have yet to do much constructive studying.
It's annoying that I have two-toned (too toned, ha, I wish) arms.
It's annoying that I need a haircut but I don't want a haircut.
It's annoying that I can't think of what else annoys me at the moment but everything is annoying me.
It's annoying me that I keep having to backspace and retype cuz I keep typing annoygin instead of annoygin RAHHHHH kngwntrhubinrt.
ARGHHHH THE INTERNET CONNECTION IS SCREWING UP AGAINNNNNNNNNN.
ANNOYINGINGINGINNGINGIGNIGNNIGNGIGGGGGGGGGG.
Yesterday.
Met XavierBay in the morning at my new favourite place to mug-Starbucks Wheelock. It's almost as if that cushy seat is always reserved for me. :D Was constructive until some kiddies sitting outside found Xavier to be quite interesting to look at and started staring at us and doing silly stuff. :/
This is a bloody good photo, Xav.
Left for Vivo to do some shopping. Got myself a new top which is love! Got saved from an impulse buy. Picked a pair of Havaiinas and was about to pay for it but the NUM guy said they were checking the NETS machine and the nearest ATM isn't (wasn't?) exactly very near. So he suggested I come back later. Ok loh. Y'know what, the minute I stepped out the shop I was like !! What was I doing. Ok so I didn't go back for it hahaha.
Met Jiaying at Bishan, got changed and her Mommo gave us a lift to Presby.
Woke up eaaaaarly for breakfast today. Yawn. Yay so fun. Went for training. Only 7 people turned up. Disappointing. :/ Especially for those who didn't come without a reason.
Why is it that you don't seem like you wanna win as much as the rest of us do? Why do you seem like you don't think much of the competition? Selfish. You shouldn't have put your name down if you can't commit and prioritize. The rest of the team deserves better than you for all their hardwork.
The juniors' performance were nowhere near standard. You girls have to work so so much harder and for some, stop being so lazy. I'm gonna go back to help train you girls and I hope it works. Y'need a wake up call. Don't let that wake up call be the EastZones 2008. It'll be too late.
Melvin taught me a new spiking method. Very tiring but it'll make my spikes more varied so yay.
I need to see a doctor badly cuz of my on-off fevers, stupid ankle and funny blister but I don't have time. :( Wtf.
Little something I wrote on the OCIP Cambodia beach ball. I hope you guys have a fun and meaningful time over there yes?
Grandparents+Me+Shrek's Ears. And yea that's cream from my cake on my face. Ha.
Grandma brought home a couple o' old photos. There's my mom at 8 years of age, second from left. Splitting image of me when I was little. :D
Grandma has nice legs and Grandpa's really suave! Told him that if I met his younger self on the streets I would be like 'OMG hot guy alert!' And he laughed. (: I love seeing my Grandparents smile.
Soulmates. I need to see my girlfriends soon. Cuz I know when I do, I'll feel so much happier. :/
Jaren my birthday photos are all in your camera *ahem. Haha no lah exchange memorystick for me to upload ok I got new one, 4GB aiseh! Cool or not? Cool.
New Zealand trip coming up. Very, very excited. :D
Double dance on Monday :DD
Its early in the morning
And my heart is really lonely
Just thinkin bout you baby
Got me twisted in the head
And I dont know how to take it
But its driving me so crazy
I dont know if its right
I'm tossin turning in my bed
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And I still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Weak...
I'm feeling hopeless in my home
I dont know what to do but I think I'm in love
Baby...
[Chorus]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?
Old song which I heard on the radio on the car ride home. Has been stuck in my head ever since
Funny how there are still people wishing me Happy Birthday now that it's already 2nd June.
FYI this is the second time I'm typing this post because of the nwunvifmvecrgm internet connection so add that to my I'm-annoyed-because... list.
Beach fit @9:00 PM
Friday, June 01, 2007
Thanks ah, you're damn supportive.
Fuck you.
Why do y'all always think that I will lose. 'Aiyah sure lose one lah.', 'Train what train, train so hard still always lose.'. Lose lose lose lose lose. Yea like I don't already know that I'm such a huge loser that you have to keep reminding me.
You don't know what passion is. You don't know how much I feel for my game. You don't know how much it means to me for you to say a simple Good luck for your match later. Does it make you happier to see me miserable? You think you're being funny? You're not. Because none of the bullshit you say is in the least bit funny.
I will keep losing but I will keep playing. I will play until I win. Up yours.
Fuck I'm finally crying but I'm not even crying properly.
I wish I could cry my heart out. Everything is trapped inside. I feel horrible. I think I lost my ability to emote.
Yumei you lost to yourself today, LOSER.
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Beach fit @11:14 PM
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Way back into love.
BBQ yesterday was love. I SET THE FIRE OMG.
Only one person got lost finding his way to my humble abode. :D Thanks to the people who got the elmo bolster, tigger cushion seat and new blue nike bottle for me! (By the way I lost my black and orange bottle D: Where d'you goooo I miss you so...) Oh and the card. Touched. (': And Xav for the earrings lol, Yuling for the Clinique bodybutter, Kenneth for the shrek ears haha.
Food was good, thank God.
Cheerleading stunts, taichi and pool. (:
Had fun playing mahjong and uno attack yo. And poor Diantha scared us. Funny ringtone. :/
Got all excited over passwords, sugar and bear. ;D
Everyone went back around 1.30am. Danggg...
Thank you Joanne, Jaren, Jeryl, Kari, Cadence, Diantha, Kenneth, Sek, Steph, Xavier. I love you people!!
And Russell Peters is so NOT funny. Ha.
Shopping with Grandma! She's so cute! :D
Lunched at the Carnivore. Nice Brazillian churrascaria. Meaty. Rahh.
Bought the Turkish Delight bits. Yuck. Not nice. Meiji milk is yummmm. Straight-cut jeans and black cardigan from Pull&Bear yay! I need to shop more. It's therapeutic.
Ichiban Boshi-ed! I lovelovelove the Esplanade Ebi wanna go mug.
Match tomorrow but I still don't know what time it is. I need to plan my shopping and studies helloooo.
I pray mom lets me ton at the airport with Ling and Kping tomorrow. I think they give me motivation. -.- All Cs Yumei gogogogooo!
Gonna cut my hair soon should I get bangs since my fringe is nice and thick now.
I realise I've typed many smileys in this post. :O
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If I could escape
I would, but first of all let me say
I must apologize for acting,
stinking, treating you this way
Cause I've been acting like sour milk
fell on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut
the refridgerator
Maybe that's the reason
I've been acting so cold
If I could escape
And re-create a place as my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
If I could be sweet
I know I've been a real bad girl
I didn't mean for you to get hurt
Forever, we can make it better
Tell me boy, Now wouldn't that be sweet?
Sweet escape
(I wanna get away, to our sweet escape)
You let me down
I'm at my lowest boiling point
Come help me out
I need to get me out of this joint
Come on, let's bounce
Counting on you to turn me around
Instead of clowning around for some common ground
So baby, times getting a little crazy
I've been getting a little lazy
Waiting for you to come save me
I can see that you're angry
By the way the you treat me
Hopefully you don't leave me
Want to take you with me
If I could escape
And re-create a place as my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
Ttell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
If I could be sweet
I know I've been a real bad girl
I didn't mean for you to get hurt
Forever, we can make it better
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
Sweet escape
(Woo-who, yee-who)
If I could escape
Cause I've been acting like sour milk
fell on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut
the refridgerator
Maybe that's the reason
I've been acting so cold
If I could escape
And re-create a place in my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
If I could be sweet
I know I've been a real bad girl
I didn't mean for you to get hurt
Forever, we can make it better
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
Sweet escape
(Woo-who, yee-who)
(I wanna get away, to our sweet escape)
doopdoop.
Beach fit @7:32 PM
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Screwball.
Woke up, looked at phone, 8am, panics. A level Bio SPA skill A at 8.30am. Grabs everything. Decides to wear socks, tie hair, wear earstuds on the cabride to school. Runs up the slope, calls Jaren to whine.
Yumei: JAREN! Guess where I am now!!
Jaren: Huh?
Yumei: HOMEHOME I'M AT HOME!
Jaren: OMG what are you still doing at home?
Yumei: Diedie bio spa at 8.30!!!!!!
Jaren: Eh 9am lah.
Yumei: *Stops running and stones.
-.- Eh wlao. Why don't tell me earlier.
FYI I screwed up Bio SPA. :/
Sigh.
Fed everyone Raspberry Tarlets, a Subway cookie, Sour Gobstoppers and Reese's Peanut Butter pieces yay!
Yeah you guessed right, I made a trip to Candy Empire :D
Lunched at Pizza Hut and talked a lot and laughed a lot and the waitress laughed so hard at me that she was banging the countertop. ?
Yay Sek Miss Tay's damn cute lah huh. ;D
Poor us, we can't find a place to train. I want to train I want to get into Top 4 damnit.
Btw, POTC was okay. But Johnny Depp is reason enough to watch it already. He is the love yo!
I bought a new top.
My room's a mess.
I'm supposed to help mom with the BBQ stuff now. She's gonna kill me.
I need sleep.
I need to study.
Happy I-don't-know-how-many-years Anniversary Mom and Dad.
And..Happy Birthday Vanessa Leong. :D
Stuff.
Mengting.
Cheemeng your head is tiny.
Where are my eyes? -.-
Much love. (:
How many miles to Babylon?
Three score and ten
Can i get there by candlelight
Yes, and back again.
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Got woken up from my nap by Xavier Bay.
Y'know I don't mind if I get woken up by an important phone call, but when the call is as ridiculous as the one I received, I just feel like strangling Xavier Bay.
Me: Hello? You called?
Xavier: Yah.
Me: Why.
Xavier: Eh tomorrow your birthday uh?
Me: What?!!
Xavier: No meh?
Me: It was yesterday lah wlao.
Xavier: *giggles. Really?
Me: No lah bluff you one. -.-
Xavier: Okay. Haha Happy Birthday!
Me: Okay..
Xavier: Byebye!
You be careful tomorrow I tell you.
Beach fit @4:03 PM
Monday, May 28, 2007
Happy Birthday?
To the one who reads between the lines:
Thanks all you people out there who cared and who remembered my birthday.
I don't know how you knew that the words were there but
Thank you Ebi and HL for putting up with all my nonsense. I love you girls, a lot. Don't know what I'd do without the two of you. Although I know there are times you guys just want to strangle and smack me real hard.
whatever it is.
Sometimes I feel that I'm taking a lot from the people around me. They keep giving and I keep taking. It has dawned on me that I haven't exactly been reciprocating all the love I have received. My friends and family have been there for me all the time and yet... Sorry I have been so selfish. Everyone's been so nice to me but nowadays I can't seem to bring myself to be nice back. I don't deserve all these.
you're right for ignoring me.
I'm not good at expressing myself so, yeah.
There are times when you are feeling down and come to me for a hug. I want to make you feel better so badly, I want to say the right things that will make you cheer up all at once, I want to see a smile on your face. I may not be able to succeed all the time but I try. (Jas, sorry I couldn't make you feel better about your chinese paper. Umm cheer up okay?)
There are times when I want to tell you guys how I feel about certain things but I can never find the right words to say and it comes across as something else. I don't mean some stuff I say yes?
you've been tryin' to be nice to me and here I am being such an idiot.
I just received an sms from Aunt Jean, Uncle Choo and Matthew in Melbourne. :')
Yumei you're the luckiest girl in the world so just quit whining start living.
i don't think saying sorry again will help. but anyhow, sorry.
Thank you Dad Mom Kai Cadence Jaren Clara Jeremy YingEn Simmy Kaiping Jo Jieting Jobel Mengting Lucas Jas Prasanthi James Cewanne Winnie Lionel Min Kenneth Weiqing Sarah Sijie Huimian Nicole Seri Meiyan Kelun Diantha Jiahui Sek Sweeliang Eugene Vanessa you
sorry for being such a prat.
Let it out, you'll feel better.
Beach fit @9:58 PM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
What kind of a holiday is this.
I have lessons almost everyday next week.
I have to study for the effing JCT.
I want to drop everything I have at hand now.
We got into the second round for the Under-19s. But that's not all I want. I think I'm working so hard for nothing because I'm just not good enough.
I have a math lecture and PW tutorial on my birthday. Yay. Happy Birthday to me.
I have half a mind to give up and go to a private school. I think I'll be happier there.
I'm a slave to the fking screwed up education system.
Y'know how horrible it feels to be crying inside cuz the tears refuse to fall?
Crying things out usually make me feel so much better but now even my tears are defying me. Someone tell me what's going right in my life.
I wish I wouldn't wake up tomorrow. Die yumei, die
ha
Beach fit @8:40 PM
Saturday, May 26, 2007
GOOD HAIR DAY.
Yumei you're just tryna look okay.
Ebi came round to get th heels this morning. Ended up lazing around till 4 plus. Lying in bed amongst the clutter, singing, listening to music, comparing fats, laughing and talking about everything under the sun. I love bestfriend times, HAIK! (:
but you're not. you're feeling horrible.
Promised to go for dance practice for the performance. Still can't go on demi-pointe well. Can't even pointe my right foot. ): I want my arch back. Stretched a lot. Yay. Aiming for 63cm for sit and reach. :D
Did a lil' of th dance which was okay.
Felt a lot better after dancing and pain from all the stretching.
you feel like dying.
My ankle is still swollen. I wanna chop it off. Grahh.
I think Dad's on the verge of stopping me from training and dancing till it heals. Like I care.
you feel like screaming
I'm gonna get that cherry top at Mango it's damn cute.
And collecting my loafers after mugging with Jaren tomorrow. :D
I'm really hungry. Haven't eaten since 12.
you feel like crying.
Volleyball U-19 tournament tmr again! 2.15pm at Presbyterian High, come support. Heh.
I realized Melvin sent emails of the fixtures to Germaine as well. -.- Anyhow one. Luan luan click any volleyballer. -Laughs.
why no tears?
Mom has discount at GAP. :D
Booked tix for POTC on Monday at Vivo.
Gonna mug hard for Bio SPA tmr so that I can shop and watch POTC in peace.
Thanks ah, Eugene. Really. (:
Stop putting up a strong front yumei. you will break down.
I feel like puking. Effing hungry but no appetite.
Feel like dying.
I hate myself for being so weak. FUCK IT.
Stuff.
Lay in the sun same duration but colour anything but the same. :(
Stuff.
Lay in the sun same duration but colour anything but the same. :(
Sports Carnival 2007.
See, tornado. That's the National Stadium's light!
My bestfriend. (:
Ho we loveyouloveyou too haha.
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I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
It took me 3 hours to type this post cuz it was MSN peak period.
Beach fit @10:12 PM
You and Me
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
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I now know what it's like to have someone as the center of your universe.
There were so many people in the crowd but all I could see was you.
I can't stand you being so nice to me because it just makes it so much more difficult for me to hate you.
Feverish again. Not at training and I feel so horrible.
Dance practice for NewZealand later I'd better go get a good rest or I'll die like a worm.
Gonna eat maggi mee I haven't eaten it in ages.
Ling, Nini, Mei, Boon.
Much love! Funny how HL and Ni look like they're taking a formal school photo.
Of thunderthighs and barging into changing rooms. :)
Beach fit @8:42 AM
Friday, May 25, 2007
From good to worse to bad to worse to okay.
Had a great afternooon with Ibun. :D Shopping, camwhoring, poking fun at people (!!), chilling and having heart-to-heart talks at the Singapore Art Cafe. Felt good to spill my heart out to someone but it also opened up old wounds. :/
HHL got me pretty postcards. Loves. :D
MJC's choir concert at VCH after that. Interesting. Was nice to see Cheemeng, Bernice and Mengting again. (:
Suppered at Clarke Quay. Sang a lot and annoyed the shit out of HoHuiling hahaha. And Winnie omg she's so cute. :D
Sports Carnival day two today! Inter PDP games. Lay down in the sun near the giant speakers for max sound quality and suntanning and emo-ing.
My knuckles are bruised from punching pillars out of frustration. Got a tan!
Wanted to see a doctor cuz I was feeling horrible so I went to the GO to get the early release form. Then they insisted on my Civics tutor signing it. WTF. Its sports carn hello, where am I supposed to look for her. Plus our CT doesn't wanna give us her number. And I'm like sick yo, what's your problem I was gonna pass out.
So I went to the canteen with Praveen Jeryl Jaren Ronald to curl up on a bench to sleep. Got woken up cuz gates were finally open and they wanted to go out for lunch. Walked to interchange and walked back to school. And waited for the bus to come. Jaren taught me how to solve the Rubiks but I got real confused.
Dragonboating but I couldn't do it cuz I still felt like vomitting. -Grahh. I saw a tornado, I swear.
Match. Won!! :D
Spikes were good for everyone today. Receiving was better than last match's but still needs improvement. And yay rebounded/ drop balls were all received pretty well today, service too! We can do so much more girls. Communicate! :D
I'm damn tired. Rubbish post.
Beach fit @10:52 PM
Here, there and everywhere.
To lead a better life,
I need my love to be here.
Here, making each day of the year
Changing my life with a wave of her hand
Nobody can deny that there's something there.
There, running my hands through her hair
Both of us thinking how good it can be
Someone is speaking but she doesn't know he's there.
I want her everywhere
and if she's beside me I know I need never care.
But to love her is to need her
Everywhere, knowing that love is to share
each one believing that love never dies
watching her eyes and hoping I'm always there.
I want her everywhere
and if she's beside me I know I need never care.
But to love her is to need her.
Everywhere, knowing that love is to share
each one believing that love never dies
watching her eyes and hoping I'm always there.
I will be there, and everywhere.
Here, there and everywhere.
I don't know if I should have gone.
You make me sad and you don't even know. I am sad and you ask me why but I can't tell you that the reason is you.
I don't know if you're reading this but if you are, I think you know who you are. And if you're thinking something, the answer is yes. And if you decide never to talk to me again, I'm cool.
Sorry.
Screams.
Beach fit @12:51 AM
Thursday, May 24, 2007
I ♥ FOOSBALL!
Just back from Sports Carnival. Got a silver for Dodgeball which was seriously lame. Foosball was soooo fun! I wanna set up a Foosball SIG! But we were up against Soccer. Lost, duhh. :/ But that's not the point. The point is Foosball is damndamndamn fun hahahha.
And I wanted to play tug-of-war, it looks so fun. Haha everything so fun lah huh. There wasn't volleyball. D: Or we'd OWN. Laughed at Wengseng and Xiujie playing the Gladiators thing till my cheeks ached. Sumo wrestling looked ridiculous. Dedicated a song and a nice note for Mr Fung but he was hiding in the PE office. Grahh!
I got an uneven tan now. -Frowns.
Inter-CG games tomorrow! People please don't pon TY.
Gonna go shopping yay but I'm still sweaty and lazy to get a bath.
Oh..Yumei last time very skinny one.
Wlao. D:
Eugene you must sing birthday song for me later hoh or else I call my jiemeixzxzxzxz smack you.
4 more days to Yumei's Super Seventeenth!
Beach fit @1:11 PM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Goodtime Girl
Mass PE was cancelled in the morning yesterday so since we had nice smellin', clean mass PE shirts, Seksy andI decided to do our make-up PE. Mr Fung made me skip 1000 times. D: Felt so dumb cuz there wasn't a uh..suitable place to skip. Did 10 x 100. Hooha!
Ms Ang made Sek shoot 100 balls in. Decided to be nice/lose some calories by helping her catch the rebounded and flyaway balls. Tiring manxzxzxzss. Took like 2 hours? Kenneth came to get the cable and we shot a few hoops (shot a gazillion, got like 5 in?) and went home. I swear my tummy became smaller.
Idk what's wrong with me I've been having on-off fevers and an ever runny nose since God knows when. :0( Force myself to school everyday just so I wouldn't miss lessons. -Sniffs.
Miss Tay just reminded me of something I didn't want to be reminded of 'Yumei you're under the SportsXcel scholarship right? Must study hard and get good results ok?' :O
Civics was fun today and thank you 04/07 for remembering to bring the money today. Made my job a whole lot easier. We're the reason there's global warming yo!
Did summary with the ohfourians cuz Miss Lee wanted to grade it. We took so long cuz we started digressing a lot. :D
Idk what's wrong with those garden contractors either. The first company was supposed to start work on the roof after all the plans were finalised but then they vanished! The second company now demands more money after everything was confirmed and the cheque banked in because they're using thicker beams or something. FKNN, whaddayathinkweare? Dumb?
Giving poor daddy so much trouble. ):
Asswipes.
I wanna go to Island Cremery and Fareast to collect my loafers (Eat, at Island Cremery, collect shoes at Fareast. -.-)Anyone?
Ok byebye I'm gonna watch the 9pm channel 8 show I think it's so cute.
-/edit.
I'm so tired but I the thought of sleeping doesn't appeal to me. :O
Yay shopping again tomorrow. Ebi I love youuuuu!
Oh and I get to see Winnie tmr too! Yay!:
Yea whatever my hair sucks.
Joanne Goh! 51 JUMPING JACKS!
5 Days to Yumei's Super Seventeen!
p.s. A lot of people are looking forward to my birthday you know you know you know? O'level MT ahahahahaha. Speaking of MT, I fell asleep during JCT Listening Compre today. :/
Beach fit @8:56 PM
Monday, May 21, 2007
Scent.
Just back from GPP-ing! (GeePeePeeing hahahaha) I feel accomplished. :D
Came up with some pretty dumb ideas with Joanne the Man. Made me walk so quickly my legs almost broke and we started spewing gibberish. :O
Had to run after the bus as usual. Like..REALLY run. Must have looked insane. Started smiling to myself cuz running for Bus 2 reminded me of how I ran for Bus 18 and fell. Oh Yumei why are you always so unglam.
Match yesterday was relatively good considering the fact that it was our first time playing together. Loads of room for improvement though. Like receiving blocked and drop balls, especially the net balls. Our net play was too rushed. The whole match was too rushed, too silent. We need to communicate yo!
My blocking and service were not strong enough. 2 loophole blocked balls and 3 balls into the net. D: Not to mention one free ball I sent too close to the net for Merrina to set. Didn't absorb enough. And and those high drop balls that became free balls for the opponent. Grahh screw up screw up. No more stupid mistakes I wanna get into Top 4 real bad. Did improve some other stuff I used to fail to do though. Like receiving a blocked-back ball immediately after I spike. :D
Had a fever halfway into the first match. -frowns. Of all times. Felt as if there wasn't enough oxygen. Never felt so breathless in a match. Ankle let me down damnit I'm gonna chop you off stupid ankle. Scrapped my fourth knuckle against the group while attempting to save a spike. Hurts like mad when I bathe. But it's a-okay! Cuz I have a nice pink Disney Princess plaster. It's Cinderella! Makes everything all better. :D
We are capable of so much more, teammies! I know my receiving sucks like nothing else in the world (haha sek.) but I'm tryin' my best okokok.
Moi lurbx euu all deeps deeps okiezx?
Got back our GP compre test. If I go on at this rate I will fail GP I tell you. 24.5/40 how pathetic is that? PLUS, the passage was easy. 3/8 for summary. Nice one Yumei!
Oh and Econs test was a let down. ): I don't even dare say my score. I'm sooo sooo determined to pass my JCT econs. If others can do it, why can't I. Pffts.
Gonna be one helluva week. Lessons till 12.30pm on Thursday, followed by Sports Carnival inter-pdp games, then home to change for the concert, concert, then home to change and rush back to school by 11.30pm when the gates would be open, stayover and movie screening, pdp run at 2am, inter-CG games in the morning, dragonboating for sports exposure in the afternoon and match at 7.45pm. :O
But no tests this week = YAY!
Training on Wednesday = Double yay!
I have decided to work on my chinese because it has just dawned on me that my chinese standard (or rather, lack thereof.) is going downhill omg! I can't converse in mandarin nor read simple passages anymore. D:
HoHuiling you don't hide hokay. Ebi and i are coming to raid your computer soon.
HoHuiling bikini day! Hahahahaha.
Some random old photos:
Gymming.
HoHuiling (don't worry no one knows my blog. xD )
Dishevelled whoo!
Sunnies are th love yo!
Look at Jasmine. Unglammer than me hahaha
8{o
Okay blogger refuses to let me upload anymore photos.
I have been wearing my contacts for 26 hours straight. I'm going blind. :/ Fell asleep while watching teevee again. Snorts.
7 days to Yumei's Super Seventeenth!
Beach fit @7:25 PM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Of bestfriends and shopping.
Wanted to blog last night but I kinda fell asleep while Dad was fixing up my laptop's wireless connnection. Slept like a log whoo!
Yesterday was the best day I had in ages.
Training in the morning wasn't too good. The usual stuff again. :/ I can't see everyone's desire to win. Maybe, hopefully, we're just not used to the new formation.
Training with this team made me realise how much I missed JiaXian's setting. Was so used to it. Dang. Jiaxiaaaannnnn. Saw AmyChan hahha crazy woman.
Met the lovelies. Ebi was jabbing my ribs the whole ride, to Huiling's embarrassment. Reached Vivocity and we were off for some serious retail therapy. :D Hit the old favourites! Pull and Bear, Forever 21, Topshop, and finally Zara. I wanted to go Zara real bad cuz I saw some really pretty babydoll dresses. Was disappointed in the end. Snorts. Agreed not to buy on impulse so we went walking around first. Settled down at Gloria Jean's Coffee for tea. The smell of coffee was ironically, sleep inducing for me. I curled up in a comfy couch and fell asleep! Was so, so tired.
Went to Ripcurl but they didn't have any new roomy totes. I give up on waiting. Imma buy like 3 from NZ this time I go. :DD
Went back to Forever 21 and finally got my dress and top. Happyhappy yay! Then to Topshop for spags. Ebi and i now always make sure we like what each other is buying so that we can -ahem, expand our wardrobes.
Had to rush rush to get a queue number for my family at CrystalJade so I left the girls. Was told that it would take between 20-30 mins for a free table so I went looking for them again. I was guessing that they'll be at Gap, so I walked there and gave Jas a call. And she said they were at Gap. OMG!
Later on, during dinner. For I don't know what reason, I took out my phone. It started ringing almost immediately. Ebi was calling. WE HAVE ESP I TELL YOU. Kickass cool huh?
Met the girls again after dinner. We lay on wet, prickly grass on the roof terrace. Camwhoring! (photos up soon i hope *hint, hohl) There was this couple near us. Think they were seriously weirded out HAHAHA. Ebi was playing music from her phone and then this familiar tune came on... Ebi goes, 'Oh no, that's a stupid song'.. Sure enough, Love love love love love..love love..makes the world go round~ Powerpuff girls. Effing funny. ;D
Then it started to rain. D: Candy Empire for some Turkish Delight yummylicious!
Bought Beard papa cream puffs for tomorrow's breakfast and met up with family. The 7 of us squeezed into the car and talked a lot of rubbish. :D Fetched the girls home before going home ourselves.
Good shopping day. Spent within budget. Applause please.
Okay Mommo's nagging. -frowns.
Not at me using the computer but about some other random stuff. >:( PMSing.
8 more days to Yumei's Super Seventeen!
Beach fit @10:41 AM
Friday, May 18, 2007
Let's make peace with beauty.
Interesting PW lecture today. I like.
Training for U-19 was my motivation to get through the day. Training was good, but I wasn't. Don't know what's wrong with me. Sigh. I wanna fly to receive th ball faster, jump higher, flick my wrist more quickly, play with my brains.
Go Team PRAG (Pasir Ris Alumni Girls lol).
Not going for College Day to receive my SportsXcel award cuz I wanna go for training! It's the only way.
I miss TJVB training. Boo.
Being back in PRSS was like going back home. Met almost all my teachers. Was talking to Mr Tan and Mr Teo Pat emerged from the toilet. He said 'So how's life? Good? I wish you all the best', and gave me a firm handshake. Cute huh? Anyway, was whining to Mr Tan about JC biology. Can die.
Had a little chat with dear Seri too! You look radiant, hon'. (:
Eh damn I really don't know where I placed my kneepads.
And I'm having rashes again. -Frowns.
Whoohoo, Jiaxian's gonna be in sanjiaoku. xD
100% concentrated power of will.
Beach fit @10:45 PM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
GREEN.
I'm jealous.
Umm okay, here are some photos of TJVB team 07.
Win together, lose together, talkcock together, play together, eat together, TEAM.
(btw, I wonder if I look different in the TJ uniform. Haha, not. Woohoo, 6 years in Shit-Green. I'm loving it.)
I've so much to do and I'm annoyed at myself for slacking.
Someone told me today that Miss Wong (that relief relief math tutor. i now know her name.) is gonna be our teacher for this term! Oh joy! :/
Miss Yee come back!!
Today's to-do list:
1. Chem Bonding Supplementary Ex.
2. Alkenes Tutorial.
3. GPP Final Draft (which Ronald has conveniently left me to complete.).
4. GP Reflections on news article on homosexuality.
5. Econs Case-Study (which was due on Monday).
6. Study for math class test. Four friggin' chapters.
Talk about dead. :O Sigh.
Was being very, very crazy today. Poor o4/o7 people. Esp. Prasanthi. Loool! Mrs Raj now knows my name and calls on me to answer questions during Econs lectures. Great.
I'm a bimbo...
I'm a bimbo...
I'm a B-I-M-B...
I'M a bimbo...
Another one of those cool 'Worms...I hate worms' thingy. Yay Ebi I teach you hahaha.
It's the only way.
You always want what you can't have.
Beach fit @7:59 PM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
The guys won yesterday! :D The TJ volleyballers had dinner at Carls Jr Marina Square. Ate till I almost puked. Had fun.
Took the train back with Mr Fung and we started asking him for advice on weightloss and possible muscle loss (it's not possible to lose muscle, fyi. ): ).
I'll miss the 2007 team. Can't wait to start training with the 2008 team. I'm gonna have to learn to be so much stronger mentally.
Nice rainy day today.
But the poor Drama Club people's Midsummer Night's Dream set was destroyed by the strong winds and the rain. :/ Was quite a scene!
Had weird mass PE in hall. But I kinda liked it. Beats running, ANYTIME.
Had chinese oral. D: I didn't know more words than I knew. Wlaoooooo.
Saw something really traumatizing in school. Was crossing the garden linking the area under the TRC to the Atrium when heeeuge crows started flying and sqwacking(sp? the more I stare at the word, the more weird looking it seems. ) around me. A couple o' poor mynahs who looked worse for wear were flying around too. I thought the crows were only bullying the mynahs and then I saw this raccoon-like animal (slightly bigger than a cat, with a bushy tail. Maybe it IS a raccoon.) running. And oh, my, gawd, it was bleeding. I could see so much raw flesh. D': The stupid crows were attacking it and it was running through the bushes for its dear life.
In the meantime, some stupid homosapiens were chasing after the raccoon with an effing camera. I'm like HELLO, the poor animal is so badly injured, the least you could do is help chase the crows away. [Insert 100 expletives of choice here]
Anyway, the raccoon ran into the drain right beside me. Thank God, at least those dumb crows wouldn't be able to reach it. SO evil right the crows. DD:
Why do such horrible things happen in life. Cold, hard, cruel reality bites back.
SIGH. Makes me damn sad.
Going shopping with my girls soon soon soon! :D
Nothing makes me happier. Ahaa. I want my dresses.
Ooh and my sheep loafers are ready for collection!
New Jodi Picoult book, Mercy. She's such an amazing writer. All of you should go read her books. They can evoke emotions in you, you never thought a book could. I swear.
I just found a strand of brown hair. Think it was on the verge of becoming white. OMG I'm really stressed wtfwtf. Thsi can't be happening ahhhhh!
One and a half weeks to the June holidays.
Then again, the June holidays would mean mugging for the JCTs. Boo.
SOME holiday.
My laughing buddy. Her laughter is infectious.
Heavy rains.
I love doodling!
Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
Well one of them is mine
Raising my glass I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why the stars don't seem to guide me
Beach fit @6:12 PM
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Happy Tingly Toes Day.
(oh, and Mother's Day too!)
I don't know why but I'm feeling exceptionally chirpy today!
Woke up at 10am hahaha omg.
Got a lift from Dad to Tanjong Pagar. The train station was scarily deserted. :S
Reached Starbucks Raffles City an hour early. Saw Claire from SC there. Read my book, had my vanilla latte and people-watched. I realise I like being alone. Not alone, alone. But alone with many people whom I do not know around me. Uh get it? (:
The people came at last and we did PeeDoub (and digressed A LOT along the way). Fun stuff WHOOOO (lol Ronald made us watch Hardgay). LOOOOL. Was whining about my stiff neck the whole time. :/
Bought Mommo's present and cake. Anyway, here's something to qualify how dumb Foong Kaizhi is. I called home to ask him something regarding Mother's Day.
Me: Kai, don't talk so loudly okay. Tell me if you want A, or B for Mummy.
Kai: *LOUDLY* HUH? WHY MUST CHOOSE A OR B?
Me: *Gives withering look.* SHHHHH!! Ok. A is cake, B is a nice pot of roses.
Kai: WHAT CAKE? Why must buy cake?!!!
Me: *Screams in frustration.
Why me. Sigh.
I bought an orange cake (the fruit, not the colour) and pretty earrings. :D
Had BBQ at home and made Mommo sit in front of the cake and 'smile as if you're the luckiest mom on earth!'. And this is what she did:
-.- Dang.
(oh, and Mother's Day too!)
I don't know why but I'm feeling exceptionally chirpy today!
Woke up at 10am hahaha omg.
Got a lift from Dad to Tanjong Pagar. The train station was scarily deserted. :S
Reached Starbucks Raffles City an hour early. Saw Claire from SC there. Read my book, had my vanilla latte and people-watched. I realise I like being alone. Not alone, alone. But alone with many people whom I do not know around me. Uh get it? (:
The people came at last and we did PeeDoub (and digressed A LOT along the way). Fun stuff WHOOOO (lol Ronald made us watch Hardgay). LOOOOL. Was whining about my stiff neck the whole time. :/
Bought Mommo's present and cake. Anyway, here's something to qualify how dumb Foong Kaizhi is. I called home to ask him something regarding Mother's Day.
Me: Kai, don't talk so loudly okay. Tell me if you want A, or B for Mummy.
Kai: *LOUDLY* HUH? WHY MUST CHOOSE A OR B?
Me: *Gives withering look.* SHHHHH!! Ok. A is cake, B is a nice pot of roses.
Kai: WHAT CAKE? Why must buy cake?!!!
Me: *Screams in frustration.
Why me. Sigh.
I bought an orange cake (the fruit, not the colour) and pretty earrings. :D
Had BBQ at home and made Mommo sit in front of the cake and 'smile as if you're the luckiest mom on earth!'. And this is what she did:
-.- Dang.
The cake.
I hid the other gift somewhere in her room and she just found it and she came into my room to gimme a kiss. :D -beams!!
Oh Mommy I love you although you can be annoyingly naggy
I love my Daddy too although he always baotoh me. He just came into the room to ask me 'So ahgirl, what you want for your birthday? 20cents? 30cents?'. Idiot.
I'm feeling so mad. Everyone on MSN with me now is suffering.
I'm teaching Thiam pickup lines to pick up some hot girls in TPJ. Hahahaaha. It's gonna be so effective whooo! (hardgay after effects. no wonder simmy said it was funny hahha).
Funny MSN convo with Jo:
Fortitude? I L-O-V-E 4C3!! <33> I feel like making a blogskin wth.
Fortitude? I L-O-V-E 4C3!! <33> I feel like making a blogskin wth.
desi(RED) says: then MAKE IT!
Fortitude? I L-O-V-E 4C3!! <33> But..I have no idea.
desi(RED) says: -.-
desi(RED) says: ROOBISH WOMAN
Fortitude? I L-O-V-E 4C3!! <33> Oh you break my heart.
desi(RED) says: THATS AN IDEA~!
Fortitude? I L-O-V-E 4C3!! <33> =\
desi(RED) says: haha sorry im being mad
Fortitude? I L-O-V-E 4C3!! <33> Indeed.
desi(RED) says: hahhahha
I don't even know what I'm saying lah. D:
Talking to my lovelies and Ebi is doing her business. HOOHA! PLOP!
Poor JarEN is so stressed. Poor cockroach. You'll pull through! You're a GENIUS! :D
It's gonna be a ball of a week. No kidding. I have volleyball on Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday and maybe Sunday. :O I'm not complaining though!
Now where did I leave my kneepads...
Now where did I leave my kneepads...
Photohs.
Ebi&HL toldja it curled.
My ankle is so UNIQUE! Still swollen, by the way.
My teambag with the ginormous elmo Xavier koped from his friend.
Good hair day = excuse to camwhore.
Damn messy and long post lah. Whatever.
K* (just in case it gets you into trouble) just sent me the new college anthem. IM LMAO-ING! *smacks head repeatedly damn funnnnnnny! Sek you should be so excited. hahahahhahahahhahhaha. Jo too!
And I think Jo's asleep already hahaha sooorry!
It just dawned on me how fat and flabby my arms have become. PUSH UPS, here I come!
Beach fit @10:03 PM
Saturday, May 12, 2007
I got meself a tattoo!
Look.
Just kidding. It's airbrush. Looks mighty cool no? :D The tattoo parlor was scary though. :/
Spent the money on impulse. The little stupid things I do to make myself happy.
Relatively good day today. Trained after what seems like a million years. I played like (^&%@#^ though. D: Our Under-19 team still lacks chemistry. -Frowns. We'll pull through. (:
Was feverish when I went for training. But somehow once I touched the ball, the fever and flu vanished. The power of volleyball! But it has come back with a vengeance now. Worse than ever, sadly. Sigh.
Made our jerseys. Everybody say YAY!
The four of us slept on the train to Redhill. Must've been a funny sight. :D Some fcktard came onto the train and was blasting music from his phone. Woke us all up. Waking up four very, Very Tired volleyballers would make them very, Very Annoyed volleyballers. Let's just say we were not too happy about it. Eh.
Had an early Mother's day dinner at the good ol' Korean restaurant at Tanjong Pagar. Food was good as usual but not as good (??). Couldn't taste very well cuz of my flu.
No one would do last minute flower delivering. D: I guess I'll just have to deliver the bouquet to Mommo tomorrow. The awkwardness of it. :/
AH. My head is throbbing. I swear I'll wake up early to complete my math tutorials and complete a couple o' Get Well Soon cards before going for PeeDoub meeting. The stand-in teacher for Miss Yee is...well, not as good as Miss Yee. I realise I don't know her name hahaha. She doesn't motivate me to complete my tutorials like Miss Yee did. Boo. Ahwell I have to do it for myself.
I think I've blogged a lot today.
BYE.
P.S. In case you haven't noticed, I have added new baby pink scroll arrows to my layout. Pretty huh?
Beach fit @10:36 PM
Friday, May 11, 2007
I'm feelin' kinda funny
Mixture of emotions. Churning and churning in my tummy.
To TJVB:
Cheer up all you people. I'm mighty sad too. It'll take a while to get over it but we'll do fine I'm sure. We'll keep training and believin'. I had and will always have faith in all of you. And I'll always be cheering and screaming for y'all at the sidelines no matter what.
I don't know if any of you will read this but anyhow, zhi yao xiao yi xiao, mei she me shi qing guo bu liao.
Smile and at once, the world looks so much brighter.
Win together, lose together, TEAM.
Imma sick now. Down with a dumb whatchamacallits.
I think my nose got smaller. Wear and tear from too much contact with tissue. Ouch.
And I have U19 training tomorrow. I can't afford to be sick and injured. I need to train. )':
Why am I always being PS-ed.
Ten Ten Eight.
Beach fit @9:49 PM
Notes:
1.Joanne says hi.
2.The little things in life that makes you smile.
Fantab friends, and some funny people learnin' to play softball.
Had me in stitches. Right Sek?
3.Do you ever find that whenever you stare at a word for too long or look at the same word too many times, you start to think that the word looks funny?
4.Mr Kenneth Stephen Wilson. Rest assured. Mahjong is well on its way. (:
You'll be missed around TeeJay. Thank goodness you'll be studying in S'pore though. Coolest teacher I've ever had. (:
5.Nasal infection. Ouch.
6.People from Pae 06/07, JAE 04/07 and O1 OG06 make yourselves free on the 30th May. (:
7.TJVBguys semi-finals today. I'm praying for you guys. Have faith and keep your spirits up. Finals?
Where did I go wrong
I lost a friend.
Beach fit @9:07 AM
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Just my luck.
Saying that today's the unluckiest day of my life would be an understatement. I'm gonna start ranting so read on at your own risk.
The day started out fine. Twas pretty good in fact. The school song was -ahem- interesting, I learnt new things, I got an early morning sugar rush, I did a calculus question impromptu on the board and the teacher said -Correct, very good! and I found a new Jodi Picoult novel at the library, I was even having a good hair day!
Then it began. A series of unfortunate events.
Was waiting for my bus. Just as Ron's bus came and he went, guess who came along? A certain HC member who looks oh-so approachable. Not.
Y'know, I can never get this. Some bus drivers are just so, so ridiculous.
I get on the bus, drop 55cents into the machine and the bus driver looks at me.
Bus Driver: Show me your EZlink card.
Me: I didn't bring it.
Bus Driver: Then pay 95cents.
Me: I would have used my EZlink card if I had brought it?
Bus Driver: *refuses to close door and drive.* But you didn't bring your EZlink!
Me: But I'm in UNIFORM HELLO.
He didn't drive off until I dumped another 40cents in.
For fucks' sake. Why the hell would I pay in cash if I had brought my EZlink card. And for your information I was in FULL SCHOOL U.
Eh, no lah. I wanted to save 40cents so I spent $24 on a nice TJC uniform, took the time to iron it neatly and wore it everywhere I go. I've been doing this for 2 days already. Look how much I've saved! $1.20! That can buy me an icecream YIPPEE!
Seriously, what's his bloody problem. I think these drivers are so sick in the head. They just love making things difficult for people. It's not as if I can't pay the stupid 40cents dohh~? Urgh.
Gosh I can't stop rolling my eyes at the pure absurdity of it.
I found a seat and started on my book. Then this ticket man came. Great, just great. I didn't know where I placed my bus ticket. I had to pay AGAIN.
I settled down once again with my book and after a while, I felt a tap on my shoulder.
Ticket man: Hello Miss where are you taking to? If by now you haven't gotten down you have to pay $1.10.
(WTF.)
Me: The bus uncle told me to pay 95cents!
Ticket man: But you're paying adult fare so you have to pay $1.10 already!
Me: But the uncle told me to pay 95cents! What am I supposed to do? Argue with him and say 'No, no Uncle I need to pay 25cents more!'?
I don't even know how much I'm supposed to pay for that matter.
Ticket man: If you're a student, where is your EZlink?
(DOUBLE WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
I couldn't be bothered to answer him anymore and just crossed my arms and closed my eyes and tried to sleep. He walked off. Lucky he didn't bug me anymore or I'd have kicked his balls up down left right center fuckitt. I'm so pissed so pardon the crude language.
It's not the money issue but CAN'T Y'ALL JUST GET THIS INTO YOUR BLOODY NUMBSKULLS. I DIDN'T USE MY EZLINK CARD FOR A DAMN GOOD REASON, I DIDN'T BRING IT. Dumbfucks.
Annoying!
I reached my stop and thought my day couldn't get any worse. Wrong.
My book and bookmarks and shoe box took a tumble down the stairs cuz a certain asswipe driving the bus didn't know how to. I bent down (yes, on a speeding bus) to pick up my stuff and the dumb bus swerved again and I took a hard knock on my injured ankle and twisted my other ankle. Wonderful.
I'm not being the whole emo the-entire-universe-is-pitting-against-me thang. I seriously thought it was a good day today and all those had to happen to me, all at the same time.
Then again, I guess this is pretty normal occurence for Foong Yumei.
Her life is screwed, remember?
-/edit. My mom has just told me she's deleted all my photos from the laptop. Thanks mom, you made my day. You have no idea how much my photographs mean to me.
I feel like crying but I can't even cry.
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Beach fit @6:59 PM
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
I've just finish my chem alevel spa. all i can say is i've never studied so hard for anything and the exact thing i studied for came out and yet i still couldn't get the fucking answer. i knew, i knew how to do everything. or so i thought.
yes yumei your life is a big fat screw up. which idiot has to prepare the bloody standard solution four times before getting it right, whcih idiot is so unlucky as to get both a spoilt burette and pipette, which idiot has to repeat the whole titration 6 times but ends up with only 2 readings in the end. i am that idiot.
this all goes to show that no matter how hard i try, i'm actually still fucking stupid and i don't belong here. i'm not, and will never be on par with the others.
Beach fit @2:32 PM
Monday, May 07, 2007
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
Hello all, it's been long.
Life isn't all that smooth now. In fact, is has been a bumpy, innards-churning ride. There were times when I felt like crying, screaming, yanking my hair out. Why, why, why. I've come to question myself. Am I really that lousy, that hopeless?
Maybe if I stopped trying so hard, things will happen.
Fate's playing cold, cruel jokes on me. I keep telling myself that it'll all blow over soon enough. But when? I'm beginning to think that those days are never going to come.
Wrong timing. A fucking sprained ankle( I'm sorry. No, actually I'm not. Whatever) cost me so much. It cost me half a year of training, my dream, my ballet exam, my team's dreams shattered.
I'm losing pathetically at this match called life. I'm serving ball after ball into the net.
All I want is for a re-serve.
Someone tell me how to improve my game, please.
Beach fit @8:17 PM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
High; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.
I had so much to say. But my mind's blank now. Writer's block. :/
We've won our first match for TeamTJ against CJC. 9-25, 14-25. The score was ugly.
My performance was disappointing. First match jitters? I can't believe myself. Been playing volleyball for so long and yet still... so unprofessional. Three out of four services OUT. Melvin must have been so happy. It's just going to get better. I won't falter anymore, I'm gonna give my all.
The TJ boys did good with IJC and JJC. Proud of 'em. (:
I'm lagging on tutorials again. Everything's moving so quickly (yes pras!), I'm getting so caught up in all that's happening around me. I just want things to slow down so I can take a breather. Apparently that's not going to happen. I've got to persevere, prioritise and catch up again.
Keep going everyone!
Have been reading lately. Some me-time away from the hustle and bustle of life. Found Vanishing Acts by Jodi Picoult in the TJ library. Happy. :D
My daddy's ill and he doesn't want to see the doctor. The worry. My daddy is great. He doesn't want to see the doc because he thinks it's a 'waste of money' and he doesn't want to take leave from work. The things that my daddy does for the family. I'm truly, truly blessed. I love you daddy.
Invisibility is really just knotting your body in a certain way and letting the black curtain fall over you. That people don't vanish into thin air; that when you can't find someone, it's because you've been misdirected to look elsewhere.
Farrhan just asked me if i was a les. Cuz he thinks a lot of volleyballers are les. Someone stab me please.
Oh take me back to the start.
Beach fit @8:04 PM
old post
Blessed.
Starbucks Raffles City for the second day in a row. :/ For PeeDub this time. De-juiced my brain. Lunched at Mos with Jo and Ron. Had a loooong talk about anything and everything. Was interesting enough. (: Found myself walking around Cityhall aimlessly AGAIN while waiting for Mom. Settled down at the Coffee Club with a nice latte and my book.
All of a sudden I feel like I'm the luckiest girl on earth. Life may not be all that smooth sailing, but I realized that I am privileged in so many aspects.
I have a close and complete family. I have loving and responsible parents. A brother who is downright annoying but still... Bestfriends who are there always.
I may not have the nicest pair of feet in the world but hey, they're pretty arched. I don't have slim legs either but I can JUMP!
I am unique and I love myself.
Love life Yumei, you're blessed.
Tournaments start tomorrow. Can't say I'm not nervous. My stomach feels as if the fairies in it are high on drugs. :S I'm gonna give my all, do my part, trust in my teammates and win.
TJ steady ace!
Oh, and good luck Team TJ!
Beach fit @7:51 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
It's gonna take a superman to sweep me off ma feet.
Today's prolly the best day I've had in ages.
Training started off with this new warm up exercise called Stack-the-chairs-up-and-shift-them-back-into-the-storeroom. Not. Chairs were left in the hall cuz of Parent teacher conference the night before. Things got better, a lot better. Everyone played well. Felt like hugging them all. Happy. (:
MRT-ed with Robert Shiyun Wong to Cityhall. Got meself a javachip from Starbucks. Didn't like it. Window shopped around Raffles City and saw Bernie (the vballer)! The Jaren and Eugene came and we went shoppingggg. Got my bottle and bargained for the first time in my life! What? 95cents discount is very good already OK.
MRT-ed back to Simei and met Khai and Ash at the busstop. How cute.
Ballet was A LOT better than yesterday's. Felt stronger today. Did pointe. I think my feet are overly arched such that when I go en pointe I strain my feet. Having such arched feet is not necessarily good. :/ Pas de bourree almost killed my feet. Esp. the coupe. -pulls a face. Pirouettes were good though!
Felt great doing the work. Made my day (apart from the bargaining thing)!
I'm so excited excited excited.
About the tournies and about the NZ trip.
I need a hero.
I'm holding on for a hero till the mornin' light.
He's gotta be sure,
and it's gotta be soon,
and he's gotta be larger than life.
Labels: Happy. Excited. Volleyball. Shopping. Ballet.
Beach fit @9:03 PM
Friday, April 20, 2007
Worms...
I hate worms.
They drive me crazy.
Crazy? I've been crazy once.
They sent me to a home.
I died there...
Worms came and ate me.
Worms...
I hate worms... ...
Good school day today. Productive during tutorials and lectures.
Happy with chem test results. Prolly my biggest achievement yet.
Went to support the guy's team.
Ballet was tiring. My technique's really weak now. Frustrated. I don't know how long it'll take for me to regain my form.
Not in the best of moods. Weird mixture of emotions.
Worried, stressed, angry, excited all rolled up into one.
Leave me alone.
Beach fit @10:15 PM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth;
Bio pract was fantab. o4/o7 went bonkers. How fun.
Cabbed down to CCAB to watch the first round of matches with Vanessa, BigJon, Kenneth, Shengyu and Nicholas. The next few weeks should get interesting. (:
I wanna make the ball go wherever I want it to go.
I wanna make the opponents run.
I wanna make life difficult for the opponents.
Most of all, I wanna sleep.
Beach fit @10:13 PM
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Downtown
Another day for all the suits and ties
Another war to fight
There's no regard for life
Tournies are coming. Here are the dates so all you friends (Jiaying *ahem) please come support if you can! Means a lot to me. (:
23/04 2.45pm-CJC vs TJC
25/04 3.15pm-TPJC vs TJC
27/04 2.45pm-SAJC vs TJC
30/04 2.30pm-MJC vs TJC
[All matches at CCABranch, Bukit Timah.]
:/ I'm getting fluttering fairies (i don't like butterflies very much) in my tummy. The mere thought of it makes me shiver. In anticipation? I don't know. :O
It's something we've worked so hard for, and I hope to make this good and of course, bring pride to Temasek.
I want it real bad.
Playing U-19 for PRSS Alumni. Excited at the prospect. -beams!
Was at cityhall on BEN&JERRY's Free Cone Day but didn't get my free cone from the B&J's at Raffles City. D: Okay fine, I was too lazy.
Btw I realized that I've been towning a lot more lately. Hmm.
Aye Jacob, be strong and move on okay? You're big and STRONG! :D
And Dianthaaaa we love you no matter what. Mighty proud of you too!
You know how tell if you need more sleep?
When you attempt to pin your collar pin to your ear.
I did it for the second time this morning. Thought it was my ear stud.
If I could have one wish now, it would be to SLEEP.
Why is it that when I smile my eyes are reduced to slits? - frowns.
Beach fit @9:24 PM
Monday, April 16, 2007
And no one really knows what they are searching for
The world is crying for so much more
I thought it'd be a good time to blog. I reached home at 3pm. A record. Wasted away in front of the computer. I really have to break this habit. At this rate I'll be headed for Graduation 2010 or something.
PI second draft is killing me. I'm gonna complete it by 6.45pm, I swear.
My house looks like a dumpster at the mo. Daddy dearest has conveniently shifted everything from the other house over. I need a bloody compass to find my way to the kitchen damnit.
Gave Xavier an I love Singapore sweet today. Amusing.Hurrah! I can now flip my tongue both ways.
Was asked to join the Swatch-FIVB World Tour. -snorts. If only I had the time. Prolly go down and watch one of the days though. Company wanted, any takers?
TEEJAY.
Pretty awesome bio pract.
o4/o7 took photo-taking at Recital Room dead seriously.
NYJC's Choir concert. Jac performed. :)
My girls.
UtterlyButterlyAdorable.
What can't kill me makes me stronger.
So much for finishing PI by 6.45pm. :/
Beach fit @5:24 PM
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Come&Go.
It's been almost 5 months since Granduncle has left us.
25 days ago, there came a new addition to the family. Isabel, their little bundle of joy. Y'know what's really funny?
She looks just like her Grandpa.
I'm wasted.
Beach fit @9:27 PM
Saturday, April 14, 2007
If I could escape.
I feel like smashing every bone in my hand. Useless thing. I can't even control the ball anymore. I deserve out. I deserve to warm the bench.
I never should have believed you again. Maybe it's just me. Stupid stupid stupid.
You know you're a loser when you try to think of something you are good at to make yourself a tad happier. And you can't seem to think of anything.
Hello Yumei, loser.
Beach fit @9:36 PM
Friday, April 13, 2007
Misery loves me.
Time and again you have promised. Time and again you have disappointed me. Yumei you are so weak, you are so gullible. I don't like it when I'm so weak for you. I don't like being weak. I don't like showing that side of me. I hate it that you bring out that side of me that I want to hide so badly. Please stop butting into my life and causing me pain.
Lot's to say but I'm so tired, have no time and have no mood.
FUCKIT.
Beach fit @11:57 PM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
I don't need anymore of that negativity in my life. Stop telling me to do this and that. It's not as if I don't want to. If I had the time I would do it, duh. Fcuk, if I had the time I would take a nice long bubble bath.
As far as I'm concerned, you're outta my mind, outta my life.
Beach fit @10:29 PM
Monday, April 09, 2007
too little too late.
the to-do list just keeps getting longer, i think sooner or later it's gonna have a life of its own and it'll strangle me. i'm not pushing myself hard enough, i'm slackening, i must stay focused, must not lose control...
Beach fit @9:13 PM
Go ahead, laugh your ass off.
I betcha'll take more than 30 seconds to find me.
It's 12:06am and I haven't started on my homework.
I need to cuss.
Beach fit @12:01 AM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
I can't take all these shit anymore. It's not like I'm not stressed enough with schoolwork and volleyball. I have to come home and get this kind of treatment. Foong Kaizhi I feel like slapping you real hard. I've realized that there's no point being honest, cuz someone else is going to take advantage of that. No point being nice to some people too, because they won't appreciate it, because they're too self-centered to say thank you, because they think that they are so fucking great. Once bitten, twice shy. I think I've been bitten one too many times already.
Pounded the wall like a mad woman. Felt a little better, but it'll feel a whole load better if it bled. I wish it would bleed. Then maybe I will bleed to death
Beach fit @8:32 PM
Friday, April 06, 2007
all the things you said
all the things you said
running through my head
running through my head
Helluva crazy day today.
Woke up so early to go to the airport. Everyone was late. Tsk. Did some math at Starbucks. Was entertained by this toddler who was so, so adorable. Made my day!
People started coming and we did work, Diantha sorted out the bad nuggets from the good, Jeryl spoke gibberish and we played with Jaren's tablet.
Made our way to Katong Shopping Centre for some karaoke with Eugene and gang. Listened to them sing. Mengting's really good (: Lighted the cake we bought for Eugene and sang him a birthday song. Sang some more and bussed back to Bedok. Talked along the way. Got poor Diantha all blurred. Standard. Lawlskates. Walked her to the train station together.
Eugene, Jaren and I sat on the steps outside the MRT station, just talking. Talking about love, love lost, life, family, homosexuals, studies, friends, everything under the sun. Enjoyed it thoroughly. (: Talked for more than an hour before Jaren had to leave. Continued with Eugene for a while before we said byebye. Stuff we spoke about were thought-provoking. Hmm.
I need to do up a to-do list again. I'm starting to like doing tutorials. I get this sense of immense satisfaction whenever I complete one. Feels like heaven!
To all my juniors. I can think of
Tournament's up! Against CJ, TPJ, SA, CJ. Excited yet scared. My arms and shoulder joints are grinding now. Great, just great. Long volleyballing day tomorrow! I'm loving every bit of it. Ace steady ace!
I'm getting my limegreen nalgene bottle so there.
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I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing tails
And coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
Beach fit @11:44 PM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Girl-talk with my best friends later.
Can't wait. (:
I love TeamTJC Volleyball.
sing for me again?
Beach fit @11:25 PM
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
PROUD.
to be a Pasirian!
First and only neighbourhood school to ever achieve a
GOLD WITH HONOURS! (CO)
for anything.
A historical moment indeed. (:
Anyways, I'm injured everywhere. ):
My ankles and arches feel pain at the slightest movement.
My left kneecap keeps slipping to one side before GRINDING back into place.
My tailbone is still not getting better.
My lower back hurts with every step.
I think I'm gonna fall apart soon. Going for physio tmr. Hope it's good. :/
I hate the smoking advert that is everywhere. The poster with the woman with rotten teeth and lips is effing traumatising. They really shouldn't put it up. Even in my magazines! GORY. -frowns.
Tournament's coming up and I get butterflies in my tummy whenever I visualize that. I tend to screw up during the crucial moments, somehow. Really hope that my experiences have made me a more stable and consistent player. I wanna make TJ feel that they accepted me for a good reason. I want so many things but I have to work really hard.
Went crazy again while tryin' to complete my chemistry practical calculations. I need to get a grip. Econs test tomorrow and here I am, blogging. Someone slap me.
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Cos when I look at my life
How the pieces fall into place
It just wouldn't rhyme without you
When I see how my path
Seem to end up before your face
The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was written in the stars
karma
Beach fit @8:54 PM
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
The Guessing Game
There was a man back in '95
Whose heart ran out of summers
But before he died, I asked him
Wait, what's the sense in life
Come over me, Come over me
He said, Son why you got to sing that tune
Catch a Dylan song or some eclipse of the moon
Let an angel swing and make you swoon
Then you will see... You will see
Then he said,
Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...
Picked up my kid from school today
Did you learn anything cause in the world today
You can't live in a castle far away
Now talk to me, come talk to me
He said, Dad I'm big but we're smaller than small
In the scheme of things, well we're nothing at all
Still every mother's child sings a lonely song
So play with me, come play with me
And Hey Dad
Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...
I said, Son for all I've told you
When you get right down to the
Reason for the world...Who am I?
There are secrets that we still have left to find
There have been mysteries from the beginning of time
There are answers we're not wise enough to see
He said... You looking for a clue
I Love You free...
The batter swings and the summer flies
As I look into my angel's eyes
A song plays on while the moon is hiding over me
Something comes over me
I guess we're big and I guess we're small
If you think about it man you know we got it all
Cause we're all we got on this bouncing ball
And I love you free
I love you freely
Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I
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Funny the way the world goes round, sometimes.
Was in a cab on the way home with a bursting bladder,
and Tide is High by the Atomic Kittens was aired on radio.
Smiled to myself, and of course, had an even harder time tryin' to fight the urge.
The tide is high but I'm holding on.
Beach fit @9:02 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
I'm coming clean.
I like you I like you I like you.
You make me sad but I like you.
You make me cry but I like you.
You make me lose sleep but I like you.
You make me waste so much time but I like you.
You are such a major jerk but I like you.
You make me lie in bed and think for hours on end but I like you.
You make me hate school but I like you.
You make me hate you but I like you.
I like you is that okay?
No apparently it's not.
Because nothing is ever okay,
because I'm ugly,
because I look like a troll,
because I'm fat,
because I'm dumb,
because I'm useless,
because I'm inferior in every way,
because you're someone else's.
stand by me?
Beach fit @9:12 PM
Sunday, April 01, 2007
The song of a little bird
The joy in three little words
Late night soul barings with my best girlpals made me feel a lot happier. I don't know what I'll do without them. With them I can be myself. I love you girls. (:
Ballet now serves as a reminder of my post-O's flab attack. :O
Starting majors syllabus, manageable but I seriously need to work on my flexibility. Doopdoop.
For once I got something right. The econs test is not tomorrow! Y'know usually I don't know when are the tests, what homework we have, when to pass up...but this time I KNEW! I know that the econs test is not on MONDAY! Because I know that Mrs Raj said she'll go through the beef-essay essay plan on Monday. So while everyone insisted that it's on Monday, I stood by what I remembered and didn't mug for it like everyone else did!
Thanks to my handy dandy notebook! Something's going right at last. I'm climbing out from that smelly dump.
When the going gets tough, the tough goes shoppin'.
Woke up early to bus down to town for some serious retail therapy.
Met the Die-Die Man in the bus. PeiQi's best friend. His vocabulary seems to have expanded. From just 'die' to 'si', 'mati', 'I'm not a beggar', 'handcuffs'. Hmm. Funny guy. Freaked mom out big time.
Alighted at fareast but realized that so many shops were not open yet. 10am. -.-
Shopped around. Bought 2oo++$ worth of uhh undergarhhhhments. FEELS GOOD. Got a nice new shirt at MANGO that says- To live is to dance, to dance is to live. Love at first sight. (: Found a nice cashmere cardigan that was quite cheap but mommo insisted that it was too matured looking. It's lime green for goodness' sake. Dang. I shall go back for it on Friday.
Bought stupid stuff like 2 spongebob towels and 1 carebear one. I want the pink Miss Sixty deodorant! Friday friday friday I will get 'em all!
Had tea at Coffeebean while waiting for dad to arrive. Got my usual pure vanilla and snuggled up in the squashy armchair. Took out my lecture notes to read, but ended up taking a nap. Was woken up by my phone. Sms from Chang to call him cuz he had something real urgent to tell me. Called him back. 'HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!!! Hahahaha'.
*gives withering look.
Dad came and went off to the Esplanade for dinner. Long queue at Ichiban Boshi, so I went up to the library to study while mom queued. Got a drink at the Cafe and saw Yeebie and Jeremy. Completed 3 pages of notes. Three giggly teenyboppers blasting handphone music. Hello, it's a LIBRARY. Irritant (sek i sound like you!).
Dinner was good. Had a good laugh with the family. Dad was lamenting about his 200++$ I 'wasted' on bras. The conversation went on to something along the lines of using bras as masks when the PSI increases again. (hey try saying 'bras as masks' really quickly. very difficult right? omg! how interesting! rolfcopter!!) Then mom went on to talk about everyone rushing out to buy bras if psi increases leading to shortage of bras leading to higher demand for bras leading to people willing to pay more for them, so technically we're making a good investment and preparing for the future cuz if the PSI does increase we can sell them bras for like...200$ PER bra. WAH ZHUAN DA QIAN LE!
Okay Yumei shut up.
Everyone sang along to the Westlife cd we had in the player all the way home. Who cares if we were way out of tune?
I love my wacky family.
Week's starting soon. JCT is coming closer, tournament coming closer, faster.
Getting caught up once again in the whirlwind.
I want that happyhouse wallet.
If you could see me now,
you would know just how.
How hard I try
not to wonder why.
I wish I could believe in something new .
Oh please somebody tell me it's not true.
I'll never be over you.
I cry silently,
I cry inside of me.
I cry hopelessly
cuz I know I'll never breathe your love again.
I cry cuz you're not here with me
cuz I'm lonely as can be.
I cry hopelessly
cuz I know I'll never breathe your love, again.
Ipanema flipflops, YOU ARE MINE.
Beach fit @9:19 PM
Friday, March 30, 2007
Where d'you go?
I miss you so.
I broke down. Finally.
Mentally and physically exhausted.
But this is the rigour of JC life, I know I must learn to cope and adapt. I will not give up.
Just when I thought today was a bad enough day, more bad news hit me again and again. Till I couldn't take it anymore. Not to gain sympathy, but today's the first time I have actually felt like ending it all. All the workload, the responsibilities, the problems... .
The weeks ahead are going to be bumpy. I never intended for things to turn out this way but you just had to make things ugly.
Shit happens. And somehow it always happens to me.
This is all gonna look like it's my fault again. As usual. I'm gonna be the big ol' meano baddie in the end. I can't be bothered to explain myself anymore. All I wanted was to play volleyball, have fun with my friends, study hard.
But so much happened, so much that I didn't want to happen. I don't want these problems. Stop, please. Enough is enough. Continue bitching untruths about me. I don't want to care, I don't wanna defend myself, I don't wanna make you an enemy. I don't care if you make me your enemy. Because it's not worth it, really.
I knew it, good things never last for me.
Then again, this is just one of those down in the dumps periods I go though once in a while. No doubt that this is the deepest dump yet. But I'll survive.
Yumei is strong...right?
:/
I know I'm not alone.
To Jaren, we're in this together. Cheer up buddy. I don't know if what I said will help... but anyhow, keep believing.
And to Eugene and Diantha. For making smile my first smiles of the day.
And to Sek bro, sorry if I freaked you out today. I really couldn't hold back the tears anymore. I didn't mean to like...not talk or something. Thanks for being there, really, thanks.
My head is spinning.
Beach fit @11:23 PM
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
what goes around comes around.
stupid timetable. so many of our classrooms are at the TA block. omg i love mondays!
i like chem and math now cuz i actually know what's going on! and the tutors are fantab. :D but i know nuts about the previous chapters tho. so gotta make time to go through them. econs is really rubbish. cuz im Clueless with a capital C. kari, pras and i are gonna sit in the front row of our lives for all econs tutorials from now on. no more skiving! i dont even know what i dont know lah can. :/ miss lee's actually nice lah, just a little dull. if i keep telling myself that she's a total bore, i bet i'll end up sleeping in all her classes. think the best of everything, yumei!
been raining lately. air gets all warm and humid before it rains. hate the sticky feeling. rained particularly heavily on morning. talk about untimely. most were on their way to school.
was amusing to see people walking around campus barefooted/without socks, airing their socks and shoes under the aircon during tutorials, squeezing water out from their socks, drying their clothes/hair at the hand dryer...and in jeryl's case, making plastic socks. he made socks using a plastic bag and scotch tape. so he ended up rustling whenever he walked. haha. was damn cute!
zomg i just realized tmr's thurday. and i have training till 9pm on thursdays and my PW PI first draft is due on friday! :OOOOO i dont even know which groundbreaker im gonna do on. 8( i hate doing last minute work. such poor time management. -frowns at my reflection.
had to miss training for the sportsXcel body image workshop thing. went with xavier after contact time.
was interesting and got to meet the other sportsXcel people. speaker was interesting but things went a little zzz in the middle. felt like whooo! went mr loh said we could have a 10min break. go get sth to snack on during the remaining part of the workshop. got myself the large yoghurt iscream! and idk why but th aunty gave me a MOUNTAIN of it. like its alrdy the big cup and yet she gave me a small cup's worth of extra slope on top of th cup. damn good. :D
did some mock interview thing grouped with timothy, grace and jinghean. kept giggling. -.- was okay though i didnt speak veh well. was half asleep. hmm. dont knw if i should join main comm publicity or just remain as subcomm for sports carnival. dang.
mr loh read out the list of ppl who got the sportsXcel scholarship and merit award.
the merit award like gets 1/4 the amt of money the scholarship awardees get. was ready to get the merit award cuz the requirements for the scholarship award are good acads (7/8/9 points), top 4 placing in nationals in b'div or you're some national player. then mr loh started reading the list then i was damn scared i would be the only one who would get the merit award -> super malu. THEN, he read the last name of the scholarship awardees. MY NAME. omgomgomg. i love my name.
yumeiyumeiyumei dont u think it sounds so nice.
OMG this is so surreal :D
im jabbering.
OMG I JUST REALIZED I FORGOT TO HAND IN BIO SPA PRACTICAL! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~
:O
sheesh. gotta chiong tmr.
anw i chipped my index fingernail real deep. hurts like sh*t. ahh it'll never be the same again. yumei you bimbo.
studying in tj's library is fantab! :D i actually get work done. studying at home is virtually IMPOSSIBLE. and i hate that fact.
sigh-aye-aye. why? again.
I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
Beach fit @8:42 PM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy
Was made to wake up so early because two nutheads wanted to play pool at 8.30am. Grr. Played Spin Fun on Jeryl's phone while they played. Yay Highest High score! :D
Came back up and I wrote my SportsXcel writeup while the nutheads tried to beat my highscore. Which brings me to say that, I GOT THE SCHOLARSHIP! More or less confirmed! Zomgzomg. :D :D :D :D :D :D
Then the people started arriving and we went to the clubhouse to chill and play pool and think of moves while waiting for the coach to arrive. First cheerleading practice was...interesting. :/ Felt real good to have my back cracked and to stretch though. Did lifts and jumps and shoulder sits and some other stuff.
Bussed to Eastpoint for lunch before going to Parkway with Wei Ren, Ren Hao and Jaren to play pool as well as to submit my NZ form! :D :D :D Got the honeydew spongecake from Angie the Choice. Half of it was eaten by a very hungry Ren Hao. It was YUM.
Was a bad pool day today. ): Kept missing by a little. I think there's a problem with my aiming. Tsk. I shall practice and improve.
Met the family for dinner. Everyone was in a good mood today which made me even happier. Bought candy and helped Kai choose a nice new psp game yay.
Not in such a happy mood now though. I just realized I still haven't done my gas law online test. Which means I'll have to do it at the library tomorrow. And that I have only done my math tutorial halfway. AND worse of all, I'm rashing at really weird places now. Around my eyes, the sides of my mouth. It HURTS big time lah. D:
Pissed and annoyed at myself. Grahhhhh~ I wanna scream and cuss!!
the way you look,
the smile you smile,
your gait,
what you say,
how you speak,
all etched in my mind.
Beach fit @10:47 PM
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Keep the courts clean, thrash your opponents.
Woke up to realize that I was late for training. Don't know what's wrong with me lately. Keep oversleeping. :/
Was zombie-like during training I almost fell asleep while spiking. -.- Sorry peeps! I think I'm like a full-time volleyballer. Volleyball everyday! Not good, too tired to focus. I'm losing my touch...ah i need to peak soon! Service was 100% despite my half-dead state though. Heh.
MRTied to Cityhall. Slept, standing up. I'm becoming really good at sleeping anytime, anywhere. Long walk to Milenia Walk. Citylink mall was more crowded than usual. Irritating. Met the people, ate, went down to Coffeebean. Yay pure vanilla, pure bliss. Read Trigo and did tutorial 9! I've decided to do my math and chem tutorials diligently from now on since the tutors are so nice and good. Celery can eat celery. Pffts.
Sam left, leaving Solo, Jaren, Sek and I. Started doing dumb stuff like MORE warping and laughing our asses off. The GC is BAD. So distracting I keep playing the games. Dang~
Left around 6.30pm. Sek and I were constipating, much to the disgust of the two guys. AHAHA!
MRTied to Bedok to bus to Parkway. Crestar closed already, damnit.
Trip to the landscaping nursery was a bore as usual. Just get the roof done quick whatever.
I'm SO TIRED.
I DON'T WANNA BE IN CHEERLEADING!!
I DON'T WANNA BE IN CHEERLEADING!!
I haven't started and already Amy's laughing at me.
Day 1 as true blue (true green, rather) TJCians!
This is for you, MrWilson! Best and coolest GP tutor ever!
This is for you, MrWilson! Best and coolest GP tutor ever!
Poor Cadence.
Anyway, TJCians, like me, can sleep ANYWHERE.
Look at Sek,
Some horribly taken shots of us at our favourite hangout @ the Atrium! Bad lighting.
Muh pencilcase is sooo cute. :D
I don't know who took this but, I found it in my camera.
Filling in the Temasek Challenge during the physics lecture that we do NOT have to attend!
This is what we do besides Warping.
DAMGEH AH! BOHHHHHY.
Today:
All the sexaye people xD
I LOVE ME.
ZOMG Jeryl DODO imma gonna beat your SpinFun highscore after you've beaten Mr Wilson's. MUAHAHAHHAHAHA.
Oh yah. Funnyshit during training. Were having water break so we were downstairs. Yanting saw a mouse and said 'MAO2 SHU3!'. It ran into some hole and Kelly tried to get it out. Dumb thing is she stood over the hole and said 'Meow!'. -.-
Like Mao Shu would EVER come out. Okay was damn funny.
My head hurts I need to sleep byebye.
Beach fit @10:40 PM
Friday, March 23, 2007
ZOMG ROLFCOPTER LAWLSKATES!
I AM SO HAPPY NOW I FORGOT EVERYTHING I WANTED TO BLOG ABOUT. EXCEPT THAT I HAVE FANTAB MATH, CHEM AND CHINESE SUBJECT TUTORS. AND THAT CELERY (a.k.a Ms Cheryl Lee my CT) SPEAKS REALLY SLOWLY AND I CANNOT STAND PEOPLE WHO SPEAK SO SLOWLY CUZ I THINK IT'S A TOTAL WASTE OF TIME TO LISTEN TO THEM TALK.
AND THAT EUGENE AND MENGTING CAME BACK TODAY. We're playing the WHOO! game. We had to shout someone's name and the people on the left and right of the person has to shout WHOO! Some ice-breaker thing. Then all of a sudden, Jaren shouted 'EUGENE!' and we all WHOO!ed. Was a heartwarming(?) moment to see everyone hugging and I admit I almost teared. :')
Mr Daniel Ng relieved our class during bio pract. Almost teared upon seeing him too. As much as he is weird at times, seeing an old (by old I mean FAMILIAR) face was a little too much for me. :/
I MISS MR WILSON LOAAAAAAAAAAAADS! D:
Hey, actually, I do remember quite a lot of the stuff that I wanna blog about.
Went back to PRSS to play vball today. Had a lil' chat with Seri. (: I miss you so much, gorgeous!
Played ball and it started to rain. So the four of us old girls went to the multi purpose hall to watch the Bdiv boys play a friendly against Singapore Navy Volleyball. Scary group of men. ://
Melvin and GuoBin jiaolian came and they joined in the match. Then horror of horrors, Melvin asked me if I wanted to play. And God knows why, I said ok. :O
ZOMG. I went on court and regretted almost immediately. First, the net was the guy's net height. SO HIGH! Omgomg. Second, the opponents were wahsehdamnprocanthunder. Third, I realized I was the only girl. Fourth, everyone, was watching. Fifth, I was getting distracted by the biwnganwrgvnckmj dongdongchiang chinese cultural club lion dance ahbengs who couldn't stop drumming ON PURPOSE. Losers. Urghh.
Wasn't as bad as I expected. Rolled once which makes it the second time I've ever rolled to save a ball! Yay.
Felt good to hit the ball hard and vent some of my frustrations.
Felt better, to see the vball girls again.
So many Sec1 volleyballers haha. 30++.
back to the main reason for this post!
i am allowed to go to the NZ Dance Study Tour again this year!
Dad actually said that he'd rather give me the 3000 bucks than use the money for this trip.
So, I sulked and I teared and...'Ok, ok, go.'.
YIPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
I love you Daddy&Mommy&Kaizhi.
I haven't been this happy in ages.
*BEAMS.
Beach fit @10:12 PM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Who I am hates who I've been.
I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the pacific
And you might think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics
Cause I don't want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
And this is no place to try to live my life
Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well, I never should have crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to be sure
I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been
I talked to absolutely no one
Coudn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside had finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'd soon blow up
And I heard the reverberating footsteps
Syncing up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless
I got myself together I would watch me fall apart
And I can't let that happen again
Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
And this is no place to live my life
Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me
Who I am hates who I've been
Cause who I've been only ever made me
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Oh how apt.
Hello friends, welcome to the club.
Keep it up, you're doing an absolutely great job at making me feel miserable.
Beach fit @11:06 PM
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Earrings on today:
silver ring on left, white pearl on left.
I quite like picking out different earrings to wear each day..
Cuz when life's in a mess, it makes me feel a lot better to know that I am in control of something, at least.
I guess there's no point waiting any longer. If it comes, it comes.
Shan't live my life negative. Have been telling myself to smile more and be a happier person. Not gon' hold on so tightly to anything. It's not worth it. I'm giving my heart to my books (or lecture notes, rather.).
School's fine. Class is fine. We're not exactly bonded yet though. But things are going to get so much better if we all keep an open mind. I've pretty much gotten over the fact that I'm in Delta. Figured that no matter how much I grumble, I'm stuck. Gonna make the most out of it.
Here's a funny incident that I have to blog about.
Steph and I were talking about our shirt sizes, and i said,
'I want to sell my S.'.
Get it? Shirt size S, which so happens to sound like a certain three letter word starting with a and ending with s.
And Pras happily added saying, 'Any takers?'.
Thanks a lot Pras, you're quite funny yourself!
'buzz off maaan...' Giggles.
I realized that it's quite impossible for me to do any studying at home. :/
TJ's library's workin' for me yay.
Goodbye for now, Wilson Santoso.
Birkimania.
Felt insane.
Insaner.
Love.
If that's how you want things to be, then so be it.
Beach fit @6:29 PM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
HIDE&SEEK.
where are we? what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to fall,
crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling.
spin me round again and rub my eyes.
this can't be happening.
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.
hide and seek.
trains and sewing machines.
all those years they were here first.
oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before.
the takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still life.
hide and seek.
trains and sewing machines. (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears,
they were here first.
mmm, what you say?
mm, that you only meant well? well, of course you did.
mmm, what you say?
mm, that it's all for the best? ah off course it is.
mmm, what you say?
mm, that it's just what we need? and you decided this.
mmm what you say?
what did she say?
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
speak no feeling, no i dont believe you.
you don't care a bit. you don't care a bit.
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
speak no feeling, no i don't believe you.
you don't care a bit. you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
the dust has only just begun to fall,
crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling.
spin me round again and rub my eyes.
this can't be happening.
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.
hide and seek.
trains and sewing machines.
all those years they were here first.
oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before.
the takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still life.
hide and seek.
trains and sewing machines. (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears,
they were here first.
mmm, what you say?
mm, that you only meant well? well, of course you did.
mmm, what you say?
mm, that it's all for the best? ah off course it is.
mmm, what you say?
mm, that it's just what we need? and you decided this.
mmm what you say?
what did she say?
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
speak no feeling, no i dont believe you.
you don't care a bit. you don't care a bit.
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
speak no feeling, no i don't believe you.
you don't care a bit. you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
Lost for words.
Stop making and breaking promises.
Stop treating me like a friend.
Stop reading too much into things.
I think you hate me.
Don't worry, cuz the feeling is entirely mutual. or not.
Beach fit @5:53 PM
Saturday, March 17, 2007
photoblog.
-/edit.
you told me something i really didnt want to hear. it hit me right smack in the face. thanks a lot. i feel great now. OUCH.
i give up. i really give up.
stupid aunties like to cut my queue. i took 15mins to choose my yongtaufoo. wah they're super hiong! xO
Went back to school with Vanessa to hang around before volleyball starts. ended up sleeping in th hall. woke up to find everyone staring at me sprawled on the floor in the most unglam fashion. zomg.
training was fantab! we wonnnnnn 2 outta 3 matches played. and the one we lost was a deuced match. ;D the san-ren-fang thing is getting easier and less tiring each time we do it. yay i love receiving spikes. half the time i was getting distracted by chunkiat's blinding jersey. neon orange words wthell. @.@
mrtied to ballet! my arch kept cramping dang! but was great! yay going to start training for advanced exam. and NZ trip in june!!!!!! more people are going this round. zomg i'm damn excited ahhahaha. lazed around with th girls in th studio and had a nice chat.
i think i have very funny friends.
told jeryl tt there're only 4 guys in or new class and he replied 'Gg zomg roflcopter lawlskates..'
i've been laughing at that phrase since last night.
then some joker (i forgot who) told me the subject BCME is Bah Chor MEe.
V.M.P [very messy photos.]:
Gelare!:
I think I'm really mad. the seat that R* sat in hahahha.
So much for acting cool, Yumei :
fuggin' posers:
chomps
nah eugene dont say dont have your photo hoh:
Ballet! i love split soles!!! :
Volleyballing:
this photo looks so cool if not for thunderthighs:
Van looking emo:
YUNSHI looking emo:
My shoebox!:
my playground:
I need to study.
Yumei you're a certified procrastinator.
wake up!
Beach fit @12:19 PM
Friday, March 16, 2007
zomg im gonna cry.
o4 is a stupid number.
there are new undesirables.
there are 4 guys.
im so sorry but,
FUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
ZOMGZOMGZOMG.
I JUST REALIZED I'M IN DELTA.
OMG IM GOING TO CRY.
bangbangchoochootrain
will the stupid train just run over me.
Beach fit @10:09 PM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
girl put your records on.
life has been great lately until this evening.
yesterday.
cabbed t school and met a really interesting and nice uncle. (:
went for econs lecture with the volleyballers and bussed to bugis after. went to arab street in search of some charms. i've been making charm necklaces myself lately. (: then to haji lane. had some great finds! had to rush back t sch for training. oh the reluctance. dang.
we were SERIOUSLY stranded on th train between bedok and tanah merah. please believe us this time hahaha. REALLY I SWEAR.
Had training and the cedar libero, serena came. (: did all 250punishments after training. was okay. back situps were interesting. was a hoot to watch jiaxian look like a flopping fish outta water. laughed till i felt weak.
today. reached school at 7am when econs lect. starts 8:40am. dad made me bring a toothbrush along so i could brush my teeth before my dental. wthell. slept in the canteen. vanessa the sleepyhead woke up late so i had to go for lect. alone. made me look like some loner. thanks ah woman. heh. was quite productive cuz i actually listened and understood.
hung around in school a little before the beta cheerleading meeting started. zomg i cant believe this either im in cheerleading. diet starts tomorrow! no serious. :/
went to finally get my altered skirt. i feel like smacking the aunty wthell. mrtied to dhoby ghaut with pras and jeryl for some carls jr! bitched quite a bit. BUG OFF! hahaha zomg pras you're damn funny. texas toothpicks yumm. (: jeryl got on a caffeine high! jaren came at last.
pras went off, leaving the three of us to meet eugene, solo, sam and the bowling team ppl for some poooool at meridien. watched them play at first. the 9-ball games were fun to watch! as were watching them joke. yay i love them all ha~ cool shirt saaam!
then some went off, leaving us three alone again. played some more. me against jeryl and jaren. and i wasn't bad! kept missing the black8 ball till they caught up with me and got the dumb black ball in first. that happened for like...5 games before i finally won the last. yay me!
bussed to marina square to join eugene&gang in bowling but they were watching a movie already. so we played daytona whoo! i won hahaha but felt so cheated. like 3 loops only wthell. cheater bug. then played house of th dead with jeryl. played with my eyes half closed most of the time. so scary! not bad lah! went quite far. :D
went to walk around to kill time before th movie people finish their movie. shopped a lil and searched for a nice casing for our graphing calculators. im getting a happyhouse one. teehee. saw jaren's lil' sis. how cute. harhar perfect for my bro if not for th fact that she's a year older than him. went to royal sporting house to look at jerseys.
kept gushing on about how i think guys carrying gym bags on their shoulders makes them look mighty sexy. made them do just that. DAMN SEXY! hoohaha.
went back to the arcade to wait for sam who was supposedly finishing th movie. jaren and jeryl played house of the dead again. yoyoyo so fun. decided not to wait for sam cuz i was so late for my dental.
jeryl and i chionged all the way to cityhall mrt.
'weaving through the crowd is my speciality!' said jeryl. and weaved he did. im not too bad either haha. my legs started to cramp and ache and scream for me to stop by the time we reached citylink mall. owwww. ):
mrtied back and talkedcock on the journey and received an sms from jaren saying '7mins to your dental and you haven't brushed your teeth, do it on the train!'. thanks A LOT.
here's the screwed up part.
i won't be getting braces just because i need to extract teeth because king foong kok wah says so. whatever he says, goes. so as a humble servant i have no choice but to oblige.
i dont knw why you think i want braces because i think it looks cool and that my teeth look fine. because they dont, at all. you dont know how it feels and as dumb as it sounds, its giving me an inferiority complex. its puncturing my already low selfesteem. thanks to you i'll continue being uglier than ever. thanks A LOT.
thanks for ruining my otherwise happy day.
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stuff.
they told me i can like, enter this photo into some photography competition. look how eveything and everyone is blurry except kawai! i wanted a photo of the kid btw!
this is for you solo!
and for kelly yanting and charlene!
what we did at carls jr while waiting for jaren. [click for larger image]
fashion playground! a catwalk. 8D
a tjcian security guard.
teehee.
I FEEL LIKE CRYING.
but some people made things so much better.
zomg jeremy the kkb thing really made me laugh. :)
i've said it before and i'm saying it again.
don't promise me what you can't fulfill.
it'll just make me hate you.
as much as i can't.
Beach fit @9:26 PM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
I say we don't go out this week. Set a date on a Saturday sometime in late March maybe and have a real bbq.
I'm tired. I'm really, really tired.
-/edit.
oh this made me a lot happier:
Ah Lian is a pejorative term commonly given to a certain group of young Chinese girls in Southeast Asia, especially Singapore and Malaysia. These Chinese girls, whose age ranging from their adolescent years to late 20s, usually centralised in the busier and more developed cities in the region. They are regarded as bimbos, and are stereotyped as anti-intellectual, superficial, materialistic, and shallow. Ah Lians are commonly stereotyped as having hair dyed in gaudy and bright colours, and attired in fashion mimicking hip-hop culture, although how much of this is true is debatable. Since their male counterpart is the Ah Beng, Ah Lians are also thought of as being excessively flashy and show-offs.
The Ah Lian "culture" is especially prevalent in the secular Chinese educational system schools, typified by their frequent use of vulgarities and appearance in cliques (joined by their male counter parts Ah Bengs).
Ah Lians commonly speak in a kind of hybrid mix of Singlish or Manglish and Chinese, or Chinese-related dialects. It is also common for the grammar from these dialects to cross over English usage, creating English phrases with Chinese grammar.
THANK GOD I DON'T FIT THE $%^&%*&^ BILL.
Beach fit @9:38 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Yes I remember the first time.
Overslept. :/
Woke up and to my horror, I realized it was 9:30am. And I was supposed to meet the girls+Wilson at 10:00am at Cityhall. Dang~
Rushed to Esplanade by myself. Sat around in Mrs Field's and camwhored a little before going up to the cafe. Lunched. Yeebie's a slacker heh. I really wanna go down on Open Mic Monday sometime soon. Sigh, timetimetime.
Window shopped a little with Huiling. Accessorize has some really pretty stuff!
Met the cg 06/07 people and we set off for Marina.
Bowling was fun to watch. Didn't bowl cuz I didn't wanna ruin my nails (Okay I know I sound bimbotic). Had fun! Mengting was hilarious when she played with the wooden toy thing. Jo, I think she's a gazillion times more stupid looking than me haha.
Had to leave soon after to go for my dental.
Had my teeth cleaned up. Dr. Emily's so nice! She gave me strawberry flavoured polishing powder! :D* Hurt a little (so damn hurtful haha YB) though. Ouch.
The orthodontist only comes Thursdays so made another appointment. Hope to get my braces soon! Dr. Emily says I will not need extraction most likely. Yay.
Did some grocery shopping with Dad. And confirmed that we should never, ever do the grocery shopping. Because we end up with so much junk food all the time. The only things that were OKAY was the loaf of wholemeal bread (YUM!) and a carton of milk. 40$ worth of junkfood. ZOMG.
Walked around the mall and bought my hairclip. :)
My head is spinning. Chucky Cheemeng talked so much rubbish today.
Wthell. Ha.
Ahh, I'm starting to wheeze and cough again. And my lungs hurt when I do. D:
Clara, work hard. HAHAHA.
Anws, here's a little shoutout to my CGmates. I hope you read this:
DaoEn
Heya. Good luck at VJ yes? Think it's the school for smart people like you.
Ivan
Don't be to disappointed that you got into SA. Keep your chin up and face reality head on. (: Thanks for being such a great help in the preparation of the English Fair exhibition!
Kawai
Funnyass. You crack me up! Show those who under estimated you what you've got. OWN yes?
Sek
I've got nothing to say to you except remember, my name in EVERY paragraph. HAHA. No lah, damn glad that you're in TJ. Really. :)
Cadence
Smarty panties you're really cool because you don't give a hoot about what people think and I think that's mighty stylo milo. CANDICE!
Diantha
Imma gonna miss you doing your thumbs up, touching the side of your head and being so blur when you're in a different class! Lotsa luck running for SC!
Jac
I'm missing you already, fellow giantess! K-I-C wintertearsdunshed. HAHAHA. You've been an utterly butterly fantab bud!
Pras
Same class again I'm sure! I wanna learn the whole indian dance and laugh at you gushing at R* like mad. Funnaye!
Jo
YAY. You're so clueless at times it's funny. Thanks truckloads for listening to me whine all the time. Heh. ;D
Jeryl
Creative duuuude. Always doing something new and totally cool. You're one keraaazy person.
SweeLiang
I remember, 176cm! Thanks for telling my OGM that I'm very nice haha.
Eugene
AHbeng! Will miss you calling me Ahlian and singing nonstop! Thanks for being crazy. Life needs a little insanity once in a while. (:
ChengYing
Hope you'll be happier in you new class and you're pretty good at the violin!
Samuel
MashiMaro teeny eyes haha. You're a good guy and apparently pro at bowling!
Yinglin
My chinese partner! Was dumb lah! Haha. All I remember now is that you're in CO and you play the cello. Proves how ineffective that was. x)
Jiachen
Eat more, eat like a normal person! You're really hardworking!
Mengting
ZOMG you're damn funny. I can laugh at you all day. I guess that sums up whatever I have to say to you. HAHA.
Jinghan
Yay! Enthu O2 OGM! Smart and hardworking too!
YingEn*
Sleepover mate! Stretcher user! Handball group member! You make me smile when I'm down. (: Thanks for being there always.
Steph
Hi FONG! Two Os is better than one. HAHA. We're twins yay! Stephanie ah wo ai ni, stephanie ah wo ai ni, mwah mwah mwah mwah. 8D
Solomon
No one to cheer with me after you're gone D: Come back often okay?
Jaren
Wlao why you choose triple science smart fart you! Mahjong and pool kahkee number 1! Infect me with your chemistry genes TY.
Huiting
You're obviously really smart cuz you're a scholar! Much luck, whichever class you're going to. (:
Junyi
ZOMG I miss someone calling me noob always. Dang. Never see you gay face like damn weird lah.
Kenneth
Technically, you're part fo cgo6/o7. :D Crossing my fingers and toes that you'll teach us again you coolestteacherintheworld!
I'm pooped.
Reality bites back.
Labels: CG 06/07 bowling, Chucky, Dental, Singapore Art Cafe
Beach fit @10:34 PM
Monday, March 12, 2007
Don't dream it's over.
25 hours of volleyball. I'm pooped.
Camped in the gym, watched WengSeng and Kenneth make a fool of themselves. and played cards till Mr Fung forced us to sleep. The gym isn't exactly the most comfortable place in the world to sleep in.
Training started 7AM. Fug.
Lunched with th volleyballers and I decided I wanted to watch a movie. WengSeng kept insisting on 300, but it's M18, i.e. JiaXian and I do not qualify. Ended up watching Primeval. My legs almost died. Show was alright and I spent half the time behind my jacket. Dumb croc was rather fake looking. JiaXian reckons it looks like a dog when it's running.
Orientation 2 was okay. Good because we had crashers! :) Esp. Eugene, Solo and Sam.
The 2nd intakers were basically quiet and dull. But things soon got better. Those who decided to open up, not pon and be sporting, had the time of their lives. And those who did otherwise, missed out on all the fun. HA, so there.
Took time off to go see Wilson at the airport. Silly tiny guy, you're missed sis! Lunched with the 4E8ians and Lenard was being quite crazy. Vann kept belching on purpose, much to everyone's disgust. :/ Happy tingly toes feeling, seeing my girls again. They always manage to make me feel warm and fuzzy, like snuggling into bed. :)
Onight was goodgoodgood. Let loose and screamed my troubles away. Felt fantab. Dhoomed with ChangHoe and then Solo. We did the pulling damn hard thing. My arm almost fell off. Started the first conga line of the night!
Went home w/o eating supper. Just wasn't really in the mood.
Busy week ahead. Make up lectures to attend, schoolwork to catch up on, training almost everyday, cliques to meet up with. Then the real horror begins.
O2-Onight:
1/4 the OG.
J1 volleyballers ;D
BENGXZXZxx.
BENGXZXZxx.
Post O2 Day 3:
No I wasn't sucking my thumb, I swear.
Mahjong Kahkees.
loves.
Supper at Simpang Bedok.
Watch how Yumei takes photos [credits to li sijie] :
My girls. (:
Mahjong & pool:
Gelare:
Pretty photo. Thanks for your mouth and tongue, Diantha. Heh~
SIX.
Fun in LT2:
My morning gang-OG 6 :
My LOVES:
I wanna go to NZ to dance this June again. And I think I am going to.
I believe in karma. So, so unto others as you would want others to do unto you.
I'm serious.
Beach fit @6:15 PM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Even though I pretend that I've moved on.
Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you know
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you
Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And so my road can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you
And old song brought to my attention again lately. Idk why but I don't have the mood to blog.
O-night was surprisingly, a blast. Felt good to scream.
A certain something made my day.
I classify today, a GOOD day.
Labels: Orientation Night.
Beach fit @11:13 PM
Friday, March 09, 2007
Bittersweet.
Happy cuz ______.
Sad cuz ______.
I would say the best part of O2 would be 'You're awesome'. Not because it felt good having people saying nice things about you. But it made me appreciate the people around me.
I teared while writing and when Sijie read out what was written to me.
I couldn't hold back the tears anymore.
Sheesh Yumei, you're weak.
Beach fit @11:36 PM
Thursday, March 08, 2007
I don't know anything cuz I'm feeling so numb.
I don't know anything, except that I haven't been this sad in ages.
Don't be fooled by the smile.
Don't tell me to let go of yesterday cuz as much as i want to, I can't.
I'm still waiting for you to say 'Haha, bluff you one lah, I got into TJ!'.
I think I'm losing hope.
Labels: LOVED AND LOST
Beach fit @9:51 PM
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Y'think this is all fated?
That I should meet these awesome people and grow to love them so much and to have them leave me just like that?
As much as I have the rest of the OhSix OGLs with me, things just aren't the same. No Samuel and Eugene singing, no Solomon leading cheers with me, no Mengting gushing on and on about R*, no Jac in my tall gang, no class outings to the toilet, no Junyi calling me noob, no Sek with me all th time, no other Cheemeng, no Shirlene calling me Yumeimei, no Sarah being blur, no Adeline to talk rubbish with, no Eunice to call KhengKheng, no ChangHoe to call me on my phone just to tell me to turn to my left to say hi to him...
Man I hate all these. I wish those 2nd intakers would go away. They are given the places in TJ that so many others are vying for and yet they don't appreciate it and even openly announce their dislike for TJ.
I know I'm really mean and all but y'know what, I DON'T CARE.
Cuz nice, smart, interested people who are way more deserving than YOU, are being turned away.
Screw the system.
I want my bestfriends back.
TJ life's just not...the same.
It feels weird and cold and I don't have anything to look forward to.
:'(
Beach fit @8:54 PM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
What an utterly butterly horrible day.
Screw the fact that I got into TJ.
My best friends didn't.
I can't believe I'm tearing.
Thank you to OG6 and CG6, for making my first 2 months in TJ so comfortable and enjoyable. Someone would always be around to comfort me whenever I was feelin' down in the dumps. To ask me if I was okay when I took sick leave from school. To make me laugh and smile even when I didn't feel like it.
I remembered my first day at orientation. I was all alone, but I settled in soon enough. We became so close to the extent that there was no such thing as an OG lunch, because we would naturally come together and wait for each other to lunch. My friends from other OGs envied us. I really hope there'll be a good turn out at the March Hols chalet. The really special people too. Shirlene, Cheemeng, Jingliang...
And Ahbeng, you'll get in don't worry. How can there be ahlian w/o ahbeng.
And the first day in our civics group. I actually hated the CG. I didn't know anyone and our CT was a rollypolly sweaty man. Then things went uphill. We won handball hands down (pun intended), we sang and cheered a lot in class, we won exhibition, we made cheers, we made an impact, and I know that's what we'll continue doing. Man I love the CG.
I hope everyone who appeals gets in.
I'm crossing my fingers and toes.
I'm praying hard for y'all.
And...Marcius is going to Paka during the March hols cuz some VJ group is going. Asked me along as 'Marcius's friend', hence I wouldn't need to pay a single cent. I really miss that place...but my March hols are packed. D:
Sigh. I know things will blow over after a while, and this is just a lousy time. Going to nap to keep my mind off things. :/
I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it
If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me...
I can't seem to make myself laugh. D':
Beach fit @4:48 PM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
girls day out
-/edit.
omg they are damn cute. i took a photo of 'em with my trusty ole' sonycybershot and asked them if they would like to see it.
they went 'wah! so fast can view the photos already. sure or not?'.
i smiled and said yes and showed them and..'really can see! not bad not bad!'. they looked seriously amazed.
[in cantonese, of course]
oh the wonders of technology. ha.
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i have three very old but very sweet people in my living room now. my grandaunties and granduncle. :D we're not exactly on the same frequency, so here i am, blogging away. i know it's pretty rude. i swear i'll go out to talk to them after this.
-/edit.
omg they are damn cute. i took a photo of 'em with my trusty ole' sonycybershot and asked them if they would like to see it.
they went 'wah! so fast can view the photos already. sure or not?'.
i smiled and said yes and showed them and..'really can see! not bad not bad!'. they looked seriously amazed.
[in cantonese, of course]
oh the wonders of technology. ha.
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i have three very old but very sweet people in my living room now. my grandaunties and granduncle. :D we're not exactly on the same frequency, so here i am, blogging away. i know it's pretty rude. i swear i'll go out to talk to them after this.
y'know, i really should be studying. :/
snoozed from 6am to 10am this morning. finally got up to pack my room and get ready to meet the girls. had a great time catching up and talking about nothing in particular. and jasmine fell in love hahaha. mrtied to redhill and bussed to queensway. got my shorts! took a long time to decide on the colours. the white w/ orange sides ones were out-of-stock. ):
snoozed from 6am to 10am this morning. finally got up to pack my room and get ready to meet the girls. had a great time catching up and talking about nothing in particular. and jasmine fell in love hahaha. mrtied to redhill and bussed to queensway. got my shorts! took a long time to decide on the colours. the white w/ orange sides ones were out-of-stock. ):
mrtied to orchard. fareast again! :DD ate, took neos and shopped. heh.
i love us! ♥
photos up.
prolly the glammest shot ever taken of someone sneezing.
muh one and only neffiepoo.
cason says peace out yo!
presentation done by yumei, sek, yingen. mr wilson i think you look so cool in this photo. :D
when the bio lect gets boring, the boring gets bluetac-man!
my roses are dead ):
introducing...TJC students' favourite period, SWIMMING!
my head is so teeny. :/
seksy's mommo drove by to pass her her wallet so we got a lift to school. yay no need to walk!
couldnt squeeze all four of us in the backseat in one photo,
so yingen sat aside and sulked. haha!
my room looked like this,
just because of THIS.
farewell, bushy unkempt cavewoman hair.
the damgeh chingay parade which we so coincidentally passed TWICE in daddy's car. once in simei and once in eastcoast.
the J1 volleyballers. why are we so pro?
so yingen sat aside and sulked. haha!
my room looked like this,
just because of THIS.
farewell, bushy unkempt cavewoman hair.
the damgeh chingay parade which we so coincidentally passed TWICE in daddy's car. once in simei and once in eastcoast.
the J1 volleyballers. why are we so pro?
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
i passed my cough and viruses to mommo. ): she's coughing and a little feverish now. D:
oh no what have i done...
im gonna change my blogskin soooooon.
byebye.
Beach fit @5:48 PM
Saturday, March 03, 2007
posting results are drawing nearer and nearer. sigh i dont wanna ever leave 06/07. ): i hope everyone stays in teejaye though even if we're in different civics groups. i'll miss th madness and the singing and then cheering and the eating and the tutors. :/
there was this rather huge mozzie in my room. swatted (istheresuchaword) at it a couple 'o times with a towel. i hope both its wings fell off and 5 out of its 6 legs are broken damnit. how dare you enter my room, you BUG. yeeuck. DIE!!!
sorry, very sadistic.
the a level results came out! and mr kenneth stephen wilson (woah) did fantab!! way cool. i don't even have 7 subjects to start off with. -.- 06 sent him an sms which was supposedly way cool but somehow the reception or sth got screwed up. D: dang.
we were screaming like idiots outside the hall when mr wilson's name was called. hahaha.
just remembered sth i think is quite funny. was sitting in th canteen in the morning as usual, then ahbeng reached and plopped into a seat beside me and said 'i show you something' and started to open his shirt. for a moment i was like-omg he's gonna flash here? hahahahahhahaa. then he said 'my buttons fell off!'. wlao super dumb. i sacrificed my safety pin lah. please feel honored and life ROCKS w/o you. xD
in the meatime, jacob was happily throwing pieces of his bread at me. bitch! hahahaha.
ogl camp. i swear i won't wanna do Let's get retarded/S Club Party/Speedy Gonzalez again for quite some time after O2. dhoomdhoom is still fun everytime i do it though! think it's cuz i get a different partner each time. :D
my voice is still around, amazingly. yay orexus has new cheers and nicer ones to come! tikis (pras, STICKYS! hahahahah) are done and was pretty slipshod work. disappointed with my quality of work. :/ i hope o2 goes well and everyone's enthu. heh.
training today was good yet bad. spiking was quite good.
receiving's getting worserererer. served 3 balls into the net. DDDDDDD: brain was so dead during match that mr fung had to let the libero sub me in the back line. ahhhh... volleyball's a truly difficult sport to play. nevermind the skills. the concentration, anticipation and strategising required... enought to kill you. 100% mind on the game, eyes on the ball. couldn't do that today. i think it took like 2 seconds for me to register the fact that the ball was coming straight at me. daaaamn. i need to get more sleep, esp. before trainings so that i can give my all.
i haven't bathed/packed my room and im reallyreally tired. i shall sleep before 10.30pm today. haven't done that since sec. 2 omg. longer than long day tmr. boo.
no photos laaaaaaaaaazy.
RASH.
DRY SKIN.
COUGHING.
-screams.
Beach fit @9:01 PM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
who i am hates who i've been.
school breezed by today, somehow.
was quite productive which is absolutely fantab.
i've never been SO sure that i'll fail a test. this time, i'll be happy if i get 5/24. funny why i don't feel sad at all. feeling the guilt though. failing is not an option. i'm gonna do some serious catching up this next two weeks. i don't wanna do last min work and flunk th promos.
have been coughing incessantly. it's getting quite annoying, really. can't speak in full sentences.
i have ogl tmr again which means i'll not be able to go for ballet. double annoying. ): and next week'll be Orientation II, which means no ballet YET again. it's been a month already boo. i really want to do well for advanced1 and th teacher's course but i can't find time sigh. i wish classes weren't only on fridays. then at least i can go for some.
i left my chinese text and babyblue's comic under th desk at some classroom. i don't remember if i wrote my name in my chinese text and i hope no one takes th babyblue's comic home. if th person does, i hope he/she returns it to th library for me. D:
haven't been doing any reading whatsoever. i miss reading. promised myself to get a good read soon, not another of those thrashy novels. eeurgh.
on a brighter note, harry potter and the deathly hallows is coming out at 00:01 BST on saturday 21st july! i can't wait yet i can wait. it's the last book in this greaaat series. it'll be long before there'll be a new series worth waiting for like harrypotter again. :/ i love it. i always order beforehand and get it th moment popular opens its shutters, and finish it within th day. i'm pretty sure dumbledore's not dead. :)
ok i sound like a total geek.
mass danced a little today and watched pras do her indian dance and act all crazy. was really funny. :) walked around sch with jac and oogled our eyecandy. teehee. had a little chat with mr wilson! (i'm sure the anxiety would have sunken in by now. haha. whatever it is, keep believing and don't worry about anything cuz there's nothing you can do anymore at this point in time. :D btw, i forgot your msn hahah you're gonna murder someone with the brolly you brandished.).
came up with a class cheer so all you people look out for it, it's uber cool.
went off with jeryl and jac and we saw miss wong which reminded us of the 2 page essay plan we had to do. so much for being stress-free for a day. :/
my knees are starting to hurt again. daaaaamn. esp. when i bend to receive balls. plus th rash omg it's getting worse. screw the erratic weather.
random, but will someone go to queensway with me sometime soon? i need to stock up on shorts and shoes. idk where all my fbts went. -frowns.
people wanna mahjong over at my place again tmr. idk if i'll have th energy. as much as it was real fun i guess i'll just give it a miss. i need a rest. sorry peeps.
prolly going to the library to get a book and come home to read all day. sounds good aye. grins. :D
i can't believe it. i have blogged about nothing in particular at all. yumei your rubbish never fail to amaze me (esp. th way you seem to like talk about yourself in 3rd person.).
i don't think you'll understand whatever i'm writing.
will you sing for me again?
Beach fit @9:45 PM
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
y'know i used to think that there were no dumb people, only lazy people. so i thought that my lousy grades were because of my laziness.
i've now found out that that's not true. because,
no matter how hard i work i'm always falling behind.
no matter how i try to listen to lectures, i don't understand a single thing.
i have come to terms with the fact that yumei, you're pretty stupid.
i'm on the verge of giving up studying for chem lect. test but i won't be ale to sleep in peace. tired.
of the gazillionmilliontrillionbillionzillion people in the world, i just had to fall for you.
WHY.
Beach fit @10:04 PM
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Studying for Redox took a longer time than expected. What with all the snacking and countless toilet breaks. Kinda got the hang of it but somewhere along th way my mind started to drift which means nothing's going to go in anymore. Plus my head is starting to throb. :/
I'm actually finding chem fun just like th way I used to.
Still not done studying but it's a-okay. I shall reward myself today and sleep before 12mn.
I don't have to be on top, but I'm determined to stay within the average at teejay.
Posting results are gonna come out soon. Sigh-aye-aye. So many people will be gone.
The thought of a new OG inevitably replacing OG6 makes me really sad. D:
And worse still, the thought of CG06/07 splitting up. D':
I wish I were less sentimental. -frowns.
I'm rashing and I still sound
So much to do, so little time.
Yumei you can ace this test, c'mon!
Okay my head is throbbing so hard I swear it's gonna fall off. I gtg sleep, gubai!
Beach fit @11:12 PM
Monday, February 26, 2007
I'm a whole load happier now.
#1. Jacob Ma isn't angry with me. He's claiming that he thinks so&so and xxx are angry with him now tho. :/ Weird. Got me and Jingliang laughing like mad.
#2. My spectacles were ready quick and Dad collected 'em today. :DD
#3. I did more work than usual today and I'm proud of myself!
#4. I'm gonna cut my hair and get rid of my emo hair-over-eyes ahlian look.
#5. I am a SportsXcel shortlisted applicant. *beams!
#6. I am co-OG leader. Never mind that the new OG is so mixed. We can do we can do~
#7. I learnt how to dance Retarded.
#8. (lucky number hahaha) Listen up earthlings! I'm gonna get braces!! Daddy made an appointment with the dentist. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Omg whatever so what if I will look ugly I will have perfect teeth soon soon SOON! *hops around in a circle.
Since I'm in such a good mood I shall blog about last week minus the photos cuz I'm lazy t upload 'em.
Training is getting good good good. We're actually winning matches by a larger margin now! Really sad that th TA girls can't play but oh well, we'll make things good. I don't believe that we won't succeed if we work hard enough. (: Next year, we will be stronger than ever aye?
Went towning with Vanessa and Shiyun. Walked all around Fareast. Fareast is new and fresh everytime I go there. So much to see, so little time, and so little leg energy. I know when my stamina is deproving when I get tired just after half an hour of shopping. :/ Took neos and had fun fun fun!
Was raining when we were going back. Shared an umbrella with that Shiyun and she kept screaming cuz she was getting wet (so was I, fyi.). Screaming in the middle of Orchard Road can you imagine that. Were half drenched. Stood in the middle of Orchard MRT playing scissors paper stone to decide who finishes the bubbletea.
MRTied (MERTY-ED) back to Bedok in record timing of 18 minutes (!!). Met Samuel and we dumbdumb-ly took 38 to meet the rest of the class to take 38 back to Bedok interchange to take Bus 2 to my house. Reached school and they had the pizzas on hand and we went off for some funnn. Heh. Bus ride was entertaining, what with the two strings one string no string game that I figured out yay I'm so cool. xD
Settled in at my house and everyone got changed and the mahjong tables and poker cards came out. Pigged out and I attempted to fill the jacuzzi (took damn long). Half the people decided to play pool downstairs.
Mahjong was goooood. I won like 80% of the manymany games we played. Blackjack was going-to-be-good. If we played longer I'm sure that NOOB sure lose all his money to me one (sorry singlish). Lucky night! Got super lousy tiles which became super nice ones. The number of times I zi mo-ed and won. Hooha. Power taaak!
Played till 2,3am plus and started talking rubbish and seeing things. The stupid things we did! Had a good laugh. Arranged our tiles in such a way that when we take it, we'll get 13yao. Took an uber dramatic video of it that I think may win TOGA. Haha.
Camwhored a little until Noob's dad came to get him and we did some more crazy stuff whoo!
Went ack up, packed up and dropped dead in my room. We were like corpses. Too lazy to bathe nor move. Slept at 4, almost 5am and we had to wake up at 6am to get to school for OGL camp. Why are we so pro damnit. YingEn slept later. Needless to say we snoozed till almost 7am before we finally moved our asses. Solomon memorized his speech and off we go to school.
Zombies. But talk about MAHJONG got us all wide awake and raring to go!
Missed OGL camp tho, had training. :/
Cleared up some stuff that day and felt a huge load being lifted off my shoulders. I really hope Orexus wins O2 then we'll be the new defending champs. :D
Y'know, I'm really convinced that things happen for a reason. I have a little incident to share.
During OGL camp, the o6 girls went for a toilet break .When I came out of the toilet, I saw this girl who fell down, sitting on the stairs with two other girls trying to help her clean her wounds. Then E from SCIP hurried over (cuz apparently someone told her this girl fell and blahblah lah duhh). They were talking about something about plasters and bandage blahblah and where to get them. And I overheard it. And I happened to know where the first aid box was kept. So I told E that there was a first aid box at the SickBay. They looked and me and said that they didn't know where th sickbay was.
Being the lazy me, I wanted to get away with having to go get the firstaid box. So I gave them the directions to th sickbay and 'conveniently' slipped back into th toilet to wait for the other o6 girls. But then I thought, 'hey, they need my help...'. My conscience was nagging at me. :/
So I walked back to uh..offer assistance. I walked with E to get th firstaid box. i expected nothing in return.
And y'know what. E was th one who chose me as OGrep.
Yes, karma, I know.
The little things in life you do and th choices that you make that makes a difference to your life, and the lives of others. Cliche or not, it's absolutely true!
Which reminds me of the phrase Lee Da Hae kept saying in My Girl. Ni yi ding hui you fu bao oh! (haha hling i think you know what i mean).
Getting the firstaid box and seeing the girl's badly scrapped knee get cleaned up was a..happy tingly toes feeling!
Doing nice things for people makes life a little more bearable. Simple acts of kindness and graciousness brings smiles to others.
A nice caucasian man held th side gate open for like the 15 odd people who were coming home from sch/work today. He was in no way obliged to do so but he did, and he did it with a big smile. He made my day, and when we said thank you with a nice big smile, I bet we made his day too.
I'm smiling as i type this really lengthy and wordy post.
I'm trying to be a happier and cheerier person nowadays. It's easier said than done. But I'm gonna give it a shot. Frowning makes me look horrid. :O
AHBENG, cheer up! :D
You are a superduper soccer player and I'm not going to be Miss Universe this Thursday, that's for sure.
(please feel honored, ty)
CG06/07! We're gonna be carrying backpacks tmr! I know its DAMNGEH AH but that's the point. :D So toot, I like...
Zhi yao xiao yi xiao, mei she me shi qing guo bu liao. (:
Beach fit @7:41 PM
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Lots to blog about. But I have to finish my homework now I keep procrastinating and I need to study for chem test which I will fail anyway.
Stuff more or less cleared up and I feel just the slightest bit happier.
I bought new spectacles.
I sound like a man now.
I think something is happening that I know nothing about.
I think my new aim in tj is to pass tests. The As can wait.
I wish the TA girls could play volleyball.
I wish there were 5872 hours in a day.
Then I can sleep 5800 hours and go to school for 6 hours and play for 66 hours.
I wish I would stop thinking so much. Thinking so much gets my mind all effed up.
I'm still waiting and waiting and I don't even know what I'm waiting for.
No I think I know what I'm waiting for. Its WHY am I waiting that I not know.
Thank God for my gfriends.
Whatever I'm not making any sense.
Beach fit @6:02 PM
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Have never felt so alone and so ugly.
I don't even know why I'm crying.
Weak.
Beach fit @3:44 PM
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Temasek Oranges Group Activity.
Yay! I'm blogging from my own laptop after so long! Uncle JingHwee repaired it how nice :D
I've been going w/o food for like th whole day these two days before realizing that I haven't eaten. Ain't that great!
Was better yesterday so I went to Yuan laoshi's house. She's a gazillionmilliontrillion times better than Jiang laoshi who is SO grumpy and fussy. Yuan laoshi made me like sitting in front during chinese lessons, she made chinese lessons fun, she showed me ONIZUKA (omgomg im gushing again). Dang~ Anyway, played some silly games and JiaYuan's really cute and crazy. He plays the piano reaaaaally well and he's only FOUR. Had funnnn. I love Yuan gong zhu!
Walked around Tamp. central with bestf and bumped into a certain tall person.
Felt like vomitting th whole day. Exceptionally bad in th morning. ): But somehow I was quite chirpy today which is a huge change from the usual me!
Thought chem lect. test was tmr but it isn't, so that's a heeeuge load off my shoulders. :D
GP essay not done yet. I have so many points but with so many loopholes. I can rebutt my own points, that's how stupidly weak they are. Dang~ I can do GP, YES I CAN!
I have really smart Angel who is real nice yay!
TOGA was hottt (pun intended). I looked absurb but nehmind, that's th point. Contact time TOGA was dumb cuz it was so messy and everything. CG06/07 just had fun sitting in a circle and passing silly messages and watching people's reactions.
I don't know what I'll do when we go to different classes. I'll miss y'all like crazy. D:
Went to watch the TI semi-finals. Interesting. Haha.
Drifted around school with Jaren and YingEn. Sat at th stands t watch soccer and bitch a lil'! Cadence was being exceptionally wacky. Lol.
Walked to central with YingEn and saw this VJ guy walking around. Then I realized it was Tianlong. Was reallyreallyreally nice seeing him again! Wilson's coming back soon so we'll all be together again :D
Lazy to upload photos.
I was okay and A WHOLE LOT happier. Y'know you shouldn't get me started cuz it gets me all emo so just shut the eff up and stop acting all concerned.
Beach fit @8:55 PM
Monday, February 19, 2007
Sick on the second day of CNY.
Lucky me.
Which reminds me of TOGA and the GP essay due on Wednesday, and Chem lect. test on Thursday.
My life can't get any better.
I look strangely bloated. :/
I haven't eaten/drank anything since 9pm last night.
Beach fit @6:44 PM
Sunday, February 18, 2007
-/edit.
OMG I JUST KILLED A SPIDER WITH 5 PIECES OF TISSUE PAPER AND IT'S NOW STUCK TO THE WALL...IT'S LEGS ARE TWISTED..IT'S STARING AT ME, I SWEAR...
AAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I'M SORRY SPIDER, I WAS TOO SCARED TO THINK.
DON'T HAUNT ME PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE.
Guilty conscience for the rest of my life. Oh no...
I think I'm gonna cry. D':
Nth pineapple tart I've eaten.
FYI, N is a variable. In this case, the variable is large.
It's the first day of CNY and I've had two steamboats already. :/
'ave been listening to songs during the long car rides and got all emo.
Had fun at 9th Grandaunt's house tho. Met my little distant cousins, Edmund, Alvis, Crystal. Bunch of crazy but lovable kids. (: Alvis is so good looking omg. I actually played catching with them at the playground. :O Crystal is love!
Went to RTC for dinner. I swear never to order the sweet potato soup there again. Yuck.
Waiting for visitors and photos to upload as I type this post.
OOkay. Finally.
My uber neat room. Eat your heart out, Jacob!
Fun in class!
Vday preparation
Mr Fung's surprise
Vday in class. Mengting tryin' to eat the bunch of bananas.
Vday at fish&co.
Ma' stuff
On the way to Steph's house
RoadRun
Purple fingers. This photos were taken after they became 10x less purple. My nails are still a pretty pink colour, btw! :D
Steamboating!
CNY Day 1.
Behold the winning exhibition which is due to be put up during TeeJay's Open House 2007! :DD
Oh, how apt.
才离开没多久就开始担心今天的你过得好不好
整个画面是你想你想的睡不著
嘴嘟嘟那可爱的模样还有在你身上香香的味道
我的快乐是你想你想的都会笑
没有你在我有多难熬
(没有你在我有多难熬多烦恼)
没有你烦我有多烦恼
(没有你烦我有多烦恼多难熬)
穿过云层我试著努力向你奔跑
爱才送到你却已在别人怀抱
就是开不了口让她知道
我一定会呵护著你也逗你笑
你对我有多重要我后悔没让你知道
安静的听你撒娇看你睡著一直到老
就是开不了口让她知道
就是那么简单几句我办不到
整颗心悬在半空我只能够远远看著
这些我都做得到但那个人已经不是我
I'm cheena whatever.
I have a throbbing headache.
FAREWELL.
Beach fit @9:58 PM
Saturday, February 17, 2007
TOGA.
we're gonna do something
OUTRAGEOUS.
keeping this short and sweet.
couple o' us have been discussing and here's the verdict.
CG 06/07's gonna do some serious suntanning!
we're gonna be in beach wear, we're gonna walk around the school, before walking to the field to lay down our mats and suntan/play with a beach ball/put suntan lotion.
guys will wear bikini tops and a sarong, girls in a tank top and a sarong everyone with huge hats and sunglasses.
The point is to walk and do our thang looking as if it's the most normal thing in the world! Meaning, no looking shy and running to hide.
So, we need donations of bikini tops.
And TWO/THREE people to do the videotaping (so you don't have to be in beach wear).
ONE person to do the video editing after that.
AND SPORTING-ness!
We've just gotta do this once and for all. We shall embarrass ourselves as a class!
Please please please be sporting.
We can win TOGA!
TOGA will be on Wed if i'm not wrong.
Bring, top (bikini for guys, tank top for girls),
a sarong/ beach towel,
sun hat,
sunglasses,
beach mat,
slippers?,
beach ball (anyone? we only need one or two),
sun tan lotion,
cameras with video functions (about 3, so we can get more footages.)
We'll do it during lunch, before contact time, and i'll ask mr ng with we can use a little of civics time to get ready.
Tag/sms suggestions or violent objections.
TY.
p.s. that wasn't quite a short and sweet post after all. HAHA.
p.p.s. TOGA is part of the temasek challenge which WE SHALL WINNNNNN.
Beach fit @7:12 PM
Why am I blogging?
Because....
:D OGL has been funfunfun cuz CG06/07 rocks my un-ostentatiously coloured ankle socks!
RoadRun was coolshit! Reached early (as usual hahaha) and Shiyun and I decided to spray our hair ORANGE. Whatever Red Hair Day! We're special. :D Started making the drinks and dispensing them into plastic cups for the runners. My fingers turned purple! Kept running up to the stands to cheer for Beta. We won cheering and the JC guys cat. and some more some more! Beta powerrr!
Training was GOOD. It hasn't been good for a loooong while. But it was good this time. (: Finally had the energy to play some serious ball. Whoo!Played match and won! Never underestimate the power of the mole. Was feeling so good! But badminton needed to train so had to end training! Dang~
Went for OGL!
CG06/07's the coolest pleaaase. We had so many trademark cheers and we ownnnn! Kawai's shabuya cheer gets us through ANY obstacles. Had fun irritating the shit out of the station masters asking them why we have to do something, becaaaause.... dumdumdumdumdum.. Had a blast!
Had new cheers again today! The censorship cheer, loser cheer and loser anthem.
So many casualties though. The giant, wizard and elf game was good! We were all so confused so we basically ran everywhere and didn't care. xDD
And YingEn fell and cried. Like when YingEn cries, it's really bad! Then I became her stretcher lorhxzzzzz. Piggyback! :D
OMG Orexus rulezxzxzxzxzxzxx and there wasn't an internal conflict lah dohh~ So stupid. We work together and make Orexus the champion clan for O2 cuz we are the best so you better not mess so you better not fool cuz we are cool.
Trinity ate the I (L) Singapore sweet woots! Hahahaha funnaye. xD
CNY is TOMORROW, and I am rashing (FFFF), and my nails are still purple and I'm in a very bad mood.
-frowns.
Very lazy to upload photos. :/
Oh Speedy Gonzalez!
imu.
Beach fit @4:36 PM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
It's Valentine's Day, show some love!
(lol sek!)
Spent the whole night doing the Pinkys. I cut the labels till my eyes almost popped out. :O Was rewarding seeing the finished product as well as seeing smiles on the faces of those really special people. (: They make it all worth it!
Met the VBallers at the staircase. Assembly was long today. Stood behind with Vanessa and Shiyun to look out for Mr Fung.
Took the Gelare vouchers on behalf of the class. I'm so proud of CG06/07! We're gonna OWNNNNN. :D
Went to the Sports Complex after assembly and begged Mr Sim to trick Mr Fung into coming out so that we could surprise/embarrass him. He came out after soooo long and we took photos then back to class and saw my flowers waiting for me. (:
Chinese was rather interesting. History of Valentine's Day and other Vday related activities.
Wore Steph's pinafore during break. Twas so short i-wonder-why. Haha.
Then GP, which was rather dry but I somehow managed to keep awake! Yay me!
Bio lecture was sleep-inducing. I had to use my fingers to hold my eyes open.
Civics was crap. Contact time was...I didn't even know where contact time was held at.
Played ball with Trinity and ChangHoe. More like Make-Yumei-pick-the-ball. Then played captain's ball with this other group of people. Funny!! Sat around watching the OAC people do pull ups and argue with SweeLiang before leaving for Bedok interchange.
Stupidly took bus 12 which went to the back gate. -.- Crossed over and met Eunice who told me the correct buses to take. Was already late meeting Simmy. Hahaha. Met him and went off to meet Kai.
MRT-ied to Novena and walked around Velocity. Pretty hotstuff! Went to fish&co first. Dad & Mom came. Was bored cuz I didn't feel like eating much, so looked out of the glass and saw Shiyun. Damn funny! Called her and met her and talked cock till her Dad called to chase her.
Shopped a little and bought Birks Madrids in bronze! :DD I'm gonna wear them all around the house.
Had Movenpick's pistachio icecream! Yummaye.
Thanks to Huiling, Nini, Joshua, ChangHoe, Tianlong, Vanessa, Amy, Shiyun, Denise, Sek, Jac, Yanting, Kari, MengTing, Yinglin, Steph, Mr Wilson, the o6/o7 guys for the gifts. :D
I can't load photos I don't know why.
And great news, my post on the EL fair appeared on the class blog!! :D
I'm still a pile of emoshit.
Yumei, be strong.
Beach fit @10:51 PM
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
I give up.
I don't care anymore. It's difficult, but I don't wanna care anymore. If this is how God meant it to be, then so be it. I think it's karma.
Chemistry test today, which I entirely forgot about. I hope I pass. :/ I'm quite sure that I'm dumb now. Not just dumb, VERY dumb.
Econs was fun lahlahlah! Poor Miss Wong.
Junyi made me walk with him to the Sports Com to tell the basketball seniors that he sprained his ankle to 'justify' his absence. He reached there, took off his smelly socks and shoes and showed the seniors etc etc and sat there and had a chat! Nevermind. Then he went to the PE office and did i-dunno-what. Nevermind. Then he told me to wait, cuz he needed the toilet. So I waited. Then he came out and said he needed to tell his senior something. Then HE HAD ANOTHER LONG CHAT. Was so pissed I said BYEBYE and went off. NOOB.
Training was quite constructive. But Modern Dance was practicing in the hall too. Distraction. I kept looking over and trying to remember the steps. Haha!
Blocking! Blocked WengSeng's spikes. Miracle!
Spiking (and just about everything) was off today! D: Have to remember to relax my fingers to bao the ball.
Denise was fighting for the water cooler with me. That water cooler's jet was super high! So I was talking and laughing at her cuz I won her then I pressed the stupid button (whatever) and the water spurted (spurt?) straight into my eyes. I totally forgot that it was the high jet one. Needless to say, Denise laughed till !!!!. Damn.
Tomorrow's gonna be an utterlybutterly kickass cool day!
Its Friendship day cum Valentine's day cum Angel&Mortal revealing day cum inter-jc flower delivering day cum wear your own clothes day!
I'm tired and I'm not done with the Vday gifts. There're 80 plus to make. D:
BYEBYE.
Beach fit @9:16 PM
Monday, February 12, 2007
MR WILSON THIS IS HIGHLY FRUSTRATING.
I TOOK SUCH A LONG TIME AND TYPED AN UBER LONG POST REGARDING THE ENGLISH FAIR IN THE CLASS BLOG BUT IT HAS DISAPPEARED! POOF! VANISHED! GONE! DDDDDDDDDDDD:
can I just type it here?
I TOOK SUCH A LONG TIME AND TYPED AN UBER LONG POST REGARDING THE ENGLISH FAIR IN THE CLASS BLOG BUT IT HAS DISAPPEARED! POOF! VANISHED! GONE! DDDDDDDDDDDD:
can I just type it here?
ARGHHH I'm damn sad. I don't think I've ever written something so seriously before. ):
I'm apparently, not in a very good mood.
Anyway, FYI,
if I don't talk, then you better don't start tryin' to be funny. I will stuff my kneepads in your mouth I swear. And don't, I repeat, don't ever ever ever tell me to RELAC, tell me to relaC and my shoes go into your mouth too.
Went to prss to meet Yeebie. Had a chat with Seri and Randolph and Miss Kwan! Mrt-ied down to PS to get my stuff before Mrt-ing more to Harbourfront to meet the OG. Were supposed to go to Sentosa but the aircon was woahhh~
Went to prss to meet Yeebie. Had a chat with Seri and Randolph and Miss Kwan! Mrt-ied down to PS to get my stuff before Mrt-ing more to Harbourfront to meet the OG. Were supposed to go to Sentosa but the aircon was woahhh~
Have to go to Siloso beach to check the place out soon though. It's been almost 2 months since I've been there. :/
Lunched at Carls Jr before Mrt-ing MORE to Orchard. Shopped a little on my own, proved a lot more efficient. Got a little surprise for someone. (: Bought a normal bottle of heaven and earth green tea for $2.40. I think some serious inflation's happening at heaven and earth (wherever that is).
I'm in the baddest (whatever wrong grammar) of all bad moods now and you seriously shouldn't attempt to speak to me. I bite.
I haven't done any work this weekend. I'm now angry with myself as well. That makes me angry with just about the whole universe.
Great, just great.
Some people just don't get the idea that they're being annoying.
DIE, just wither away, rot, crumble, disappear, DIE.
Shopping kills my feet. :O
PHOTOS.
Kong Meng is SO pretty:
Dumbass.
LOVES.
I wish.
They made my day (Jeremy wins longest hand award!)
HUILING. Get wella soon. We bought you something special! (:
Beach fit @10:00 PM
Sunday, February 11, 2007
To a beautiful teacher, Mrs Chua.
I don't know what to say but that letter made me cry. Then again, I don't think you'll read this. But thanks anyway, for being a teacher, advisor and friend. You made me love a subject I used to hate. Now that's, what I call, amazing. (:
Go Green Day.
Damn tired.
Wore ugly jeans and ugly green polo tee to school. UGLY. Sigh.
Dumped our stuff in Mr Ng's car and made our way to the blocks.
VERY tiring, met some weird people, but still fun! Jeryl and Samuel were REALLY funny. Sat in the lorry and cheered!! :D
Met Shirlene, Jingliang, Jacob, and ChangHoe for lunch. Sat around and talked for super long. Shirline and Jacob decided to come to my house.
Camwhored on the roof. Sunlight made the photos real nice. (:
Stupid beetle in my room made Shirline and I scream like idiots.
Sentosa tomorrow! :D
Photos!
BBQing.
Pretty fairy lights at St 11!
During Civics lesson on a SUNDAY, Sek being a wimp, Us with KIA and YingEn lying on the bench.
Fun with the trolley which doubled up as a skateboard!
CG 06/07.
Some of the stuff we collected.
On the lorry!
Finally done.
Six oh Seven.
Are we cool or are we cool?
KIDS.
Bitches.
makin' WHOOPEE (not literally.)
don't go. please.
Beach fit @5:57 PM
Saturday, February 10, 2007
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
One of my all time favourites, by Bosson.
Yesterday has made me realise how important my friends, family and teachers are. I've never felt quite so special.
Mrs Chua, Mdm Mariamah, Mrs Sum, Ms Cheng, Ms Annabel Ho, Ms Ho Wei Wei, you won't read this, but thanks for everything. Especially Mrs Chua. (:
Family, Charlene Ahyi, Dad, Mom, and even Kai.
I cried, and you cried with me.
Y'all assured me and told me you were proud of me.
Friends. My girls and Seri who gave me big hugs. Tlong and Yxiong and comforting pats on the back. Lenard, who kept asking me if I was okay. ChangHoe. So nice for once. Thanks ah, ahbeng. YingEn, you're amazing. Haha. Simmy, trying desperately to tell me GOOD ALREADY. James, who's being real understanding and all.
Maybe missing my single digit by that point was a blessing in disguise.
At least I found out how lucky I am to be loved.
Life has to go on from now.
New journey has begun, and new deadlines to meet, and new aspirations to fulfill. I know where I'm heading now and I'm gonna work hard and I'll make sure I cry tears of joy when I receive my A level results.
In the meantime, I've loads of shopping to do. So i guess you people can stop asking me if I'm alright now. Cuz if I can shop, I'm perfectly fine. :D
And I have been bugging parents for braces. I think (hope) it's working. Ahh~
Go Green Day Carnival @TJ tmr! Have to reach at 7.25am on SUNDAY.
Eff. D:
FAREWELL.
Beach fit @9:25 PM
Friday, February 09, 2007
i'll be praying for you.
I've failed myself. I didn't see my name on the screen.
I didn't get my single digit. Just one, fucking point.
Don't bother asking what I got.
Don't tell me my grades are good enough. Because there is no such thing as enough.
And to those who know my results, you don't have to tell everyone you know that Yumei cried/got **points.
To those who know my results and can't shut your trap, do the world a favour and stab yourself.
I need retail therapy.
Just as I thought I had a glimmer of hope, it vanished.
Not worth it anymore.
screw the system.
Beach fit @10:43 PM
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Whatever will be, will be.
It's D-Day tomorrow.
I'm not nervous, not one bit.
But since it's one of the bigger events that will take place in my-life-so-far, I thought it's pretty blog-worthy.
It all seems so surreal.
It seemed not too long ago when we were trapped in the stuffy classrooms, being forced into learning about Hitler and whatnot. Then came post prelims, which was quite...rememberable. Then mugging at the airport...almost forgetting the time..tuition with Coach..room walls covered with inspirational notes, notes of encouragement from friends, self motivational notes...striking off the subjects from our entry proof (aka the Very Important Piece of $5 Paper.), the last paper, history, Huiling's contact lenses...the numbness..
Then again, it seems rather long ago.
So long yet so short.
Looking back ,there's nothing I regret.
Apart from A Math, that is. :/
To all you O levelers, here's something I have to say.
No point wishing good luck, no point sending chain messages along the lines of 'pass this message to 20 people, if you do, you will pass your O's with flying colours. If you don't, you will fail.', no point thinking so much.
Because
you can fast for 24 hours,
you can pray from now till tomorrow,
you can pass the message to 6753923 people,
you can think and lose sleep over this,
and you still won't get 6 points if your real L1R5 is 15.
Your script is marked, your marks recorded and sent from England to Singapore. Nothing you do now will change anything.
I know though, that I will cry tomorrow.
If I do badly, I will cry.
If I do well, I will cry.
If I do okay, I will also cry.
I don't know why, I just have that feeling.
Dang~
To the people who said 'you not worried right? you dsa one what! 20 points can already..' I've said it before and I'll say it again.
My DSA approval made me work harder than ever to prove my worth. It made me want to show all you skeptics that Foong Yumei can get in based on her merits as well.
Don't tell me that I'm from Pasir Ris Sec that's why I'm dumb,because I will stuff my shoe into your mouth. Get that?
Actually, what I'm more worried about if the results of the SportsXcel Scholarship selection, which will be released at 11am tomorrow. I'm not very confident, but anyhow, it's still nerve wrecking.
And if you wanna ask 'if younot worried then why are you up still? too nervous till cannot sleep uh?', the answer is No.
My hair is still wet.
Had training. Training was okay. Didn't feel like I had control of the ball. I'm so inconsistent. D: My receiving is failing me again. I must keep my vision alive. I can do it. Work hard, Yumei.
Anyway, I don't know if you'll read this but,
happy birthday kelly!
School's good. Friends are great company. The CG's getting more bonded and WE WON EXHIBITION. It's CG 06/07, go see! Outside the auditorium.
Changhoe's being quite an ass, calling me on my handphone to tell me to look to my left cuz there's this hot guy, and I will turn, only to see him waving at me. Amusing though. (:
And my angel and mortal are really nice. I get fed everyday!
And little things like Jeryl folding 2 cranes with the fruitella wrapper for me.
Plus the people like Jacob and Junyi who are really annoying but they make me smile. :D
Lastly, Amy! She's been a total doll.
I can't say I'm not blessed.
Seems like I'm not the only one experiencing that particular problem. I'm not alone.
Stop making use of me.
It goes in a roundabout.
COME WHAT MAY.
Labels: O's Results.
Beach fit @11:19 PM
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Chocolate Allergy.
I keep eating chocolates these days. My Dad bought chocolates, my mortal keeps giving me chocolates.. It's really bad for my skin. Plus I don't feel the endorphins. :/
Cg06/07 had math supplementary class on board the student lounge. Why is it that when such trigger-worthy moments happen, I DON'T HAVE MY CAMERA with me. Had to make do with my lousy 2mp phone camera. Dang~ Was so cool! The students in the upperdeck actually videotaped/took photos of the lesson. Qiang Xian Sheng! He's one rad math tutor!
Had OGL interview today! Felt dumb cheering alone. Stephanie and Karilynn were waaaay cool company. I hope we all make it! :D
Got a lil' shock when this low low voice came from behind 'Where's that soyabean drink you owe me?'. Twas Marcius! That vain ass kept checking his hair in the reflection of the council noticeboard. Haha.
Then came the nerve wrecking SportsXcel interview. Went well, I guess. But whether or not my credentials are up to their standards, is another matter all together. Thought that Mrs Lim was really nice. TGForNicePeople.
Dreaded math lect. test on Thurs. I don't know if I'll pass but I'll give it my best shot and face it head-on!
D-Day on Friday. No point getting all nervous. But I can't say I'm not though.